Yor Ryeter

Posts Tagged ‘2014’

[1: 1,466 of 10,000] Another Journal Went To A Trash Bin

In Journal on May 14, 2015 at 1:56 AM

Every year I never fail to have a journal / planner. So far, I managed to throw all my previous planners, two days ago, I just ditched my 2014 Paulo Coelho. If you’re wondering, I tore the pages into pieces; I still couldn’t risk someone rereading my life story and mumbling.

Paulo Coelho 2014 Planner

I am starting to question if this practice is my way of growing up that I do not dwell on the past since reading the old entries only stirred sad emotions that shatter my present. My definition of being able to live in peace now is not reminding myself with words that I could go back to and relive the whole moments in my crazily vivid mind.

If one day I will be a famous person and they try to trace my life through my journals; I guess they will be greatly disappointed that that the oldest journal so far that I keep since May 30, 2010 sporadically is a single file saved in my personal laptop that is password protected (yes, easily hackable).

I am still alive, gracious that I still wake up every morning, and I better perform that the fruit of my labours should be enough testament of who was I when I was alive; and maybe they will know me by the people I have been in touched with. Or who cares about legacy as long as I know that in every single day that I live I will go to bed without regrets because I have done what I love, I have created something, and just hopefully touched at least one person to make his/her life magically better than it was.

[1: 1,355 of 10,000] One Goal For The Year

In Journal on October 18, 2014 at 3:15 AM

50s Lady

I wanted to be loved by the right man. How do I make myself loveable? Wrong question. I got to treat myself and love myself the way I wanted to be loved. My goal for 2014 is be the woman I would fall in love with, I got barely 3 months to do it so every single day counts because I am welcoming 2015 with grace, elegance, radiance, beauty – yeah the pageant like seems calculated but really isn’t,  but I don’t want to be the best friend of all winning the congeniality, I wanted to be the crown holder.

  1. I would treat myself like a princess. Delicate, paved, and revered.
  2. I will give myself a compliment. Endearingly accept, live, believe.
  3. I will be nice, polite, charming, a blessing for anyone who comes across me.
  4. I am centered, focused, open for the magic enveloping me.
  5. I will be calm, smile, composed, and warm at all times.
  6. I will listen to my heart, answer to my call, and passionately and struggle to emerge as a hero from the battle of my life.
  7. I will dance for every beat and melody, feeling how my bones and muscles moves with the grooves.
  8. I will praise my creator, to cherish all His endless love, and honour Him with every time I live with the present.
  9. I will enjoy the life that I see, appreciate the good and learn from the beautiful mistakes, and to be always grateful.
  10. I will be whole and ready to expand even more.

I love every inch of my being, its longing, desires, and every bits of joy and enthusiasm stirred when my spirit gets awakened.