Yor Ryeter

[1: 1,960 of 10,000] A Good Feeling About 2019

In Journal on January 1, 2019 at 3:01 PM

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I love new beginnings and I do recognize the struggles that sometimes go with it but last night before the midnight struck 12:01 to officially welcome 2019, I feel the surge of excitement and peace.

2018 is so last year and I am ready for 2019 and achieve key goals that I intend to accomplish. I keep it really tight and focus on 5 things:

  1. Save and Invest – I have to take care of myself and my future, I would do what I have to do right now so I can do want I want to do later on (referencing to a reflection of a line from ‘The Great Debaters.’) I know living in the present is important but living with freedom without worrying about the necessities in life is the dream.
  2. Write a book – I am ready for my second book to publish in Amazon and I am excited that I have the concept in place and even the root intention. I’m excited to create again. This is actually making me feel so alive, I have to create something to know that I am living a purpose.
  3. CALM + KINDNESS + PEACE – Brandon Burchard has questions at the end of the day, “Did I live? Did I love? Did I matter?” and I have been searching my three things and for this year especially I have drilled it down to calm, kindness and peace for a pretty good reason.
    • Calm because I have the tendency to worry and when I freeze then I couldn’t act, and I don’t like that feeling anymore, so calm to have the action to accept the situation and not overthink it.
    • Kindness because when I lose my bearing (lack of sleep or overwhelmed) I turned into a disaster blabber and monster. Everyone has their own demons to combat and I don’t need to be part of their demon to deal with.
    • Peace will always be my ultimate compass that will not change until the end of my life. Love is equally important but peace means I get to go to bed and enjoy my dream.
  4. No more late submission at work – I know that I am turning more irresponsible at work. I could already sense that I am not happy with how things are running in the company but I still recognize that when I love what am doing I lose track of time. I need the job for a practical reason and there’s no reason that I have to be a pain to anyone by doing late works, so this year, I’ll be determined and focused.
  5. Learn to speak, read, and write Arabic – I’ve been in the Middle East for 10 years and I can’t speak, read, or write their language and it’s frustrating at work that I am not fully equipped so this year I finally decided to learn a new skill.

Aside from the 5 above, I would be mindful that I get good sleep daily (at least 7 hours), pray (as soon as I wake up and go to bed), meditate daily (usually I do 15-minutes but I think am ready for 20-minutes – will try this tomorrow and see how it feels), get fit and move 30 minutes daily, journal 1 sentence a day (which I’ve done for 1 full year in 2018), and finally feed my body, mind, and spirit with good food.

What are your goals for 2019, are you all set too and excited like me?

Photo source:Photo by Amy Shamblen on Unsplash

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[1: 1,959 of 10,000] Loving Even The Imperfection

In Journal on December 5, 2018 at 8:20 PM

I have a new appreciation for not living aiming for perfection and efficiency inspired by the podcast of Rob Bell, The RobCast, Episode 220. I always have the desire to achieve the best works, which means it has the ingredients of being perfect from conceptualization, development, and completion. I do pressure myself of always pursuing perfection.

Yet what I heard/grasp from the sermon (digitally delivered) is imperfection is as beautiful as the perfect one because it was meant to happened that way. It makes more sense when I add it with what I’ve always believed, “everything happens for a reason and nothing is ever wasted,” and this includes all the problems that are often hard and ugly including the memories that I have the habit of escaping and intentionally forgetting to avoid reliving the pain.

Everything is interconnected and one incident leads to another. Nothing is ever a mistake but a wall leads to a detour, another adventure, or to prove to oneself how much something is wanted that I’ll exert all strength that I have to break the wall. It helps that I often lean to optimism when talking about disheartening situations, but now with the new found appreciation, I found a kind of peace and surrender of what is.

[1: 1,958 of 10,000] Patience Vs. Instant Gratification

In Journal on November 30, 2018 at 10:51 AM

I remember when I was a teenager, I thought life is so hard that I am willing to die and make a deal with the devil to make sure I feel better. I try to recollect what were my disappointments before and what pops up is I don’t feel pretty enough and I am not smart enough to be on top of our class.

Now that I’ve experienced the peace when I am truly connected to God, I wondered why would I ever believe the devil will be able to provide what I seemed to feel that I am missing in my life… and it daunts on me that my humanity is looking for instant gratification.

I am beginning to appreciate the advantage of PATIENCE because it is one of the perfect qualities of God. Do not worry about the past and the future but I am to do my best right now. It takes seasons for a flower to bloom and flourish. What I am now is because I’ve endured different experiences and if I was bold enough to learn then I am stronger today.

Being bad and rebelious is not about leaning to the wrong side, if I silent my human weaknesses and lean on the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, my burdens are light and my day is meaningful. I have to practice that muscle and never again will I give in to complacency and rush of getting material accolade instantly. I will enjoy the process, the journey, and celebrate the fruition that culminates an end… and then be brave to begin again.