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[1: 1,874 of 10,000] Change Is Difficult But Worth It

In Journal on April 21, 2017 at 4:56 PM


Change is difficult but it is important to step outside my comfort zone to see progress. A life without progress was the feeling of death due to depression.

I am so grateful that I can afford it so I signed up for gym membership and a personal trainer and it is changing my life positively.

I never like exercise but my right working mind knows that my body needs it. It is futile for me to go to the gym without signing up for a guide otherwise I would just end up messy without doing the exercise correctly, I needed professional help. I also need somebody to boost my confidence that I am doing something right (regardless that he is paid to do so).

I have always thought that my body will always have a fat limit, always comfortable saying, ‘This is the fattest that I have ever been’; only to notice that every year I get heavier as I age. I kept eating unhealthy food, I LOVE RICE, and I wasn’t moving. I couldn’t fool myself that I have my limit because my weight kept increasing, my belly looked like a nine-month pregnant or carrying a beer belly like my dad did (yet I don’t even like beer), I now have food allergies, and worst depressed with life although I conceal it.

I have been going to the gym as much as possible three times a week. I usually go home sore in various body parts but I feel really happy. Every time I sweat profusely at the gym, it feels like shedding off my bad voodoos away. I am automatically also conscious about what I eat now and really paying attention to my trainer who knows best except counting the calories of all food intake, I still don’t want to learn that.

My tummy is now smaller than it used to be. My happiness level is genuine and moving uphill. My energy is not 100% strong but I have that inner glow to appreciate the beautiful, to be very hopeful that life is freakishly amazing, and the will power to make things happen. Was all these a result of the gym, maybe not, but it is one heck of a great starting point for a positive life. Go and exercise, not necessarily for weight loss, but think to live a ‘healthy life’.

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[1: 1,690 of 10,000] Work Right Now

In Article on February 27, 2016 at 9:56 AM

Work right now looked like this…

Work Right Now

It’s a lot. It’s variety. Thankfully I am now loving it. Consuming sweet coffee to stay awake and alert then on to reading, typing, creating, calling, whatsapping, negotiating, dining, learning, and the list goes on.

It was not easy; it was a journey to get to this level. To find my reason that will fuel my enthusiasm to accept the challenges, the imperfections, and the room for growth and ultimately a true business success. To hear the joy of my excitement to be accomplishing something amazing at the end of it; oh wait, it’s a living work, so it goes on and on with a journey that tells a story.

I started big, proud, then shy, unsure, folded, humiliated, attacked, questioned, then I get a hang of it, I gained momentum, I met beautiful people to learn from, and I am back with my confident self and more inspired than ever. Still discovering a good root to start to sustain the building inspiration that makes me excited to do my work, give my best, and finish. I like it that I work with joy and happy to be serving and helping and that one great way to start.

I am really enjoying every minute of it now. I face my challenges with such gusto. I finally found the hand gloves that fit me. It’s breathtakingly rewarding. The future is bright with lots of rewards.

[1: 1,681 of 10,000] I Am Alive And That Must Mean Something

In Journal on February 4, 2016 at 3:21 AM
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Being collected is a matter of making the decision of which face to display not necessarily for others but for myself and everyone. (Photo Source: http://www.sliptalk.com/girls-gone-ugly)

I am alive, breathing here on Earth, and that must mean something.

I am kinder to myself now, I know that I set goals to make my day worthwhile, but I am gentler and I listen to my body of what it can accomplish rather than always being at the edge. The edge that I mentioned is the dark place where I felt like losing control, being in the brink of crossing a sad space that my mind gives in to defeat all because what I have hoped others would react didn’t go as it would have given me comfort. The whole point of surrendering about other’s decisions that aren’t my control don’t necessarily reflect their personal opinion or judgment on me in the whole sense.

Others have gone by, they left because of death whether it was their freewill, it was their time, or is it really possible that people leave their bodily suit too soon? I like to believe that yes in essence we are a soul within a physical suit (physical body), that may experience different realm on earth and another lifetime on to the next. Everytime I expererience a disappointment, my stress reaction is to fly and rushed to the next level of living, wherein I am imagining that it is lighter, where there’s deeper understanding, and that there is no more need for pain of all kinds. When I collect my thoughts… When I am composed and able to control my scared ego, I find peace and see life as simple, exciting, joyful, full of wonderful hopes and challenges that is worth facing and overcome; and then after all of it, I come out better than I was yesterday.

