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[1: 2,010 of 10,000] It Took Time But I Have Forgiven

In Journal on November 11, 2020 at 11:45 PM

Part of healing my aching heart is to truly forgive everyone who I believe have hurt me. Equally important to forgive myself for the time I was too harsh and in moments that I brought pain on others. All these require me to admit those to myself, look at it, and appreciate that am growing.

This month, I search my heart and check if I have been hiding resentments and I can now catch myself, witnessing when I start being scared and step into isolation and depressing state of replaying old records that aren’t true anymore or scenes that have never exist. I am freeing myself because I am embracing forgiveness and its beauty to bring peace into my being.

It wasn’t quick, it took me forty years, and maybe multiple pasts from my previous lives, but I wasn’t regretful and I wouldn’t bother to answer the question, “Why only now?” I honor my journey to healing and that’s all that matters and I value.

[1: 1,881 of 10,000] Breathe

In Journal on May 26, 2017 at 6:44 PM


I read from a book that a deep meditation can bring someone to a trance, looking like he had fallen asleep then waking up feeling better. I want to experience that.

I want to feel complete surrender of the present, battle the demon in my mind, and then I open my eyes with enough courage to face reality with ease. Then I go again.

I couldn’t seat still because I am anxious about the future and the long list of things to do. The future that holds dreams like a prisoner and as I approach it get released little by little. I have to come to accept that the future holds no power, I must recognize that I live my reality now, a piece of the puzzle of my dreams.

Breathing is the sign of life. If it’s the sign of life, it matters what we breathe in, as it also matters what we breathe out. Breathe in the things that I am capable to control. Breathe out the things that are out of my control. Breathe in blessings and breathe out forgiveness. Breathe in love and breathe out love.

Breathe in… breathe out.

[1: 1,795 of 10,000] What Should We Do With Feedback?

In Article on November 7, 2016 at 12:00 AM


I heard Eva Longoria shared what she learned from Hillary Clinton about feedback and it’s absolutely a good one for us to reflect on and do, “Take criticism seriously but not personally.

We have to be honest, drop the assumptions and the arrogance, and explore if the criticism has really a merit and invites a room for improvement and greatness. Sometimes it is not simply wanting to achieve perfection but we have to acknowledge that a magnificent creation elicits pride, it inspires, and lasts a lifetime. If we are too close to our project, we tend to be blind and miss the flaws, and at this point a critical outsider eye would just be the right flash of genius that’s needed.

Another crucial ingredient is for us not to take it personally. It is painful to be judged especially if we know we’re human who have poured our heart out. But despite the brutality of reality, know that our very essence as a human will never be imperfect, believe that.

The kindest way that we can do to put off the fire of either depression or anger out from the criticism is forgiveness. If the delivery of the critic is harsh, let us forgive him. If we’ve truly made a mistake, let us forgive ourselves.

Then start again, with the focus and determination not to make the same mistake.

[1: 1,704 of 10,000] Rules Can Be Bent

In Article on May 10, 2016 at 12:35 AM


Yes, rules are important to have order in life.

Certain places are marked for entry and exit. Imagine if we all force ourselves to enter a road where everyone is going out, it would be chaos. Rules are set to maintain order and prevent accidents.

And yet, we can bend rules. We can persevere to find a loophole in order to win, in order to change what could have always been, and if our cause is good then it is all right but what if it’s not? How will we justify something so wrong and we feel passionate about it to make it happen; like NO is your answer but wait for it that I’ll change your mind until you say YES.

Where do we draw the line? It was not logic but discrimination against colored people existed in some countries and it was perceived to be right by the white. Where is the saving grace?

FORGIVENESS. It is in forgiveness that we acknowledge something had happened but we accept the repentance, we believed we are not always strong, wise, and right, we learn, and then we move forward.

[1: 1,546 of 10,000] Born Too Late

In Article on August 2, 2015 at 11:42 AM

I was browsing Pinterest today and I saw this comic strip about a woman who was contemplating that she was born in the wrong era –

Comic Inspired

It is true that the perception of people change, the world’s circumstance change. If I am expanding more than just the body image judgment, I am grateful that right now I am not in a country with bomb dropping from the sky that would make me curl up inside my home, scared, and covering my ears.

