Yor Ryeter

[1: 2,019 of 10,000] Afraid of Making Mistakes

In List on November 19, 2020 at 8:33 PM
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I have gone through so much in life that I already know what I don’t like to happen again. I started being scared of what have happened to the people closest to me that I take every positive course so I can to avoid every single one.

What am I afraid of?

  • Be in a position to ask someone who am not close to for loan. I don’t have any loan from a bank or from anyone at this point and I’m so keen of keeping it that way.
  • Die of heart attack like my father or suffer cancer and eventually passed like my mother. It’s my responsibility to take care of my health if I want to have the vibrancy to live.
  • Be pregnant out of wedlock or from an illicit affair because I believe children need a healthy family to grow up. A family member had an affair and had a child, and no one took care of the child.
  • Marry the wrong person because I don’t want to go through separation or divorce. I have always believed marriage is supposed to be sacred and binding as long as both are living.
  • Die alone in my own home and will only be found after a few days. It happened to one of my college adviser and I thought that’s sad.

There are more fears that I have to take a look, and while am looking at them, I have to be patient of my inner child to know that it’s okay to feel those sadness and worries, but after that I got to focus on the positive things.

I’m here to live a human experience and expand my soul. I’m here to be willing to step into the unknown, be ready to make unintentional mistakes, learn, and take another shot. It’s good that I value things, to have a stand, but not on the point of only focusing on what’s bad but as fast as I can look at the opposite of my fear and have only that in my attention.

I also have to remember, whenever I am choosing to be afraid, I am saying no to love. Loving in life is the right way, the easy way, and yet I am okay to have a little hiccup if it means I’ll grow stronger and wiser having my experience as my own teacher. Today, I’m not afraid of making mistake, I am more for being able to live!

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