All I have to do is to do not panic. It is not an easy task for me right now, but I could feel God’s presence and connection with my very soul, and He caresses the real ME to hold on, have courage, and be grateful for my life because I am meant to be here for amazing tasks to contribute. I have to work with the people around me with gentleness and love. I should not put judgment and always feel like I am being personally attacked. I must admit my mistake and learn from the experience.I seek the Holy Spirit’s guidance for intellect to have the right people and solutions to move further. I am right now requesting for divine intervention because in reality, I cannot do it alone. I need all the best help that I can get.

Thank you that I am building a new kind of strength in me every single day. Thank you that I try to find the beautiful instead of focusing on what is very wrong. Thank you for having the kind sanity that could make me move forward with a true loving smile. Thank you God. Thank you life. Thank you ME.

[1: 1,612 of 10,000] People In Pain Get Irritated

In Journal on October 7, 2015 at 6:37 AM

Yesterday was a bit of a long day. I was wearing the wrong shoes for checking furnitures (2-inch heels may not be too hight but if you’re looking at the whole showroom and warehouse of IKEA, well you know what I mean), I wasn’t too happy about my slappy outfit, Dubai weather is still briskly hot, and I am anxious about some tasks that I want done smoothly (admittedly, perfectly).

The other day, I got a weird chat message from an acquiantance and it caught me off guard about his real intentions of prying. It is about somebody who I don’t want to dishonor or discredit in any way so I was very careful on what I say. My Monday night was weirdly exhausting emotionally.

On top of the above, my sissy asked for my help for a certain assignment and I was starting to get furious because I am really feeling exhausted; but I tried to pull myself, enjoyed the moment and helped her and still do the things that am supposed to do. I love my sister ever so dearly and I told her I am really sorry but I am annoyed at you right now but a part of me is fighting that I could calm down and help even if my throat is hurting and I just want to do my own thing.

I slept soundly and woke up with a new surge of energy. It is one of those times that when someone is in pain, he needs rest or space or just the time to do what he needed and wanted to do. It’s going to be a wonderful Wednesday! Wednesday used to be my favourite, so today is special and blessed.

Happy Wednesday

[1: 1,544 of 10,000] What’s The Worst Thing That Can Happen

In Journal on July 31, 2015 at 1:58 PM

I am hustling really hard.

I am not hustling enough so I couldn’t possibly wonder why I wasn’t moving.

I got to have a better idea and act on them.

I am keeping my happy mood even if I seriously couldn’t understand how am I going to turn out.

I trust that GOD hears me and understands what I am going through.

I believe that HE won’t leave me alone without loving life way better that I had yesterday.

I am enthusiastic for HIS surprise! I know it’s going to be amazingly fantastic.

Right now, I am happy. I am hopeful. I am grateful.

Now, I better finish the 2 books I started reading and learn from them.

Jack in Titanic

[1: 1,477 of 10,000] Dead End

In Journal on May 25, 2015 at 7:40 PM

It feels like my world reached the dead end and as much as I did cry and shamelessly did a little bit of self-loathing, I couldn’t bring myself to give up. I just couldn’t agree that my life ends this way. It’s nothing dramatic like I am dying but I start to question my real worth to be still occupying a space in this world.


I have never been so vulnerable. Trying things I could never imagine to claim a little bit of happiness. I am trying my best to live a thoughtful life. I am praying that I hear God’s guidance. I couldn’t hear Him and I am not going to stop to getting up everyday and do what I know could make a difference.

I couldn’t understand why can’t I stop chasing my own tail? Why a step forward leads to so many wrong turns? Where am I headed? I know it’s going to be good and it is just so difficult to have no control of things. I am learning everyday, may be right now, all I am supposed to be is a student of trusting the unknown.

[1: 1,413 of 10,000] Careful When Citing Example

In Article on March 15, 2015 at 10:04 AM

One’s writing requires integrity. In these days of Internet where people find it fun to quote someone’s story is quite easy, some writers even commit the mistake of putting unsuspecting fraud in their book, like for instance Lance Armstrong.

Lance Armstrong

He proved in action that he was a champion for 7 consecutive times in a cycling competition, which we later find out that he was using drugs to actually make that happen. We believed he is capable, with the additional sensational story that he was battling an illness. It is quite disappointing to cite supposedly great people to inspire us all that we can do the impossible; I remember one book that I adore that cited Lance as an example and for a bit to me the author loses its credibility. It is difficult to know for sure that people are who we perceived to be. Heck even our own perceptions change depending on own current circumstance! So what do we do? We just need to be forgiving. We all make mistakes and only through making a lot of mistakes (hopefully not the same holes over and over) that give us the insights and right instincts.

