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[1: 1,978 of 10,000] My Own Photo Brings Sadness

In Letter on March 11, 2020 at 7:51 AM

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Dear Adam,

I was afraid that I am starting to fall for you so I said goodbye. Why was my goodbye doesn’t feel like an ending? I have not told you my truth, my fears, and I will have my photographs with the saddest eyes to remind me that I have opened my heart to love but have not stayed to let it grow.

Our story was a whirlwind that as fast as it started comes the faster ending. I have this strong belief that love doesn’t need to feel painful or contrite; it should have enough space for understanding that it’s easy and it flows. We both agree that relationship needs work, but NOT THIS, not shutting off without speaking our truths.

I have said goodbye to you and you didn’t respond. I have reached out to tell you I am sorry and not afraid anymore but you didn’t respond. I’m not making any more imaginary reasons in my head of why you won’t reply because it’s painful like my heart is breaking into more pieces than I wanted to count and end up shedding tears. Whether you read this or not, I am letting you go.

Thank you for healing me of my fear to speak my truth. It was a lesson of a lifetime that I needed to face. It would have been nice if you’ll hear it from me but there are circumstance in this world that I will not question for their validity but requires my faith to trust. May you be happy, may you recognize your wholeness, and may you always be strong as I’ve known you yet gentle to live and to love in this lifetime.

I love you.

Photo by Sander Weeteling on Unsplash