Yor Ryeter

Posts Tagged ‘Control’

[1: 2,055 of 10,000] Doubt Creeps In

In Journal on March 9, 2021 at 7:31 PM

I stumble without my plan because it feels like living through life without proper check points before reaching my destination. I see the shadow side of plans and that’s stronghold control. I was surprised that there’s something more scarier to that though. When I start building this anxiety listening to my pouring doubts and fears that I’m too rigid of my plan then am not allowing my muse to glide through. For two nights, I fight back sleep, overthinking, going through the plan one more time and see how can I loosen it. I wanted to stay awake and figure out a solution, do I need to come up with a new one?

Oh I was also told that I’m too much in my head and I’m falling into my own trap again. Circling to my obsession and grip of a future that depends on the choices that I make in the present moment. I’ve been advised to see things in a different perspective because I have all the ingredients but I question am I supposed to cook something different, which I have no solid idea how can I make that happen. In my chaotic mind, there’s one thing I’m avoiding though, to sit in stillness to consult my Inner Knowing and ask, “What do I want?”

I process, I prayed, because the direction of my life will only need to come from my authentic voice. My mind is bleeding because it’s not connecting to my intuition, to what I feel, and then the firework sparks and it kept cracking. I got it.

I have to follow my bliss. It’s not about changing the plan, it’s about surrendering my grip and obsession of the journey and the outcome. Right now, I have to accept that I’m good wherever way it lands. A message nudging me that I’ll never make the wrong choice because I have one consistent vision, it’s the paths to get there that have different flavors. The vision wasn’t flawed, my attitude to not allowing play to interrupt that plan that’s raising an issue. I’ve always been all right so why would I be afraid to take a risk this time if I’ll be doing what my Soul came here in this lifetime to do. With that, I’m at peace and my train keeps moving forward.

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[1: 1,789 of 10,000] Rule Your Self

In Poem on November 1, 2016 at 12:00 AM

the-crown

If there is one responsibility a man has in his life
It is first and foremost to rule himself

Rule how he let his mind floats
With control, peace, and then act with good intention

Why he be weary for the sufferings surrounding him
Let it be that he does what he loves shines through instead

It is when he fulfills what he came for to do
That his life’s will meant achieved

To only dwell on the sufferings without actions are useless
Then waste not on fantasies but endure to keep soldiering on

If his destiny is to rule people
Then a ruled mind could guide the whole nation

 

 

[1: 873 of 10,000] I Finally Hit Sanity

In Journal on December 23, 2012 at 6:06 PM

I am finally awake and back to my senses. I am finally assured of myself that I don’t like this guy who is currently living with someone. Why would I waste my time with that kind of nonsense when I could devote my passion on something more worthwhile and could please God?

I am really sorry for my idiocies from feelings and imagination. I am so happy that I stopped myself from bathing with dirt. There is no more sadness and even a bit of regret. There are things that we can hope for and this shouldn’t be one of mine.

Blossom

It’ll go to my silly memories that I now start to laugh at.

Whew!