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[1: 1,941 of 10,000] WOEAIHF? Day 35 of 42

In Journal on August 31, 2018 at 9:05 AM

WOEAIHF is Rick Warren’s “What On Earth Am I Here For?” book.

Day 35: God’s power in your weakness

We are like fragile and flawed clay jars that store the treasures of heaven. We have weaknesses to need others because strength breeds an independent spirit, not needing anyone.

This chapter highlight being vulnerable, to be honest about my limitations because if I open others can find healing in my wounds. Okay, let’s see…

At 38 I am starting to have the inclination that I needed a man who will give me a hug and the warm fuzzy feeling because there’s no one right now to physically give me what my body needed. I sometimes sleep on the sofa and tuck myself in so it feels like am being hugged. I did not actively pursue to be in a relationship because I only focused on these things:

  1. If a man can only give me financial security then I am not in need of one as I can do it myself. I know now that I can need the help to maybe build a home that is filled with love and laughter. Love and joy multiplied a thousand times more.
  2. Being in a relationship with someone I know nothing of is scary and I don’t like the drama of fighting especially that in the latter part of my parents’ marriage went ugly. I don’t need to focus on the negative and be in the moment of growing into our best together.
  3. I am not ready for having children out of wedlock. I was so afraid in my younger years that I won’t be able to have self-control so I bailed being intimate with anyone. I don’t like to have children because I don’t want to give them the expectation that they have to take care of me when I grow old. If I wait to be ready for anything I am not going to get a lot of things done.
  4. My role model for men in my family are weak, the women were the strongest one in spirit but I am now slowly learning to appreciate men as they are. Isn’t weird that for the Me Too Movement they are concern women were undermined yet in my lifetime it was reverse.

What will I do with my relationship status? I am going to live my life with service and if the man suitable for me comes along, hold up, and then I will attract the suitable man for me and I will be entertaining.

 

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