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[1: 1,891 of 10,000] Taste of Life

In Article on August 11, 2017 at 1:12 AM

Do you really find the world a dreaded place? You failed a few times but don’t forget that you’ve won too. Why are you so afraid living in the present and in doing so you hold on too tight of the past and weary about the future?

You said you are smart. You believed you know love. You learned that mistakes and pains were part of the tools to gain wisdom and make better decisions. Actions are key to feel the grit of life.

Why would you give up life after tasting it? Some people begged for another day, another chance, immortality even; because they have found what is worth living for. Don’t tell me you have not discovered the meaning worth living for!

I will let you in to a secret, what is your preference? Surely you will like one genre of a television series, are you “Suits,” or “Breaking Bad,” or “House of Cards,” or “The Middle,” or “Game of Thrones” watcher? Then list some more of matters that interest you, and in those you will find what you truly care for. When you are brave and honest enough, you will enjoy the entirety of life.

[1: 1,890 of 10,000] Tinder Experience

In Review on August 5, 2017 at 4:22 AM

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I downloaded the Tinder app, signed up, deleted my account, signed up again, deleted my account again, and finally deleted the app in a span of less than two months.

I am scared to be flirty although I did try and made an effort. I am afraid to fall in love with a wrong man… I know the mere thought of finding a wrong man already set me up for disaster. I doubt that the man I want to settle down with signed up in Tinder. Could it be that as hesitant as I may be is the same feeling of the man I am meant to meet?

Or are we crossing paths but I never looked, paused?

For something to happen, I need to take an action, but I couldn’t seem to stomach signing up in Tinder and swiping as fast as I can. In seconds judging an individual with their photos and brief write up then making all these assumptions.

I hated it when I mistakenly liked or even super liked somebody I don’t even meant to be just because my silly thumb has a mind of its own to the right direction. I swiped left too soon and missed the possibility of I might like that man. I wonder if I am going to find a really honest gentleman. I laugh when I found a match only after a few minutes one of us would decide we are not a match after all ouch quick rejection!

It feels like so much work to be part of it so I have to challenge myself and find another way to meet good men. I have to sign up for activities where I will actually interact with men.

[1: 1,889 of 10,000] Have Fun!

In List on July 15, 2017 at 9:33 AM

Have fun whatever my age is.

Go do something new and laugh.

Make mistakes, learn, and laugh.

Whatever is making me nervous can be addressed.

Don’t jump to conclusion and create worries that are inexistent.

Do something, act, and I’ve beaten procrastination.

Don’t dream what could have been, do it.

Did the sun shine? Did I breathe? Did I open my eyes? Did my heart beat? Today?

I got all the chances to live and have fun!

[1: 1,888 of 10,000] What My 37 Year Old Self Is Still Learning

In List on July 4, 2017 at 12:01 PM
  1. I do the work and the worry will dissipate.
  2. Do not stop until I finish the task to avoid procrastination. To have the discipline to focus on one task at a time because although multi-tasking can be done, I couldn’t depend on it resulting to a quality work.
  3. Mastery takes time; it takes repetition and doing it better than the last time, showing up, be creative to mix a new ingredient, and keep the burning passion alive.
  4. Who are you trying to please? Work that God is cheering on me, the God who loves me unconditionally and directs me to my best with my willingness. Listen to constructive criticism and forgive the wrong critiques.
  5. Make mistakes, laugh at them, be accountable, and learn not to repeat them. Don’t be too hard on myself because if tomorrow I wake up, it is for a reason.
  6. It’s not because it has always been done means it’s the right way. Life continues to evolve to a new height. I don’t need to expect myself to be married and have kids now; but I do need to work on building a business empire with my sisters.
  7. I know what makes me happy, gives me excitement, and joy. They are clues to MY path. I should do them more often even if it scares me, even if there’s a revolt going on inside of me, and make a mastery out of it. I must do this for me and the world will appreciate it that I did it with love.
  8. What breaks my heart points me to what I want this world to heal from. Put seeds in those areas and let it grow.
  9. Live a life with integrity. Honor my words and commitment. Show up to new things even if I am scared. Be the change I want to see. Leave this world better than I found it.
  10. Meaningful relationship will enrich my life and I have to make an effort to build them.
  11. Teach people how I want to be treated like setting the boundary and say yes if it’s a yes.
  12. Don’t judge people in cluster, judge based on personal contact. Don’t put the label before I have given myself a chance to know the person.
  13. I need to slow down, sleep well, eat right, exercise, and keep learning new things through books, podcast, videos, and going out there to live a life. I pray to talk to God to send my thoughts but it is through my quietness and meditation that He sends His.
  14. Simplify and stop buying stuffs that either get thrown or not used. Learn to be a minimalist.
  15. Of all my confusion and clutter, I withdraw them and surrender to the moment that I find peace and I am contented that I have one thing to be grateful for.

[1: 1,887 of 10,000] Silence

In Journal on July 4, 2017 at 10:47 AM

My sister, my only flat mate, just left to have a vacation in Europe. I am left alone in our one bedroom apartment in Dubai. I couldn’t stand the silence for a long time knowing that I am alone and resulted to opening the television, playing something from Netflix through my laptop, or playing a podcast out loud from my phone. But when my sister is around, I love the wee hours where there is complete quietness and I can hear my raging thoughts, making plans for the future, and listing my graces that I’m grateful for.

