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[1: 1,608 of 10,000] What Am I Willing To Do For My Loved One?

In Journal on October 3, 2015 at 10:07 AM

Framed

They say ego likes identifying with somebody or something. It likes ownership. My egoic self used to think that my sisters are my extension. My previous assistants in the office is a reflection of my performance. And so before, I thought if there is anyone who will hurt my sisters, I will hurt those people back without hesitations.

Few days back, because of watching too much cannibalism on television, I was dreaming that I am eating my youngest sister’s flesh but they looked like sliced brown bread when I see it on my plate, and when I realised that I was going to eat all of her and it would kill her, I was devasted, sad, and crying. When I woke up and realised what I’ve done, I feel sad again that I don’t want to lose my youngest sister who currently lives with me here in Dubai (we’re both single and it feels like all we have is each other). My other sister, middle one, is happily married in Australia.

After learning about God’s love and mercy, I know that my sisters will never be harmed. I know that everybody will have a life that is amazing so long that we don’t make choices that are regretable. I will never be able to control the decisions and circumstances that my sisters are in, but I would always be their guide for as long as they needed me.

I love them so much that I am willing to do whatever I can to make them happy but they can only be happy if they wanted to. So I shall always be their role model, I shall live in peace and harmony, and my very presence will inspire them to live their most magical and miraculous life.

I love growing mature because my heart expands and I am very contented that I can do my best and let go of the things that I have no control of.

So will I ever kill the people who would hurt my sisters? If you ask me now, no but I will still defend them to claim justice if needed be.

[1: 1,545 of 10,000] GOD Is Not A Second Late

In Article on August 1, 2015 at 11:59 PM

Jesus

I was scared if I would not be able to pay my bills on time. My emergency fund just depleted and the new career is just around the corner. I have always been a very responsible person that running away from my responsibility isn’t my thing. Although lately, I was drained on how will I make my payments on time! It is so crazy I have asked almost everyone I know and every body is tied up.

My usual daily routine was abadoned because of finding solution to my problem. Even a wonderful good news was not giving me pleasure unless it was going to solve my bills. It was really a crucial challenge for me to relax for something I cannot really solve unless I ask my younger sisters again. I was avoiding that at all costs because I don’t want to burden them but at the end of the day, my family was my saviour.

I prayed before I slept and told GOD that I trust you and I know that you are not a second late. I know that it was my fault that I was in this position and I know I am learning that I will never want to be in this position again. I was so tired that I just went to bed at 10ish, which is the earliest and surprisingly I dozed off quickly.

I am grateful that I have a home. I am grateful that I can blog. I am grateful that I have a family. I am grateful that I have friends. I am grateful that I know people. I am grateful for my sensitivity. I am grateful for the sunrise and sunset. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful that I can laugh. I am grateful that I am learning for the better everyday. I am grateful most of all that I am loved unconditionally by GOD and He hears me. Thank you Jesus!

[1: 1,520 of 10,000] Scolding A Love One

In Article on July 7, 2015 at 10:13 AM

Mother scolding her daughter

I have two younger sisters who don’t always admire authority, well I don’t blame them especially if the authority figure that stood in front of them isn’t inspiring and respectful. I am the authority figure at home especially when our parents passed away.

I am the eldest and I feel like I always have the responsibility to do the right thing, to set an example, to be their role model, and because I am not perfect, my then weaknesses of getting irritable too quickly, raising my voice, and throwing hurtful words at them were inevitable. The surprising part is, even if I knew my intentions were good scolding them, I feel a lot hurt for shouting at them, I used to cry so hard after lecturing them on what’s the best thing to do (the delivery was excruciatingly awful).

Since then I improved and became cool like a cucumber. The best way to deliver a message is not in harsh tone but in loving way. It is even better that they got to reiterate and voice it out themselves because they knew what they did. I love my sisters and as much as I want to protect them, I have to tell them the truth when it was their fault; or they tell me my shortcoming too when I’m screwing things up.

May we all live peacefully and loving one another. Blessings to all of you!

[1: 1,433 of 10,000] Love Letter For My Future Husband

In Letter on April 9, 2015 at 8:54 AM

Letter

My Charming Prince,

To live is to be grateful of NOW and right now I say “I love you” with all my heart exploding with so much love.

I picked a song for my feelings about you, fresh feeling, where everything is easy and I couldn’t imagine how can this be so magical. You hold my hands and we are both at peace, and just those loving stares we don’t need to speak. I love how you smell, like the fresh morning dew and I love kissing you!

You cast all my fears, I am grateful of now, because I am with you. So, you were the gentleman I have saved my forever, my coveted loyalty for the truest lifetime commitment. You are worth it.

You will never break my heart, because every time I breathe your love, my heart multiplies. My love tank is overflowing I got so much to save me for those days that we might need to adjust, to find the right voice, to touch one another in certain ways, but the respect will always be there.

Thank you that we can be naked and still love all our own wounds. Thank you that we are taking a leap of faith that there is no other way to live but with everything about us joint. We would even love our life with our children, who will have our love instilled in them, making them such beautiful human beings. Sex became even more rewarding for producing beautiful offsprings.

You know that I love words. You know that I love reassurance. You know that I love actions. You know that I love you and I will live every single day reassuring you too because I am in you and you are in me.

xoxo

[1: 1,396 of 10,000] I Feel Like Adopting

In Journal on January 26, 2015 at 4:32 AM

annie-2014-movieI feel like adopting a child. Is it crazy?

Am I just being envious that my friends who have kids looked fulfilled and very responsible. And here I am pretending that my boss is my son? And my sister is my daughter? Something is wrong in that picture isn’t it?

