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[1: 1,454 of 10,000] Don’t Let It Bother You

In Article on May 2, 2015 at 11:28 AM

I have a voice inside me that knows exactly what extreme means. It creates drama to extremity, putting both of us down or blowing both of us up! Reflection The day transforms with circumstances that are mostly beyond my control. My attitude towards it is what I can 100% control. The little voice inside me made a loud voice, begging me to react crazy. I told the voice, do you want us to go down this way?

Yes, it is going to be easy to be a victim or to be arrogant, either ways, we can play the part and make us both looked like a loser or an asshole. Do you really want us to go to that road? Or you be silent and we regroup our thoughts, keep our hearts whole, and do the right thing and be a decent person. Like a little child, it wants to reason more, it wants me to be fuming mad, and it knows that if I let it win, I will have all the mixed emotions and we get caved into a dark space, it feeds on self-pity or empty boastfulness; and I know that we are better than that.

Whenever I said, “ssshhhhh” with conviction and draw my focus on what’s right, it folds like a helpless baby. I am the bigger self and I know that the tiny voice in me is scared of the unknown, and I got to comfort it that we can do this. I thank it for the minor silly warning to make inside me alive with dreams party but we both know that’s not how we achieve great things that change the world, we need to have courage to take steps, or we end up just dreaming.

[1: 1,427 of 10,000] Therapist Wakes Up Pain Bodies?!

In Article on April 2, 2015 at 11:51 PM

Counselling and Support

I was speaking to a therapist yesterday and she noticed that I was quite young when my parents passed away. I was 22 when Papa died of a heart attack and I was 31 when Mama died of a colorectal cancer. When my godparents visited me last February here in Dubai, they mentioned that it is a pity that I no longer have my parents. For a bit, this dialogue does crack my heart, but I usually recover fast to hold up any tear that threatens to drop.

I should not feel bad that I lost my parents because they gave me inspiring memories and they raised me to be capable of holding myself. Everybody will soon leave, and it was their time. The real challenge is what will I do to honour this gift of life that is given to me. I have to follow my heart and do what makes me happy and should be able to touch others’ lives too.

I am extremely grateful that I am starting to find my stillness and behold that the kingdom of God is in the midst of me and you. We are holy. We are just too stubborn to keep listening to the small voice in our head that usually cost us sufferings from either being too arrogant, to feel special, to seek for drama, or even compete of being miserable and dwell on self-pity. Our ego is trying to convince us that we are not good enough but if we are truly aware of how beautiful we are and that the miracle is just waiting for us to open up to let it flow, we are all going to be happy and helping one another to spread love and inspiration; and also living with empowered thoughts that translate to wonderful creations.

The truth is I want to become a counsellor, the therapist that I met gave me the bottom line facts on where I should start. I invested AED 600 for an hour session, but it was a good decision to understand this new world that I am not familiar at all. It’s a long expensive track but I shall be devoted to be there and contribute to the world and most especially to the innocent young people. There is a way and I got time. 🙂

[1: 1,426 of 10,000] Good News: Inner Peace is at the Right Side of our Brain

In Article on April 1, 2015 at 12:38 PM

I am grateful that Oprah Winfrey interviewed Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor. If you haven’t got a clue about inner peace, this video is a good platform to start.

She was a brain scientist from Harvard who had a stroke and was only left with a perfectly working right hemisphere of her brain. A damaged left hemisphere is the same as not being able to talk and not knowing who she was including her own name.

Here are the beautiful things I learned from the talk.

  • Throughout the interview, she is joyful! Her smile were wide and genuine. Leaving her with only the right hemisphere of her brain to be working, it then magnificently allowed her to experience (a) deep inner peace, (b) innocence, (c) beauty, (d) purification, (e) nirvana, and (f) and in total awe with the miracle; despite drooling and acting like an infant from the outside.
  • The challenging state she was in was a realisation that people don’t have disabilities, instead they are different and Jill wondered what did they gained. It is true that her motor and language skills were impaired but she could sense the energy of a person, if they mean well or not. She couldn’t recognise her own mother but her love, patience (a lot of it), and nurturing made her try to relearn everything otherwise she would have just given up and stayed in her la la land (happy place).
  • She said that all humans have the same atoms and molecules by 99.99%, it is only the 0.01% that makes us unique. That is fascinating to know because with that 0.01% difference, we kind of forget to consider other people as our brothers and sisters; there is really no reason to battle it out to cause sufferings! We could love one another and appreciate our 0.01% uniqueness.
  • The circumstance made her lost her ego. Ego as she described are neurones with a size of a peanut at the left hemisphere that continuously chatter past pains or future fears. Letting ego control our mind, detriments us to live in the present, be calm, be at peace, and be truly loving. So we have to pay attention and stop our focus from emotional baggages, find greatness to focus on.
  • Ego, the story telling chattering, is the price we pay for language. To be able to speak, well I then is grateful that with my ego, I am able to type this post. 🙂 It gives me joy to type this post.
  • Anger only lasts for 90 seconds and after that it is flashed out from our system. The only reason it stays is because we let our ego to keep replaying the scenes that have happened in the past or may be we even make assumptions to fuel the fire.
  • I love how she never let people throw their baggage at her. When Oprah asked her if she care about what people think of her. She answered, “I don’t care what you think of me. I am as big as the universe.” and she is right, and so each one of us, we are as big as the universe, we are one with the universe.

