Yor Ryeter

[1: 1,608 of 10,000] What Am I Willing To Do For My Loved One?

In Journal on October 3, 2015 at 10:07 AM


They say ego likes identifying with somebody or something. It likes ownership. My egoic self used to think that my sisters are my extension. My previous assistants in the office is a reflection of my performance. And so before, I thought if there is anyone who will hurt my sisters, I will hurt those people back without hesitations.

Few days back, because of watching too much cannibalism on television, I was dreaming that I am eating my youngest sister’s flesh but they looked like sliced brown bread when I see it on my plate, and when I realised that I was going to eat all of her and it would kill her, I was devasted, sad, and crying. When I woke up and realised what I’ve done, I feel sad again that I don’t want to lose my youngest sister who currently lives with me here in Dubai (we’re both single and it feels like all we have is each other). My other sister, middle one, is happily married in Australia.

After learning about God’s love and mercy, I know that my sisters will never be harmed. I know that everybody will have a life that is amazing so long that we don’t make choices that are regretable. I will never be able to control the decisions and circumstances that my sisters are in, but I would always be their guide for as long as they needed me.

I love them so much that I am willing to do whatever I can to make them happy but they can only be happy if they wanted to. So I shall always be their role model, I shall live in peace and harmony, and my very presence will inspire them to live their most magical and miraculous life.

I love growing mature because my heart expands and I am very contented that I can do my best and let go of the things that I have no control of.

So will I ever kill the people who would hurt my sisters? If you ask me now, no but I will still defend them to claim justice if needed be.

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