Yor Ryeter

[1: 1,018 of 10,000] My Innermost Fear

In Journal on May 13, 2013 at 12:00 AM


He wanted in to my life but I am so afraid that if I let him I will fall in love all over again. I don’t know what he’s thinking but my gut feeling says he’s trying to lure me – all for his advantage.

I can’t let it happen because I wanted to be in control; to be fooled will never be an option and yet restraining myself to this closeness just left me in a loop of drama.

My heart gently sways with the quiet room. I am wishing for a real good dream to happen where fantasy could comfort my shouting urges. I wanted to escape my fear that blatantly hunts me in the face.

I don’t understand what this state explains. I don’t know if it will ever have a special purpose or a good reason eventually. I drown myself with the music that plays in my head, without a direction, just moving and living.

  1. I love the photo. I don’t think I know all the circumstances. I have a feeling you may be right in holding back. No doubt this is painful for you. I wished there was an easy way for you. But for sure it’s better to do what is right, that is not to give in. Someone once told me there’s a reason for everything. I guess sometimes we have to go through considerable pain. I hope the music can make you feel a bit better.

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