Our judgment on others is usually the reflection of our own fears. How can we find pleasure to mock someone for something they are that we couldn’t possibly understand their inner struggle? Why do we need to be cruel on others as to ourselves? I am guilty of throwing my own judgment but now I am more concerned about what am I judging on my own self for such a merciless attack.

As a lesson learned from Eckhart Tolle on Awakening, I should not fight back to people who judge and attack me. Not really because I am also guilty but I shall remain present that what has happened in the past is past and what’s important is right now. I am grateful that right now, I forgive myself and I show more compassion to others that they are not aware of their actions and they couldn’t control to give in to their egos who feed on negativity. If I remain peaceful, my presence could radiate a good energy that may possibly awaken them if not maybe in due time.

Live right now. May we have the courage to make a world of encouragement for the better, for the best; and not be a coward to give in to the ego.

[1: 1,536 of 10,000] Thank You Joyce Meyer

In Journal on July 23, 2015 at 1:38 PM

Joyce MeyerI have recently been watching the videos of Joyce Meyer from Youtube and I like her. She’s introducing God to me in a way that made me feel whole, confident, and truly loved. It all started when one day I was browsing at the bookstore and then I found and bought her book “Let God Fight Your Battles” and from then on I look her up online and found her videos, which turned out to be inspiring.

Through her constant ministry that GOD is powerful, loving, and has boundless understanding, my past lunacies became irrelevant.

Lunacy 1: I used to think I am a sinner, I don’t do anything right, hence I deserve to go to hell. -Jesus, the devil definitely rejoiced when I have those thoughts when I was younger. It’s not about bravery to go to hell since GOD never wants anything but for me to be loved and enjoy, and hell is nothing close to love and joy. Yes, I have to endure some crucial transformations, it is hard as God is changing me, but the destination is being with him and it’s perfectly magnificent. I was giving up to just say it was better in hell because I was not feeling God in me and I didn’t want to change; but now I know who to trust, definitely not myself, but God.

Lunacy 2: I can’t hear GOD. -Yet all I ever need to do is RELAX and read the scripture so the Holy Spirit will annoint me that I understand God’s will, or if I don’t get it at all, to remain faithful and continue to do good. God is always with me and whatever it is that I do to strengthened me isn’t for God, but it’s all for me. I pray, I read the bible, I do good, and not because it will add up to God but because it is what I need. God loves me even if he knows I’ll falter again, that’s why he sent Jesus to pay for my sins. All I need is to go back, confess, and be determined to live right.

Lunacy 3: I have to solve my problem and I have no time to rejoice. -This is the most beautiful lesson I learned from Joyce, and she said that while God is working on my problem, I can be joyful! Now, instead of being misserable, pouting, venting, doing self-pity, or exuding negative attitude, I speak, “I love you God, Thank you God for the blessings. You are almighty and please take my worries away. Annoint me to do what I can right now to serve you.” I got the permission to be happy, because when I am happy, good things keep on happening, even in adversity, life is still filled with hope, love, and peace.

[1: 1,515 of 10,000] God I Am Sorry

In Prayer on July 2, 2015 at 9:02 AM

Dear God,

I am sorry that I have told the sins of others. I am sorry that I thought I was doing the right thing. I am sorry that I offended somebody. I am sorry that I was judging others when I am not free from committing sins too.

Forgive me God that I was confused with my actions because I was not in touch with you. I have made rushed decisions that only benefited my ego.

I pray for everyone I offended and I pray for everyone who offended me. May we recognise the LOVE that you have for us and keep us moving forward to do great work and anoint us to serve and to be used by you. Lift us up with the Holy Spirit that we may have a clear conscience and enlightened to walk through your path. I love you and thank you for changing me every day so you may prepare me to the best that I can be.

I glorify your greatness because you have always provided what’s best for us. I humble myself before you. Only with you in my heart that I will ever feel full especially when I love myself and my neighbours.

In Jesus’ name. Amen.


[1: 1,508 of 10,000] 8 Years Later

In Journal on June 25, 2015 at 10:14 PM


I got fascinated with this very arrogant but smart man and he happened to sort of like me. The beginning was exciting and it ended badly. Eight years later, I chatted with him and I couldn’t feel any spark. It was as if I never once got crazy for his attention.

It is really a good news because now I am sure that whatever is bothering me right now will not mean anything at all after eight years. It is comforting that the wrong people will never have a space in my life if I stop dwelling on it.

