Yor Ryeter

[1: 1,906 of 10,000] My Fascination About Life

In Journal on July 13, 2018 at 11:51 PM

Do you ever wonder what you truly need as a human being? Yes, there are those factors that we wanted to be seen, heard, respected, empowered, powerful, wealthy, comfortable, smart, but there are three things that truly fascinate me.

First is LOVE. I read from a book that love is too complex to define, but we have to try to grasp it especially if, of all the factors in life, it seems to be the most important… but wait is it really that we wanted to be loved or to love or both? And the biggest revelation that we are in fact made out of love so we are in constant flow of a positive energy, it just stops when we forget who we truly are.

Second is UNIQUENESS. There are moments that we wanted to be set apart from others for being our own voice, sharing our authenticity, and that’s truly impactful when it happens. It just stops when we try to follow the crowd, play small, and losing to make a stand.

Third is EGO. Ego that takes its form from all experience, making assumptions out of its presumed logical prowess, and yet causing so much pain when not put in check. We need it as our intellectual capability and to trigger courage or humbleness when used properly.

May I remember that I am love and it will blow my mind if my actions are toward the greater good of myself and others. May I always enjoy my uniqueness and share my story through my lens, and be a responsible human being that is part of a big world yet a world that is so much a part of me. May I keep my ego in check in meditation and prayer in order to act with a gentle peace, resolution, and forgiveness.

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[1: 1,905 of 10,000] Can I End It All?

In Journal on June 9, 2018 at 9:14 PM

Have you been following the news that Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain took their lives? I love Kate Spade items… I’ve owned her products because they are not very expensive but really pretty. I knew Anthony from sissy when she watched some episodes of The Layover which I now started to watch and finished Season 2 and he had a very interesting take on things from food, culture, hotel, and things to do in a place.

Last week, I was really in a bad place, having my buttons pushed from work. I feel disrespected and called lazy in a very subtle way. Some of it is true and I simply snapped and cave into my fight mode and ran repulsive feelings of I don’t need this job, I would rather quit and start my own thing, who the hell he thinks he is, and I was so frustrated that I’d rather die and quit life altogether. I know everything that I am saying is just me giving up instead of finding solutions to make things work the best way. I hear the things that are hurting myself. I’m glad my sissy talked to me, cried my heart out, then sleep, and enjoyed the weekend of doing the things that I love – nothing (lazy huh?) actually watching movies that made me feel better and listening to positive messages.

It feels easy to stop the pain by thinking if I die then all these sufferings will end but I am learning that life with God isn’t supposed to be that way. It was my hurt ego that was convulsing to the fact that my credentials and capabilities are being questioned. This is my chance to grow and after all the soul searching I found my peace and ready to go to work tomorrow with a fresh perspective and NO NEGATIVE ATTITUDE. It is also starting to push me to refocus and live towards the life that I wanted – travel, write, run a business empire, enjoy adventures with family and friends, and do things to make this world a better place than I found it.

[1: 1,904 of 10,000] A Quiet Place

In Review on May 2, 2018 at 12:12 AM
A QUIET PLACE

In this scene, the daughter and father were arguing. It reminds me of my own father who wished to provide me with everything I wanted but couldn’t all the time and to be honest what I wanted were not really a necessity.

I went to the movie house expecting a horror film for “A Quiet Place” and I went out all teared up but the very end bit made me laugh because it was cheesy and a cliche but it was totally irrelevant of the movie’s total appeal.

The story and acting were amazing. I did expect that I will jolt every now and then because it’s a horror movie and this I believe is only the third horror movie that I was brave enough to see in a theater. The real surprise is the drama part, there were several scenes that broke my heart and automatically made my tear ducts unstoppable.

Spoiler alert! Whenever I remember the scene that the father sacrificed his life for the safety of his children and choosing that moment to tell his daughter how much he loves her in sign language, I still cry like a baby.

I really like the movie. Side note, the movie house was so quiet and full (I’ve seen it in Dubai Mall) I must say that I couldn’t eat my popcorn and dare make a sound.