I am very afraid lately.
- Losing my job and feeling useless with no money, to be in debt, staying at home doing nothing
- Irresponsible and being late with my commitments
- Getting scolded and shamed
- Dishonoured and made feel very uncomfortable
- Not good enough
- Not progressing fast enough and get a breakthrough
- I cannot fully love myself hence cannot love others
I know that everyday I need to get up in the morning and do what I have to do even if it’s painful. I have to soldier on.
I wanted to feel alive and happy; but right now I could count the times that I am laughing my heart out and really truly feeling peaceful. Move on, slowly but surely.