Part of healing my aching heart is to truly forgive everyone who I believe have hurt me. Equally important to forgive myself for the time I was too harsh and in moments that I brought pain on others. All these require me to admit those to myself, look at it, and appreciate that am growing.
This month, I search my heart and check if I have been hiding resentments and I can now catch myself, witnessing when I start being scared and step into isolation and depressing state of replaying old records that aren’t true anymore or scenes that have never exist. I am freeing myself because I am embracing forgiveness and its beauty to bring peace into my being.
It wasn’t quick, it took me forty years, and maybe multiple pasts from my previous lives, but I wasn’t regretful and I wouldn’t bother to answer the question, “Why only now?” I honor my journey to healing and that’s all that matters and I value.