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[1: 1,965 of 10,000] The Defining Moment When I Knew I Desired To Write

In Journal on May 30, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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People who grew up loving what they do knew their deepest desire that they were meant to do it. I met a doctor who said, “I’ve always known that I wanted to become a doctor.” Great singers have the voice that blows our mind. Me… the defining moment when I knew I desired to write is because of my neighbour whom I considered an elder sister said, “You can make anything come true if you write it.”

My young mind understood that well I’ve always wanted a genie and that sounds pretty close in having one and the difference I didn’t even have a limitation of only three wishes. There was a time that my novel was a roadmap to my actual life, but that doesn’t always happen. What grew is my love affair with writing, not about making a wish come true, but it transitioned that it gives me the joy to write, and now I am at the point that I write to inspire people of what I write and for others to be infected of my joy because I am writing.

My beginning feels selfish and childish because it is what I was able to grasp and my point of experience in that life. Now, I am still selfish because I do write since it gives me pleasure but I think about others that may my writing gives another light to a path of seeing the beauty of life.

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[1: 1,964 of 10,000] Do You Remember A Moment of Grace In Your Life?

In Journal on May 25, 2019 at 1:40 AM

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My heart is full of love right now. I feel so blessed and loved. I have something to be grateful for every day because I am enjoying life.

Don’t get me wrong, I still worry about work, disappointed that I can’t meet my deadline, but the deeper I am in shit the harder I prayed and asked for help especially wisdom from the Holy Spirit. My burden becomes lighter, and I get disciplined to finish one task after another.

My calendar in both professional and personal are so full, but every day, I sat down for meditation as a reminder that I can capture a moment of calm, and then I start moving. I learned to act without waiting for anyone’s permission or for the circumstance to be perfect.

Going back to my main question, do you remember a moment of grace in your life? It doesn’t have to be a big deal but notice the small miracles. Find those moments when you can feel your heart and soul soothed.

I noticed that whenever I listen to Nessun Dorma sang, there’s something magical that can bring me to tears, and those were my moments of grace. What raises through my mind is how grateful I am listening to this beautiful opera singers using their talent to serenade me (and the rest of the world); then I use mine to be an open vessel to allow the spirit to move me to touch you.

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[1: 1,963 of 10,000] Why Do I Love God?

In Journal, Poem on May 24, 2019 at 7:46 PM

I feel you
I know you
I believe
You love me
Even if I don’t love you

But now, I know
I love you
I try to remember you
Every day
Every moment

You bring me peace
Amidst my chaos
My pain
Desires
Mistakes

You bring me peace
Even when I’m confused
Struggling
Childish
Mad

I see your gifts
All the miracles
The nudge
Guidance
Calling

Here I am
I’m with you for your plan
Taking action
Paying attention
Living

[1: 1,962 of 10,000] The Last Single Lady

In Journal on May 24, 2019 at 6:16 PM

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I have three groups of friends, the high school friends, the college pals, and the best friends from previous works.

In the work best friends corner, we’re two of the last single ladies who aren’t married but yesterday, she admitted that she’s now in a relationship and the situation is alarming me that I am the last one not in a relationship. The group chat conversation went to where will the wedding be. Yaiks! I do feel a little pressure but I am letting it pass because this I don’t really want to deal with right now.

I was at a clinic last Thursday to have my allergy shot, I was sitting across a mother with a baby on her lap, and I, on the other hand, is typing on my work laptop, geez that says a lot about our priorities, huh?

My college pals are all married, I wouldn’t even go there, and not only are they comfortably settled but they are counting more than one child.

High school friends though is a little bit more reassuring because 5 of us are still single and can mingle. Look what I did there, can but not saying “ready to mingle.”

What am I looking for a man anyway? Someone confident, comfortable in life, smart, kind, talented, and knows how to enjoy trying new things. I’ve thought about it, I can commit to someone like Rob Bell (filled with wisdom and love for God), Bill Rancic (he’s very responsible), Simon Sinek (very inspiring), and Jake Gyllenhaal (he’s so hot I think I would melt whenever he stares and smiles at me).

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[1: 1,961 of 10,000] The Best State I’ve Ever Been

In Journal on March 2, 2019 at 6:01 PM

Wow, it’s been a while since my last post. I have been working on my well being. I’m very happy to where I am right now, challenged, and moving to create something that I can leave behind in this world. I feel like I’m living the new movie of Rebel Wilson where her world was perfect, only I didn’t get mobbed and hit my head on a steel post, but I am slowly awakening and I appreciate life.

I find solace in the present, I end and start the day with gratefulness, and I see the miracles, feel the love, and enjoy the moment of growth. Don’t get me wrong, that ‘growth’ part is painful because I have to face my demons, I have to be objective, and I have to put in the work that has pain involved.

I am happy because I feel appreciated. I am delighted because I am seen. I am.

[1: 1,960 of 10,000] A Good Feeling About 2019

In Journal on January 1, 2019 at 3:01 PM

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I love new beginnings and I do recognize the struggles that sometimes go with it but last night before the midnight struck 12:01 to officially welcome 2019, I feel the surge of excitement and peace.

2018 is so last year and I am ready for 2019 and achieve key goals that I intend to accomplish. I keep it really tight and focus on 5 things:

  1. Save and Invest – I have to take care of myself and my future, I would do what I have to do right now so I can do want I want to do later on (referencing to a reflection of a line from ‘The Great Debaters.’) I know living in the present is important but living with freedom without worrying about the necessities in life is the dream.
  2. Write a book – I am ready for my second book to publish in Amazon and I am excited that I have the concept in place and even the root intention. I’m excited to create again. This is actually making me feel so alive, I have to create something to know that I am living a purpose.
  3. CALM + KINDNESS + PEACE – Brandon Burchard has questions at the end of the day, “Did I live? Did I love? Did I matter?” and I have been searching my three things and for this year especially I have drilled it down to calm, kindness and peace for a pretty good reason.
    • Calm because I have the tendency to worry and when I freeze then I couldn’t act, and I don’t like that feeling anymore, so calm to have the action to accept the situation and not overthink it.
    • Kindness because when I lose my bearing (lack of sleep or overwhelmed) I turned into a disaster blabber and monster. Everyone has their own demons to combat and I don’t need to be part of their demon to deal with.
    • Peace will always be my ultimate compass that will not change until the end of my life. Love is equally important but peace means I get to go to bed and enjoy my dream.
  4. No more late submission at work – I know that I am turning more irresponsible at work. I could already sense that I am not happy with how things are running in the company but I still recognize that when I love what am doing I lose track of time. I need the job for a practical reason and there’s no reason that I have to be a pain to anyone by doing late works, so this year, I’ll be determined and focused.
  5. Learn to speak, read, and write Arabic – I’ve been in the Middle East for 10 years and I can’t speak, read, or write their language and it’s frustrating at work that I am not fully equipped so this year I finally decided to learn a new skill.

Aside from the 5 above, I would be mindful that I get good sleep daily (at least 7 hours), pray (as soon as I wake up and go to bed), meditate daily (usually I do 15-minutes but I think am ready for 20-minutes – will try this tomorrow and see how it feels), get fit and move 30 minutes daily, journal 1 sentence a day (which I’ve done for 1 full year in 2018), and finally feed my body, mind, and spirit with good food.

What are your goals for 2019, are you all set too and excited like me?

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