Yor Ryeter

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[1: 1,882 of 10,000] My Eulogy

In Journal on May 27, 2017 at 3:59 PM

Life

She grouped the clothes hangers with the same color and type, she donated extra $5 twice to a fund raising to round off the collection, but she was never diagnosed with OCD because she never get herself tested.

It wasn’t OCD that lead to her passing because if you would expect her to keep a clean handwritten organizer then it would be the contrary because her calendar and to do list is all over the place, she admitted loving all the notes and mess because it is a sign of a life well lived and it is the same reason why she didn’t understand a clean rubber shoes.

Ideas flowed through her mind as air is easily available for men to breathe. She can fill pages of her random thoughts but mostly about philosophy especially what she knew for sure or almost believed so that is close to sure. That is another quality that we love about her, she speaks the truth and lived with integrity.

She lived her life without regrets. She thrived everyday. She had forgiven everyone especially herself. She touched our lives as she always said: “I care for you in the best way I knew how.” And it was indeed enough.

It will always be a joy to remember her, to have met her, and an example of a person who came and left this world better than she found it. Her endeavors with all new borns to be loved is remarkable. No baby is ever to be born with questioned dignity and perfection. She made us see that we are whole, complete, enough.

Photo source: Wall Paper Safari

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[1: 1,458 of 10,000] The Day I’ve Arrived

In Article on May 6, 2015 at 7:12 AM

Arrived By Design Shack

Blog frenzy, I’ve already made previous calculations that it will take me a little bit of forever to complete my first batch of 10,000 posts if I’m making just one blog post daily. (Current count: 14.58% completed since November 29, 2010 and no I’ve not been religiously blogging daily since then.)

There were moments that I go ballistic and post more than one especially if strong ideas kept flowing into me that I just have to write them down. Yesterday, I could have written 3 posts and yet I stopped for practical reason. I have other goals that I want to accomplish, blogging is my one thing that doesn’t pay me financially but I do it for the love of creating and writing, so I stopped with one and have written the essence of the 2 other posts for the following days.

My consolation for letting one blog post to come out daily is to let the article simmer and get the due attention and respect if it may really gather. There were people who subscribed in this blog and I wonder what they think that Yor is getting crazy posting more than one today!!?

It will be the day that I have arrived if I would just be blogging for a living and people actually get wonderful inspiration from it. And then I blog anywhere I want to be, with drinks on my hand, with feet up high, a smile on my lips, and my hair smelling like the beach.

[1: 1,438 of 10,000] Will You Live Tomorrow?

In Article on April 16, 2015 at 1:01 PM

Have you ever wonder if tomorrow you would still be living?

It’s funny how I have never fully appreciate breathing, that I am alive. It is one of those things that I take for granted. I always thought, tomorrow is just another shot, which I either endure or go through. Endure when depressed. Go through when aimless. I have not accomplished my purpose and I am not being pressured to do it, so why bother to expect so much from my lazy self?

Although there is another route, a positive one where the possibilities are endless. Regardless what tasks are supposed to be done, sleeping everyday is still to be considered, I watched the 4 episodes of the new Game of Thrones last night, I wrote a special greeting card for my sister, and pack the care package to Australia, which I dropped off this morning at the courier company, and today my battery is running a little low and I’m not drinking another gigantic cup of coffee.

It takes proper discipline to focus my mind to the correct course. See the photo below –

focusThat above photo is usually how my scattered mind function even when I lay in bed without the clear red coloured “focus” at the centre.

No Focus

It is ridiculously tiring and nonsense, I let my mind jump from one repeatedly obsessive thoughts to another that do not boost my “good feeling” because nothing good is accomplished; eventually I end up distracted and the self loathing begins. Is it the creative in me or destructive in me, that I replay scenes that have happened, revise with a twist, or never did and kept loop playing? No wonder having painful experience gets planted deeply into my soul because I let it be.

Focus is Present

I am now practising to keep my mind focused in one good thing at a time. It is the rule that if it is not helpful, then drop it. Blurred everything and aim for the red “focus” word at the centre. If I start in just one good thing, I could finish anything (including curing my procrastination weakness) and if I put a little more effort and lay the ladder to a wonderful goal, it gets done. Commit to one and for the love of God I forgive myself and move on.

Just like when I write a blog, I start, get side ways to Facebook and Instagram or reading articles here and there. I rely on I should feel right to finish a post, it is always the case but if I really start just thinking about the topic, I could finish faster and move on to the next task or next greatness.

If I die today and come back as a ghost tomorrow, I have no one to hold responsible but myself. It is stupid! The only time I will not be grateful for my life is because I have not found my purpose, I did not do my best, and so now that I know my track, I set my goals, live in the present, enjoy the sound of my keyboard, and the music playing in my ears. I am writing this in the middle of a mall, with strangers sitting around me, I am not looking at them and that Carolina Herrera green chiffon day dress, until I hit that good damn “Publish” button. 😛

[1: 1,424 of 10,000] I Am Searching For My Breakthrough

In Journal on March 25, 2015 at 7:22 PM

I resigned from my job last month and I told my 34 year old single self that you have the whole month of March 2015 to figure out what path to take next. Is 34 the age for woman’s mid life crisis? Or I just didn’t get the memo on how to live a care free life?

