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[1: 1,972 of 10,000] You Made Me Feel At Home Los Angeles

In Journal on September 27, 2019 at 12:06 PM

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I was in Los Angeles, California early this month and I couldn’t believe that there was this light-good-vibe-aura feeling the moment I am in a taxi on the way to the hotel. Am I having my Don Draper moment? The air smells like beautiful dreams, except the corners of lingering weeds although users might be in dreamy state of another kind.

I am truly in love with the city. I could really imagine myself moving from Dubai to LA, so much so that I have sent a job application to an interior designer for the stars (haven’t heard from him, but I will soon, I have a good feeling about it, no not puffing weed here!)

I love the architecture, I love the beach, I love the mountains, the palm trees, and I love the fact that movies and television shows are made here. The entertainment world that I want to be part of. This motivates me to finish my novel and turn it into a movie one day.

Right now, dreaming of LA!

Photo by Abbie Bernet on Unsplash

[1: 1,971 of 10,000] Beautiful Words From Caroline Myss

In Aphorism on July 29, 2019 at 12:40 PM

I’ve listened to Oprah Winfrey’s interview of Caroline Myss once again because my soul is searching for meaning and I couldn’t focus on what I need to do. My mind wanders and it’s asking for food that I couldn’t understand and ain’t providing.

Caroline Myss defined Spirit as…
The part of you that is seeking meaning and purpose.
The part of you that is drawn to hope.
Not to give in to despair.
The part of you that has to believe in goodness.
The part of you that feels like hope.
The part of you that feels like grace.
Oprah Winfrey added, “It’s the light of you.”

Have no judgments of your life,
No expectations, and
Give up the need to know what happens tomorrow.
Be fully present, and
Appreciate all that’s in your life right now.

Have no judgments of your life,
No expectations, and
Give up the need to know why things happen as they do.

Caroline and Oprah, combined thoughts,
Try
Give it your all
Give it your best
Not to be attached to the outcome
Surrender it
Let it go
To the power greater than yourself

Other beautiful words she shared:

  • If you have life, you have a purpose.
  • You are on the right path when you’re not put in a position to betray yourself.
  • Choose what will enhance your spirit and not what will drain your power.
  • Grace transforms a moment into something better.
  • A miracle is when God bends these laws for you in an intimate way.

Other prayers mentioned in the interview:

  • “Hover over me (God).” by St. Teresa of Avila
  • “Please enter where You (God) already abide.” From the book Illuminata by Marianne Williamson

 

[1: 1,970 of 10,000] 10 Reasons Why I Love My New Dubai Apartment

In List on July 28, 2019 at 4:10 PM

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It is really tiring moving from one apartment to another and this is my 5th apartment after living a decade in Dubai. I move almost every 2 years, it seems like a thing here, but this is the place that my sissy and I made it our own style. I love going home to it.

  1. It’s brand new yet not very expensive. Who doesn’t love to be the first person to use the bathtub and toilet? I enjoy my relaxing lavander salt bathe.
  2. I wake up and sleep with Burj Khalifa view.
  3. It’s very close to Dubai Mall (my fave go-to because of the Emirates miles earned every time I shop) and City Walk neighborhood.
  4. It’s a spacious one-bedroom apartment with its own laundry room and a balcony. It has its built-in closet too.
  5. Our mirrors are all fixed on the wall.
  6. Shelves were installed, yes, I’ve put holes in the walls, that I definitely need to ensure they are made up when it’s time to leave.
  7. We can finally use our oven again because the unit is ready for the high voltage installation. We have roasted chicken that was well-brined too!
  8. I felt so luxurious adding a half-glass cover at the bathroom instead of using a shower curtain.
  9. Our indoor plants have grown from three to nine including a succulent that my sissy allowed me to buy finally, a tall Dracaena that draws the eyes up, and we got pretty cool pots from West Elms.
  10.  I also like the dining table that we got from Ikea.

The apartment isn’t too perfect. It would have been better if the tiles’ colors and design in the bathroom sink is not black and yellow, or the installed bedroom airconditioning unit is a larger one, or that I have to sage the bedroom for three consecutive days to keep the lingering heavy energy out, or that some things they’ve overly done that feels like compensating to the things that were totally wrong… there’s that but the good far outweighs the bad so I am really happy with the new apartment. I felt so at home.

What’s your favorite home ever?

Photo by Yong Chuan on Unsplash

[1: 1,969 of 10,000] Have You Answered ‘What’s My Purpose In Life’?

In Journal on July 14, 2019 at 5:07 PM

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At different times in my life, I have pulled out different answers and seek different places to help me come up with my answer.

The very first thing that made sense for me is I am here to spread the good news that there’s a God who created everything and I believe loves every human being. God is all-knowing that provides peace and the connection with everyone and everything. I don’t know everything and I don’t even have a language to describe my relationship with God but I’m contented for hearing about Him and I am spending the rest of my life deepening my relationship with Him through others and everything. The moment I have the sense of connection with God, feel His love and witness His miracles; I would like to share it with everyone so they may experience my joy.

Then added is I am here to create like my creator. I have a gift that can make me come alive whenever I am in the zone doing it. That whenever I am authentic for being myself, it inspires others to do great things. All because I am enjoying being me.

I am here to experience human life. To live in the present and love what is. To not believe the story that I create in my mind that is obsessed with worries, scarcity mentality, shame, and perfection.

My latest answer is I’m here to heal. I believed that people are born perfect but like my story, as I grow older, I have absorbed different pain including the pain of my parents that I forget my essence. I now believe that the first order is to take care of me and heal. To forgive myself and to examine my thoughts in order to make better choices in the present.