I am extremely excited for what’s going on right now. It’s the next big thing and I give God all the credit and the glory for His truest grace and unconditional love. I am co-creating! Way too cool!! 🙂

Every once in a while I think about the relationship that needs to end badly, why does it need to end badly, but it does have a great explanation. I sincerely pray that everyone who is involved will be filled with love and peace and though we will never spoke of it with one another, that we do forgive one another.

[1: 1,473 of 10,000] Do I Follow?

In Article on May 21, 2015 at 9:18 PM


How many chances do you give to another person? I know God was way too gracious that He has given me million of chances to be forgiven, so do I have to do the same to someone?

My opinion is people has to live to grow better for as long as they live. I have a former boss and I felt like I am no longer learning from him and that I have given all I have that the only way for me to move forward in my personal life is to move myself out of his company. I told him that he needs to be more inspiring and do good because I honestly couldn’t find a good reason to go back and yet he pursues until now that I should work for him again. I couldn’t blame him, he has seen me dedicated with my work and love the company as my own; I even felt like I cared for the company more than he did, which eventually pushed me to leave it once and for all, as I no longer rave for my leader.

He said he has changed and I could tell him what do I want him to do to prove it just so that I will go back. I wasn’t sure he has changed for the better. I wasn’t sure it is even right that I ask him to prove anything at this point. He did ask that why don’t I try again and see for myself and yet just the thought of going back to the company bring back the stress and hurt. I am scared to repeat everything and yet the hopeful part of my mind is challenging me to be more courageous, that I should be better than that, to give him a chance that I believe he has changed.

I like to comfort myself that he is capable of managing the company without me. Of course he can do it even if he does believed we built it together. He was saying I left the child that couldn’t even walk on its own and I really believed that if I don’t leave, that brain child company would ceased to live, because it will lose its father; yeah he was the father and I was the mother and we have a child that needed love, love that should essentially come not from a dispensable mother but from its own everlasting owner and father.

When the trust got lost along the way and there was cheating involved, I do question a person’s integrity. I know people change, I know that I forgive him, but can a business relationship really start once again from a clean slate? I know that I am not going to last in that company as I have a different track to pursue, so I do not see the point of going back? I am hesitant even if I think I will be doing him a favour to boost his confidence that someone like me who he looks up for validation believed him. He lies a lot to so many people, in different occasions just to get what he wants, I couldn’t take my mind off that this isn’t one of them.

How do you test a man if he doesn’t lie anymore? Is it worth it for me at this point? I am not his guardian angel. He’s a grown man and he should be well aware to distinguish what’s bad from what’s the right thing to do even if it’s difficult. Is this really one of my purpose on this earth, to support him? Do I need to be kind knowing that he needed me more than I need him right now?

I am torn because as much as I don’t want to admit I love him and the company.

[1: 1,399 of 10,000] Forgive For You And Not Just For Your Enemy

In Article on February 6, 2015 at 11:09 AM

My monthly period approached once again and I am turning very emotional, as my boss calls it, I am having an episode. I am indeed having an episode, and he seems to be the perfect target of my annoyance. He repeatedly and cutely apologised for snapping due to extreme stress but I can’t bring myself to believe him, he’s a bonafide liar even if he doesn’t admits it, the irony.

FightingThe unaddressed and extremely suppressed anger built up inside me and got me out of focus. I hit somebody. My car was damn all right but mini hitting another BMW didn’t really go so well, I gave that BMW a mini dimple. I feel bad that I decided to go MIA from the office for a whole day. I have been accused for being unprofessional so I thought why don’t I give that accusation some truth and reality.

Yesterday, I finally let go of my anger, or better put, my prayers have been answered that I completely forget why am I mad in the first place, yes the craved selected amnesia kicked in again and just kept the unpleasant flew away.

I also decided to go for fasting. I intend not to eat any solid food for 7 days. I will only drink water or fresh pressed juice (fruit and vegetables). I survived for more than 48 hours and I thought my fats are able to sustain my amazing overweight body. I do pray a lot whenever I feel the headache, the hunger, and falling into my bad fantasies playing over and over in my head. My fasting is also about having clarity on the best way to move forward on life, to be living my dream with gusto, and winning the capital for our family business.

I am blessed that God loves me and provided everything that I need. All I have to do is be loving, forgive me and others, and show up with a smile! I love life!