I love that warm fuzzy feeling but not everyday is a happy day.
In my worst moments of uncaring, I created drama.
Soon I was addicted with the hype.
I kept doing the jolt of intense feeling in different scenarios.
The high was just for awhile. Shortlived.
I was getting creative but all in the wrong tracks.
Then I got tired.
I was really guilty.
I melt down to self-pity.
And then to lost.
I have to seek God’s help. I need you God.
Only you can change me from inside out.
I couldn’t control my longing for attention and love.
I am so afraid of rejections. Abandonement.
I even forget to breathe sometimes.
I need kisses.
I need hugs.
I need comfort that I am not alone.
I need you God.