There is a puzzle in my head that I couldn’t solve, my heart is restless and there’s struggle in my dreams when I sleep. I feel that I am close to solving it though, the pieces are all over the place but maybe I am missing a key, and I want desperately to finish in order to see the picture. I am haunted for not finishing and yet I also see the beauty of having it unfinished; but is settling with the unfinished showed that I got a mindset of a blind investor who did not calculate the risks?

I am worried, probably because of the Venti Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks or my body demands that I hit the gym. There are split moment that I caught myself to cease the worrying because it is not useful, but instead have the courage to do the work and show up to the things that I am passionate about, work to be great at it, or pursue to make it happen.

[1: 1,886 of 10,000] My Utmost Prayer Right Now

In Prayer on June 27, 2017 at 5:00 PM

Beloved Holy Spirit,

I call on you, humble, on my knees, praying to grant me wisdom.

The wisdom that would allow me to enter a sacred quietness to touch my soul that hears the language of a powerful discernment then I would be able to make the right choices and act on a decision out from a good intention having fierce courage because I wear my fear and resistance.

I need you so I will succeed to be a better reflection of God than I ever was yesterday. I need you so I would be at peace.

Thank you for listening to my plea. Thank you for granting your presence to be with me.

Amen.

 

 

[1: 1,885 of 10,000] There Are People

In Poem on June 25, 2017 at 3:50 AM

There are people who are alone
There are people who are attached
There are people who have lost both parents
There are people who got stepparents

There are people who knew love
There are people who felt love
There are people who abandoned love
There are people who could not recognize love

There are people who I want to be
There are people who wanted to be me
There are people who see the world as it is
There are people who see the soul of the world

There are people
There are people
There are people
There are people

[1: 1,884 of 10,000] You Can’t Save Everybody

In Journal on June 6, 2017 at 10:14 PM

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Is it really preposterous to believe we can’t save everybody?

I believe everybody is unique hence every single one has different needs and yet don’t we really all want the same thing? Is there one ultimate destination that we wanted? Do we really want LOVE but we have various ways of rediscovering and reliving it? Is it important that we are one; or are we good as we are even with our flaws that could propel us to our greatness?

What is greatness? Is it finding the peace amidst the percepted chaos? Why do we get lost? Why do we succumb to evil or maltreatment? Why don’t we immediately feel conscientious as our compass to kindness?

Why do we doubt our essence that we are perfect, whole, and complete? Why did we forget that we are incredibly perfect, loved, and capable to love?

Does anybody really need saving? Maybe not saving, but we need reminders of who we truly are within so we can unlearn the things that clouded the real us. One a time, let us remind one another, and one at a time we do what’s loving (1 Corinthians 13:4-7).

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[1: 1,883 of 10,000] To Change A Habit Is Possible

In Journal on May 29, 2017 at 12:04 AM

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To change a habit is possible.

I have always preferred white sugar for my tea, because it is sweet and I don’t want to be part of the crowd who is too conscious about what they eat… it felt pretentious and involved a lot of work. I thought few white sugar couldn’t possibly turn me into a giant whale.  After few sessions at the gym with a watchful trainer, I decided that I can change and choose to be healthy.

At first, I will have to bear to eat foods that are healthy even if they don’t taste delectable to my palate, like using sweetener instead of a regular sugar. Eventually, I couldn’t really tell if it took more than a week and I could distinctly taste that the white sugar is “too sweet” and I couldn’t eat chocolates or cookies anymore knowing it is excessive with unhealthy sugar.

Habit like taste preference can be changed in my story, either for my betterment or to my detriment. The choice has always been mine, and it is only when I become open to try a new way that I will find out and ready to give my sincere effort. I can survive now without white sugar not because I am forced but I just accept that I could.

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[1: 1,882 of 10,000] My Eulogy

In Journal on May 27, 2017 at 3:59 PM

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She grouped the clothes hangers with the same color and type, she donated extra $5 twice to a fund raising to round off the collection, but she was never diagnosed with OCD because she never get herself tested.

It wasn’t OCD that lead to her passing because if you would expect her to keep a clean handwritten organizer then it would be the contrary because her calendar and to do list is all over the place, she admitted loving all the notes and mess because it is a sign of a life well lived and it is the same reason why she didn’t understand a clean rubber shoes.

Ideas flowed through her mind as air is easily available for men to breathe. She can fill pages of her random thoughts but mostly about philosophy especially what she knew for sure or almost believed so that is close to sure. That is another quality that we love about her, she speaks the truth and lived with integrity.

She lived her life without regrets. She thrived everyday. She had forgiven everyone especially herself. She touched our lives as she always said: “I care for you in the best way I knew how.” And it was indeed enough.

It will always be a joy to remember her, to have met her, and an example of a person who came and left this world better than she found it. Her endeavors with all new borns to be loved is remarkable. No baby is ever to be born with questioned dignity and perfection. She made us see that we are whole, complete, enough.

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