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[1: 1,905 of 10,000] Can I End It All?

In Journal on June 9, 2018 at 9:14 PM

Have you been following the news that Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain took their lives? I love Kate Spade items… I’ve owned her products because they are not very expensive but really pretty. I knew Anthony from sissy when she watched some episodes of The Layover which I now started to watch and finished Season 2 and he had a very interesting take on things from food, culture, hotel, and things to do in a place.

Last week, I was really in a bad place, having my buttons pushed from work. I feel disrespected and called lazy in a very subtle way. Some of it is true and I simply snapped and cave into my fight mode and ran repulsive feelings of I don’t need this job, I would rather quit and start my own thing, who the hell he thinks he is, and I was so frustrated that I’d rather die and quit life altogether. I know everything that I am saying is just me giving up instead of finding solutions to make things work the best way. I hear the things that are hurting myself. I’m glad my sissy talked to me, cried my heart out, then sleep, and enjoyed the weekend of doing the things that I love – nothing (lazy huh?) actually watching movies that made me feel better and listening to positive messages.

It feels easy to stop the pain by thinking if I die then all these sufferings will end but I am learning that life with God isn’t supposed to be that way. It was my hurt ego that was convulsing to the fact that my credentials and capabilities are being questioned. This is my chance to grow and after all the soul searching I found my peace and ready to go to work tomorrow with a fresh perspective and NO NEGATIVE ATTITUDE. It is also starting to push me to refocus and live towards the life that I wanted – travel, write, run a business empire, enjoy adventures with family and friends, and do things to make this world a better place than I found it.

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[1: 1,904 of 10,000] A Quiet Place

In Review on May 2, 2018 at 12:12 AM
A QUIET PLACE

In this scene, the daughter and father were arguing. It reminds me of my own father who wished to provide me with everything I wanted but couldn’t all the time and to be honest what I wanted were not really a necessity.

I went to the movie house expecting a horror film for “A Quiet Place” and I went out all teared up but the very end bit made me laugh because it was cheesy and a cliche but it was totally irrelevant of the movie’s total appeal.

The story and acting were amazing. I did expect that I will jolt every now and then because it’s a horror movie and this I believe is only the third horror movie that I was brave enough to see in a theater. The real surprise is the drama part, there were several scenes that broke my heart and automatically made my tear ducts unstoppable.

Spoiler alert! Whenever I remember the scene that the father sacrificed his life for the safety of his children and choosing that moment to tell his daughter how much he loves her in sign language, I still cry like a baby.

I really like the movie. Side note, the movie house was so quiet and full (I’ve seen it in Dubai Mall) I must say that I couldn’t eat my popcorn and dare make a sound.

[1: 1,903 of 10,000] My Motivation Booster

In Article on March 3, 2018 at 2:21 AM

Enjoy

I truly appreciate that my effective motivation booster is to remind myself that I need to “enjoy”. Enjoy was defined by Merriam-Webster as to take pleasure or satisfaction in and that is really a good way to make living worth it.

Whenever I feel stressed and pressured about work, I remind myself to pause and ask I must enjoy this and if I don’t feel the fun what can I do to be it so? Even during blogging, I have the two word reminder the moment I start to write and that is “enjoy writing”. Part of my routine about the enjoyment route is to see what is comedic about a horrible mistakes that I made, not that I am not sorry and have not learned my lesson, but my mind does this trick that let me endure suffering with the error I made in video loop in my head, so instead of dwelling on that I allow to make fun of myself to lighten up my mood and can proceed to try again or go do another work.

I am a serious person and I like to concentrate on the things that I do so enjoying once work never let me lose sight of my focus for an excellent work but instead it helps out to give me a boost and can tap in my persistence.

A typical day with a positive aura coupled with smile allowed me to received compliments. Based from true experience, even someone else’s hyperness who is exemplary in enjoying a great day rubbed off on me; and I hope this post will give you the same jolt of goodness to have a great day today and every day.

We cannot escape challenges and devasting circumstances that sometimes necessary for our crucial growth but we have the option to still find the glistening optimism and enjoyment.

[1: 1,902 of 10,000] Time Was My Kryptonite

In Article on February 17, 2018 at 3:36 PM

Kryptonite

My ego, the part of me that can constantly tell a story that I’m the best and worst – all for the sake to operate from fear instead of love, has obsession about time or age and it is dilapidating.

Some of my scared ego-talks:

  • I want to be the youngest member of this club because I am special.
  • I need to get that thing to elevate my status now.
  • I am too old to become famously rich.
  • I got white hairs… how do I expect to get a husband and raise children?
  • 38 and still an employee? (even hearing this in a snotty remark)
  • It will take time to learn and become an expert, how will I do school ‘again’ and still work to be a responsible adult and practical?
  • Your peers have achieved so much in their career (company owner / VPs) while you are still a manager.
  • You’re so slow.
  • What is the point of doing great? Are you intending to leave a legacy, but wait who do you think you are who is worth leaving a legacy? You are going to die one day, so again, what is the point of all these hard works?

So how do I calm my fearful ego that is a part of me and that I lovingly call my intellect that needs a leader?

  • I meditate and pray to calm my nerves. I don’t always get the answers when I meditate and pray, maybe I am not there yet, but the fact that I could become calm and not go to panic mode at all times that I even lose proper sleeps because I was paralyzed with the amount of goals I want to immediately achieve.
  • I forgive myself that I have so much eagerness and not capable to move a mountain yet. And then I do what I can that leads to my ultimate goal. It doesn’t matter if it takes time to learn; so instead I lean on my incremental growth every day.
  • Choose one battle at a time. Choose a team to help if it’s the additional ingredient of success. If I die before I achieve everything, I will be fine without regrets because I was able to accomplished some things.
  • Treat my journey as mine and not to compare myself with others. My own growth is my business and the key is my life is rooted with good intentions.
  • I enjoy the journey and celebrate the destination; and then I do it all over again with a new pursuit. If I wake up every morning, it means I have this moment to enjoy life, if a day turned out to be excruciating than I have hoped for, I could go to bed, release the past, and I will wake up the next morning again to have another clean slate.

What is your kryptonite and how do you overcome it?