I don’t know if you think the above ideas are foolish, since today is April Fool’s Day, but it is good that we do find inner peace so we may love everything and everyone around us. We expand ourselves and all the limitations, fears, and prides that caused us to suffer will diminish. We will live a blissful life that is full of wonders and that is a complete blessing.

[1: 1,411 of 10,000] Grievances or Miracles But Not Both

In Journal, Prayer on March 12, 2015 at 8:52 PM

Mary Ann Williamson

I am amazed with the wisdom that Marianne Williamson shares to the world, I wish I would reach that state too.

She said in one of the interviews with Oprah Winfrey, it is either you have grievances or miracles but not both. She described that if we are open to love, when we truly forgive, when we don’t let hate and fear to remain in our lives, we are able to download all the blessings waiting for us.

I highly recommend if you have 2 hours and 40 minutes, listen to the audio book of “Return to Love” from YouTube. She explained what the elusive EGO (basically my fears that give all its efforts to sabotage my inner peace) is and she opens my heart to recognise GOD who is within me and is LOVE. Also, she shared various beautiful prayers that are authentically loving. Here’s one…

Dear God,

Please give my life some sense of purpose. Use me as an instrument of your peace. Use my talents and abilities to spread love. I surrender my job to you. Help me to remember that my real job is to love the world. Thank you.

Amen.

I love this line too – “With prayers we speak to God; with miracles HE responds.”

May your life be full of LOVE.

[1: 1,410 of 10,000] Hello EGO

In Article on March 10, 2015 at 11:24 PM

ego

I want to know more about EGO, especially my EGO, that I couldn’t exactly grasp. I have been hearing it a lot from Oprah Winfrey and most especially from Eckhart Tolle, but it is quite unclear to me, elusive. I am indeed not yet enlightened but I am not stopping, even if I know my own EGO is actually sabotaging me not to know IT. I just got Eckhart’s book “The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment” with the great expectations that my own devil will not be residing in me without a proper duel with my true self.

It is self-destructive, it is the best excuse to use when we are actually acting crazy! It resides inside my head but it isn’t me, it sounds like me though. I hope I am getting close to understanding it so I may know how to face it head on. I am looking for peace, joy, and being human. To shave off my insecurities, madness, and weaknesses. I am using this down time in my life to strengthen me by unveiling the real me inside.

“What a liberation to realize that the “voice in my head” is not who I am. Who am I then? The one who sees that.”
― Eckhart TolleA New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose

I love looking at Eckhart, I don’t entirely understand him yet, but he looked so peaceful. His words on the books are beautiful as he discovered simply BEING. I want that, to have calmness in my head, to be at peace.

“You do not become good by trying to be good, but by finding the goodness that is already within you, and allowing that goodness to emerge. But it can only emerge if something fundamental changes in your state of consciousness.”
― Eckhart TolleA New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose

[1: 1,370 of 10,000] Why We Dwell On Our Misery?

In Journal on November 28, 2014 at 8:10 AM

Blame the EGO and ourselves.

obsessionI am emotionally in pain, heartbroken and I continue to struggle to make things harder. I am blocking my own future happiness by reliving the things that pound my heart but I know I am recovering. My mind believed that when I continue to feel the pain, I feel alive, dramatic, and yet it stops me to move to the happiest place.

My EGO covers my beautiful imagination and locked me to moments that made me destructive, unforgiving, angry, and pathetic. I could fight this back my recognising it and be present, smile, and ask am I okay right now? I am not stuck in a stone with crushed hand bones am I for 127 hours? I am okay right now, this moment, typing a blog, smiling, listening to music, and then I remembered his sweet voice, remembers his gorge face, lying gentle smile, and all the flirting; and back to square one.

January 30, 2015 – My freedom day. The day I shall never have to talk to him ever again. The day that I should forget all the passwords so I wouldn’t need to see him anymore. But before then, I got to focus on what would make me happy without thinking of him all the time.