I just recently started sending my CV out even if I know I didn’t figure out about how to truly live a meaningful life. I have been reading proper books from people who I think has so much wisdom. I have been watching a lot of TED Talks where I could pick up bright ideas. I think I am almost getting it but I am not breaking through into my AHA moment. I am walking in a semi dark room it’s alarming me. I know my bills are coming next month and I don’t want to max out my credit card while my car loan is still ongoing until 2016. I am not worried about money, I am alarmed for being blind in what is the proper track. How am I going to be useful in this lifetime?

rapunzel_short_blonde_hair_by_johngreeko-d6c6wz1I see my batch mates who are married with kids. I see them go on vacation and happy on the photos that they’ve posted in social media. I often wonder if are they really happy? Is that it? Are they contented? Am I supposed to follow that route? I have problem being close to new people, if it’s necessary I can be the friendliest person in the world, but given a choice, I just couldn’t trust people too easily. Maybe that is my problem, I wanted to pick the people who I wanted before I even consider them worthy of my time. My EGO is so huge, I am meant to be locked in a castle with no door and a short hair.

I want a meaningful life. I want to be truly of service. My very recent heartache probably detriment my eyesight that I am worthy for me and for others. That I should never let the people I love to be the source of my reason to move forward. That I should not wait to be rescued but be the hero that I needed. I’ve always wanted to study art, then I thought I wanted to write, I also want to be in business, and yet I am not quite so sure I knew my message anymore. Maybe it’s VARIETY because I was never satisfied with just one thing, I may focus on LOVE as a theme but I should be talking about everything like this blog, I do not limit myself with just mindless mumbling, it should have a little culture and talk about serious subjects, or talk about fantasy, or incredulous vulnerabilities.

Thank goodness I still know how to appreciate tiny projects that has been going on in my life. I am grateful that I have my sissy learning to drive on her own now that I am imprisoning myself at home. I am grateful that our laundry caught up just in time. I am grateful that I am cooking real food everyday. I am grateful that I sleep properly. I am grateful that I left the love of my life but I am not his so I’ve stopped the lunacy. I am grateful that I have applied to jobs that are promising of a happy career life. I am grateful that I should make the Greece vacation this year. I am grateful that I will figure out this life before March ends. Shit I only have until tomorrow!

[1: 1,355 of 10,000] One Goal For The Year

In Journal on October 18, 2014 at 3:15 AM

50s Lady

I wanted to be loved by the right man. How do I make myself loveable? Wrong question. I got to treat myself and love myself the way I wanted to be loved. My goal for 2014 is be the woman I would fall in love with, I got barely 3 months to do it so every single day counts because I am welcoming 2015 with grace, elegance, radiance, beauty – yeah the pageant like seems calculated but really isn’t,  but I don’t want to be the best friend of all winning the congeniality, I wanted to be the crown holder.

  1. I would treat myself like a princess. Delicate, paved, and revered.
  2. I will give myself a compliment. Endearingly accept, live, believe.
  3. I will be nice, polite, charming, a blessing for anyone who comes across me.
  4. I am centered, focused, open for the magic enveloping me.
  5. I will be calm, smile, composed, and warm at all times.
  6. I will listen to my heart, answer to my call, and passionately and struggle to emerge as a hero from the battle of my life.
  7. I will dance for every beat and melody, feeling how my bones and muscles moves with the grooves.
  8. I will praise my creator, to cherish all His endless love, and honour Him with every time I live with the present.
  9. I will enjoy the life that I see, appreciate the good and learn from the beautiful mistakes, and to be always grateful.
  10. I will be whole and ready to expand even more.

I love every inch of my being, its longing, desires, and every bits of joy and enthusiasm stirred when my spirit gets awakened.

[1: 1,288 of 10,000] Come Alive

In Article on January 31, 2014 at 3:11 PM

Royal YOU

Heard it from Oprah Winfrey’s 2013 Harvard Commencement Speech:

You will find true success and happiness if you have only one goal. There really is only one, and that is this: To fulfill the highest, most truthful expression of yourself as a human being. You want to max out your humanity by using your energy to lift yourself up, your family, and the people around you. Theologian Howard Thurman said it best. He said, “Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

I currently struggle that I don’t serve enough people in my life and yet the few people that I do serve suffer with my erratic behaviour of being prickly at some point, nice in another time, combinations of confused, stressed, sick, emotional, kind, inspiring, tough, and honest. I am clueless of what truly makes me come alive and doing it for the rest of my life. Right now, I said YES to challenges that I don’t completely understand how to resolve. To make things worst, I am fearful to step forward to get on the work.

I know that the people around believed I am dependable, loveable even with my challenging characteristics, and yet I do not feel alive. It is time that I change my ATTITUDE and put on my optimism and keep accomplishing even if it is painful. I will take chances to trust even if I ‘might’ get hurt. I will believe that I will love and will always be grateful to sprinkle happiness wherever I may be now. I should show up and come alive to carry everyone to better feelings because I may not have the right career but I know how great I am in lifting someone’s spirit.

Photo Source: Lauren Conrad’s Instagram

[1: 882 of 10,000] A Very Merry New Year

In Journal on January 1, 2013 at 12:00 AM

I LOVE NEW YEAR.

I love a lot of things and New Year is one of them.

holiday 2013

I will make simple goals for 2013:

  1. Pray Daily.
  2. Pay what I owe to my little sissy.
  3. Finish the book I intend to finish.
  4. Make my current company one of the most successful in the Forensic industry.
  5. Increase income to AED 20K monthly.
  6. Secure a Driving License + get a Car.
  7. Photoshop Expert.
  8. Stay fit and healthy @ 110 lbs.
  9. Christmas in Australia.
  10. Sleep Daily.

[1: 728 of 10,000] Drum Roll For My 2012 Goals

In Journal on August 20, 2012 at 8:43 PM

  1. Finish the book.
  2. Get a job for Cousin George.
  3. Prepare that cousin Marie Antoinette ready to be in Dubai before the year ends.
  4. Pay off debt from little sissy.
  5. Go out of the country for fun purposes.

Before 2012 comes to an end, I am going to make the 5 things happen without excuses.

Photo Source: Duplex Chick