How about you, what is your purpose?

Photo by Michael Heuser on Unsplash

[1: 1,968 of 10,000] I’m Afraid

In Journal on July 14, 2019 at 3:02 PM

Brene Brown defines vulnerability as uncertainty, risk, and emotional exposure. It’s the willingness to show up or be seen even there’s no guarantee. It’s the greatest and most accurate measure of courage.

Having the above lessons in mind, I am going to examine what I am afraid of.

  1. I’m afraid to be sick and depend on others. I saw my mother endure cancer and lost her health day by day. I’m afraid to be physically broken.
  2. I’m afraid to die alone. One of my adviser in college was living alone and he died at home because of health issues and he wasn’t found until some days had passed.
  3. I’m afraid to be old and useless.
  4. I’m afraid to be ridiculed and judged.
  5. I’m afraid that I’m not good enough for the man I formalize in my mind to marry.
  6. I’m afraid that whatever I’m doing now isn’t useful for my future.
  7. I’m afraid to try new things to become a wealthier woman.
  8. I’m afraid to go broke and homeless.
  9. I’m afraid of being lonely.
  10. I’m afraid of being stagnant.

The bottom of it all, I really want love, to belong, and chasing worthiness. I never really stopped to inquire the above so I end up restless, clueless, and living without direction and passion.

What should I do now? I shall enjoy whatever I’m doing, to give my best and start with good intentions, to be grateful for all my blessings and miracles, to get proper rest and nourishment, and heal well so I may create, love, and be at peace.

[1: 1,967 of 10,000] I Am

In Poem on July 4, 2019 at 2:05 PM

I am a communicator.
I am a writer.
I am an author.
I am love.
I am sharing.
I am growth, transcending.
I am living my life.
I am happy.
I am at peace at all times.
I am God’s beloved.
I am everyone.

[1: 1,966 of 10,000] I Am Getting Old (Yay!)

In Journal on July 4, 2019 at 2:03 PM

Hair stylist Nat told me that my feeling whether am old or young depends on my perception. Will I defy the fact that I am having grey hair more than I have last year and the hair color that I used doesn’t necessarily cover the truth that I am aging?

I am starting to feel like I am broken; like a piece of toy that has parts that are starting to crumble and I don’t know how to stop it. I try to exercise, eat well, meditate, met a psychic, and yet I feel like I don’t understand the transition that I am going through. There’s a cloud over my head and I can’t see clearly and my body isn’t cooperating.

I have to be honest, it scares me to be old. What if I start forgetting things? What if I couldn’t be creative anymore? What if I get really sick? What if I have a bad back and broken bones? Those were my fears but just that fears but not my reality yet; so I am not losing hope. I know that this too will roll over like the rest of the things in the world.

[1: 1,965 of 10,000] The Defining Moment When I Knew I Desired To Write

In Journal on May 30, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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People who grew up loving what they do knew their deepest desire that they were meant to do it. I met a doctor who said, “I’ve always known that I wanted to become a doctor.” Great singers have the voice that blows our mind. Me… the defining moment when I knew I desired to write is because of my neighbour whom I considered an elder sister said, “You can make anything come true if you write it.”

My young mind understood that well I’ve always wanted a genie and that sounds pretty close in having one and the difference I didn’t even have a limitation of only three wishes. There was a time that my novel was a roadmap to my actual life, but that doesn’t always happen. What grew is my love affair with writing, not about making a wish come true, but it transitioned that it gives me the joy to write, and now I am at the point that I write to inspire people of what I write and for others to be infected of my joy because I am writing.

My beginning feels selfish and childish because it is what I was able to grasp and my point of experience in that life. Now, I am still selfish because I do write since it gives me pleasure but I think about others that may my writing gives another light to a path of seeing the beauty of life.

Photo by Ilya Pavlov on Unsplash

 

[1: 1,964 of 10,000] Do You Remember A Moment of Grace In Your Life?

In Journal on May 25, 2019 at 1:40 AM

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My heart is full of love right now. I feel so blessed and loved. I have something to be grateful for every day because I am enjoying life.

Don’t get me wrong, I still worry about work, disappointed that I can’t meet my deadline, but the deeper I am in shit the harder I prayed and asked for help especially wisdom from the Holy Spirit. My burden becomes lighter, and I get disciplined to finish one task after another.

My calendar in both professional and personal are so full, but every day, I sat down for meditation as a reminder that I can capture a moment of calm, and then I start moving. I learned to act without waiting for anyone’s permission or for the circumstance to be perfect.

Going back to my main question, do you remember a moment of grace in your life? It doesn’t have to be a big deal but notice the small miracles. Find those moments when you can feel your heart and soul soothed.

I noticed that whenever I listen to Nessun Dorma sang, there’s something magical that can bring me to tears, and those were my moments of grace. What raises through my mind is how grateful I am listening to this beautiful opera singers using their talent to serenade me (and the rest of the world); then I use mine to be an open vessel to allow the spirit to move me to touch you.

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[1: 1,963 of 10,000] Why Do I Love God?

In Journal, Poem on May 24, 2019 at 7:46 PM

I feel you
I know you
I believe
You love me
Even if I don’t love you

But now, I know
I love you
I try to remember you
Every day
Every moment

You bring me peace
Amidst my chaos
My pain
Desires
Mistakes

You bring me peace
Even when I’m confused
Struggling
Childish
Mad

I see your gifts
All the miracles
The nudge
Guidance
Calling

Here I am
I’m with you for your plan
Taking action
Paying attention
Living