What do we come up with the Armstrong story? Yes we couldn’t forget that he was doping and lying but someday, someone really great, an honest to goodness cyclist could prove that winning Le Tour de France for even more than 7 consecutive times is possible – maybe soon! Or we could believe in ourselves that we don’t always need other people to strive harder for greatness, we just need to believe in ourselves, we are a miracle individually, imagine a tiny sperm and egg cells united and boom you are developed into a beautiful human being, that should be a great basis for greatness and what we do everyday should be a testament to honouring our way to greatness. I’m saying way because unless we live to serve with true love, then reexamine why do you exist at all.


[1: 1,381 of 10,000] The Choice We Make

In Article on December 5, 2014 at 4:23 PM

It baffles me that being an adult doesn’t still give us the wisdom to choose the right one, because we find it difficult to accept the consequences and taking responsibility not to cause agony even to people we believe we love. Why could we see ourselves trying to hurt back or take revenge?

Why couldn’t I settled to draw a clear line and never ever cross it? Because being humane needs to be involved, and I was never born to be silent when I see something is very wrong.

Our choice right now defines our next move. I have to gather my wit and this time I have to just think about me and how I will create a ripple that would bless my heart with pure joy. I will be brave because I can hold on to God. I will keep my intentions clean, my thought pure, my actions impeccable, my words kind, and my fire light up and moving.

13 Reasons

[1: 1,376 of 10,000] I Have 2 Sisters

In Article on December 2, 2014 at 12:02 PM


This postcard above says, “We are sisters. If I am mad at someone, you are mad at them too. End of story.” made me live with two separate lives because I have 2 sisters and one of them is mad at the other. I couldn’t choose a side, I thought I could but couldn’t.

I am the eldest and I use to be the strict and their enemy for being bossy. They used to be best of friends and then the middle child married somebody we really couldn’t approve of and the youngster was crazily mad. I couldn’t understand how 2 people I both love couldn’t love one another further to look beyond things they couldn’t control.

Love is really about appreciating that a rose has thorns; wait let me elaborate a single rose has so many thorns. It should be in our vocabulary to be kind, be forgiving, and unless the person is not a family member or a truly dear friend we couldn’t be part of, should be endured to keep the relation last a lifetime. Hating will only torture and bruise the heart.

I pray that baby sissy will soon realize her other big sissy loves her. One day and forever.

Update, 8 August 2018

My sissies made up and today in our group chat there were funny exchanges. Ahhh love, thank you for entering into our family space.

[1: 1,348 of 10,000] The Good Thing About Every New Day

In Journal on September 21, 2014 at 12:03 AM

New DayLife isn’t always perfect the way I want it to be. I sometimes do so many things in a day that I tell myself that was totally off Yor. I don’t regret but I apologise and move on. And moving forward is the very essence why I love every new day. The sun sets, I rest, I stay still and subtle in my slumber, and when I wake up usually with new energy and answers then I stand up again.

In my 34 years of living, life fascinates me and it teaches me. I want so many things done, no matter how bad I wanted to delegate, it just doesn’t work, so I stop putting expectations and I ask God to give me the ability and the boost of energy to just get things done without waiting. I just have to work one more challenge, the blaming part or the words of “you could have helped me.” I will find joy that I accomplish things, and if I am capable of finishing small things, wait up dreams I am going to claim you pretty soon!

Start. Every thing just needs to start and I cannot wait for other people to do it for me. I got to believe in myself and just start. Stay focused and be the greatest being that I can be –

  1. Getting healthy. I started putting an effort to do a sit-up of 50 today, eat healthier food like enough with too much soft drinks and more on water, and like what I have to do in a few minutes sleep soundly on my bed everyday without bargaining.
  2. Write a best-selling book while I am in Dubai.
  3. Tithe 10%, Invest 20%, and Live with 70%.
  4. Be kinder to everyone around me. Be tough but still kind.
  5. Buy a lot and build my home.
  6. Take responsibility and never disappoint anyone especially myself for procrastinating and losing focus on anything and everything.
  7. Pray to say how grateful I am for all the blessings.
  8. Be courageous and persevere. Be honest and be smart. Never stop learning of the good things.
  9. Love without measurement and judgment.
  10. Breathe.