I have so much love to give and I think an orphan would need someone like me and I need someone like her that would give me more meaning to not just exist. I would rather adopt a child than to get myself a puppy! A child is full of magic, cuteness, and worthwhile challenges along the way.

I am single with no responsibility except to supposedly live my dream. I wanted to have a child of my own but not after committing with a man, get married, and truly settle down. I like to do things in order so it scares me that if I adopt without a father figure, I might be raising a strong woman who would think man is not important. I have lived my life without depending on a man so it wouldn’t be impossible to rub that off on her.

Listening to Annie (2014) Soundtrack right now raises my desire even more of a child, my crazy idea that seems to make sense.

[1: 1,394 of 10,000] My Mom Prayed For Me

In Journal on January 24, 2015 at 9:59 AM

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I was one of the answers to my mom’s prayer for a good daughter. I have 2 loving sisters, we aren’t perfect and all, but we are all right who have loved as much as we can, and took care of our mom until her last breath after battling colorectal cancer for 2 years.

If my days are down and a little gloomy, I should not forget that I was actually a God-sent to somebody. It is amazing that my mom despite getting an abortion for her first child since she never thought it was the right time, still managed to ask God to give her daughters who are kind and well behave. I have always tried to be well behave, even if in my adult years, it is quite challenging.

My mom was 5th from a total of 8 children, she grew up with 1 big sister and 6 brothers, so imagine her desire to have daughters to dress up and love. I still remember how she dressed me and my 11 months younger sister in pairs like twins, or how she tried to re-create Goldilocks curls to our shinny black hair. I remember how she tickles our ears to wake us up or how we made up our bed before we rise up. She surprised us with dolls on days that we least expect it. She encouraged me to pursue my dream to write at a young age. She was proud of me and listens to my opinions. She raised me being independent and must speak my mind.

My mom prayed for me, I am God little miracle that I should not take for granted, and it is my loving gratefulness that I exist in the world and be the most loving that I can be to the people around me. I was asked out of love, and in love I should live.

It’s a wonderful Saturday feeling being loved.

[1: 1,390 of 10,000] Thank You 2014

In Journal on December 30, 2014 at 10:17 PM

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It was another wonderful year.

I am immensely grateful for the fascinating 365 days whether I cried or laughed.

At the end of tomorrow, I know that I am loved by God unconditionally.

I have 2 beautiful sisters that I am committed to love for the rest of my life.

I am surprisingly grateful to my colleagues who trust and respect me.

Extremely blessed with the new experience.

Knowing that I have truly love a person.

Gaining control that dreamy wrong things need to end.

Miracles happen when pursued.

The world is kind to a loving heart.

I am happy to say good bye and merci to 2014 and for 2015…

Positive Vibes in 2015

 

 

[1: 1,389 of 10,000] My Favourite Movie for 2014 is Annie

In Review on December 28, 2014 at 2:20 AM

I watched Annie premiered in Dubai courtesy of Du at Mall of the Emirates. I love it!

Annie 2014

What are the 5 major things that surprised me and I sincerely love about the movie that I say it’s my favourite for 2014?

  1. The casting is amazing. I am loving the lovely Rose Byrne.
  2. I fell in love with the voices of Quvenzhane Wallis and Jamie Foxx, both of them have the sweetest and loving voice. I melt for their duets.
  3. Even before watching the movie, I was already teary-eyed whenever I watch the music video of the movie’s soundtrack “You’re Never Fully Dressed Without A Smile” by Sia.
  4. It was a movie and musical at the same time, I love the songs and the beat! (Disclaimer: Do not watch the video of “Opportunity” if you are planning to watch the movie, I don’t like to ruin the surprise.) The songs speaks to my heart especially the performance of Opportunity and I will probably sing this song to my child “I Don’t Need Anything But You“.
  5. The story may be simple, predictable, but it’s a kiddie movie that satisfied the young heart in me and my craving for light mood entertainment, if you call laughing and crying light mood.

[1: 1,376 of 10,000] I Have 2 Sisters

In Article on December 2, 2014 at 12:02 PM

Sisters

This postcard above says, “We are sisters. If I am mad at someone, you are mad at them too. End of story.” made me live with two separate lives because I have 2 sisters and one of them is mad at the other. I couldn’t choose a side, I thought I could but couldn’t.

I am the eldest and I use to be the strict and their enemy for being bossy. They used to be best of friends and then the middle child married somebody we really couldn’t approve of and the youngster was crazily mad. I couldn’t understand how 2 people I both love couldn’t love one another further to look beyond things they couldn’t control.

Love is really about appreciating that a rose has thorns; wait let me elaborate a single rose has so many thorns. It should be in our vocabulary to be kind, be forgiving, and unless the person is not a family member or a truly dear friend we couldn’t be part of, should be endured to keep the relation last a lifetime. Hating will only torture and bruise the heart.

I pray that baby sissy will soon realize her other big sissy loves her. One day and forever.

Update, 8 August 2018

My sissies made up and today in our group chat there were funny exchanges. Ahhh love, thank you for entering into our family space.

[1: 1,336 of 10,000] Building an Ikea Blue Chest of 2 Drawers

In Article on August 10, 2014 at 1:03 AM

I don’t like puzzle but I like furnitures. My sissy and I got a blue chest of 2 drawers from Ikea and attempted to build it ourselves. It looked like a chest of 2 drawers isn’t it proven by the photo below and I can’t believe we were really able to put it together after looking at the instruction, screwing, and there was even hammering of baby nails involved.

I am not very patient so I don’t think I would agree on building another cabinet by myself in the future. As I’ve said, I hated puzzle but with the presence of my industrial designer sister I was willing to do it with her. I am glad it went well and we didn’t need to disassemble the whole thing and reassemble; although at some point, the lower drawer almost didn’t work.

Cabinet