In Journal on July 10, 2016 at 11:59 PM
It would be nice that I will never feel like I was being forced to work. Something is wrong, I am unhappy again. I know that I am able to work along fine people, learning from them, and some even trust my abilities but others also surprised me and disappoint me for being constantly engaging with BIG EGOS maybe including my growing lack of enthusiasm.
It would be nice not feeling lost. I need to find what I am passionate about, hold on to it, and make it work. Or make lemonade now? Or what happened to my mantra that I gotta to leave this world at least a little better than I found it.
I am panicking again. I couldn’t get proper sleep because I am starting to worry. I got to calm down, don’t drink too much coffee, and believe that everything will work out just fine.
I really really just want to be happy at work wherein everyone is working very well together.
In Journal on April 30, 2016 at 11:16 AM
I was losing my sanity. I was tired, angry, filling my head with constant negativity, and at the brink of quitting my job without any assurance of what would feed me tomorrow. I was begging to die (this is a whole other vantage point).
Always trying to live at the extreme and at the edge of the cliff. I always know I am provided but not without suffering, test of endurance, and it exhausting especially when I couldn’t find my centre. My body is so smart that when I had enough, it will break, it will yell an illness, so for a day, I surrendered.
I take a sick leave from work for a day because headache was excruciatingly trying to crack my head open.
It was not a pleasant experience. It was a struggle to put my effort on sleep almost the whole day. I watched a comedy special to laugh until I cry. I cooked a simple food to feed my body. I never worried about work.
The next day, I was cheerful, I was thinking positively, and there was no amount of bad news that let me down.
So if you’re feeling overwhelmed, rest if you must and you really should. 🙂
In Journal on July 31, 2015 at 1:58 PM
I am hustling
I am not hustling enough so I couldn’t possibly wonder why I wasn’t moving.
I got to have a better idea and act on them.
I am keeping my happy mood even if I seriously couldn’t understand how am I going to turn out.
I trust that GOD hears me and understands what I am going through.
I believe that HE won’t leave me alone without loving life way better that I had yesterday.
I am enthusiastic for HIS surprise! I know it’s going to be amazingly fantastic.
Right now, I am happy. I am hopeful. I am grateful.
Now, I better finish the 2 books I started reading and learn from them.
In Article on June 20, 2015 at 12:51 PM
Provided we have confessed our sins, we carry a clean conscience, and we mean and stopped doing harm on others… then we should stop being cruel on ourself and ENJOY LIFE!
We are not perfect, we make mistakes, but being regretful after we’ve done everything to fix our mistakes, means it is time to free ourselves for self-loathing, self-pity, and being miserable. There are things that we can never explain and instead of trying to figure out the meaning, repeatedly playing the scenes (what has and could have been) in our head, let us be brave to pull out the arrow pressing our hearts to despair.
We deserve to be happy. If we’re happy, we create a wonderful energy inside us that translates to affecting everything around us. It is a miracle worker to hum a tune, create something today out of love, and be a pleasant being around people. The only one who matters for our approval is our ever loving God who sees the content of our hearts, who is just, and gracious, oh and not to forget truly forgiving. He is the only one whose opinion matters because we couldn’t hide anything from him, he knows what we need before we even ask, and he directs our path to where we should be if we let him.
Let us recognise God almighty power blessing each of us, whoever we are. He wants us to be joyful while he take charge of our battles that we cannot endure. Smile and let us be a blessing to others NOW, and a simple good aura that we exude is a great way to start.
In Article on May 13, 2015 at 5:17 PM
The Olsen twins are just one of the stars who don’t normally smile in front of the camera but when you inspect the above photos I’ve seen from Elle.com… what do you see?
Smug (picture on the left) They don’t really look arrogant but instead indifferent and almost cold. They seemed to hold so much emotions, just like Kanye West when he’s in trance and looking all serious for the sake of fashion and gaining respect?!
Smile (picture on the right, like you won’t figure it out) Their faces lighten up and I do like it when a normally uptight individual began to open up. It seems like there’s miracle in the world and everybody is happy. They looked warmer, younger, and simply happier.
Who wouldn’t want to be happy? Even those who are emotionally challenged ultimately long for happiness. My favourite part of the smiling lips are actually the equally jolly eyes!! Smiling makes you look beautiful and oh it helps if you have properly maintained teeth. It is a big plus that it comes with laughter (with cute giggle) that’s genuine because it shows a different radiance.
So whenever you have an option to smug or smile, choose the latter for far more benefits; except if you’re in a compromising place and it suggests something else. 😀
In Journal on January 9, 2015 at 2:07 PM
I need a good perspective, so Paris it is for 2015 New Year!
It’s my first time to visit France and I couldn’t deny how I fell in love with The Eiffel Tower and Paris’ architecture. I love the city and there was so much to see and so many reasons to visit it again.
I am in awe how The Eiffel Tower can be photographed in any angle and still looked magnificent at any given time too!
Happy New Year, I hope you started the year with lots of loving hope for a wonderful life that we are about to write and live. I am loving 2015.
In Journal on December 30, 2014 at 10:17 PM
It was another wonderful year.
I am immensely grateful for the fascinating 365 days whether I cried or laughed.
At the end of tomorrow, I know that I am loved by God unconditionally.
I have 2 beautiful sisters that I am committed to love for the rest of my life.
I am surprisingly grateful to my colleagues who trust and respect me.
Extremely blessed with the new experience.
Knowing that I have truly love a person.
Gaining control that dreamy wrong things need to end.
Miracles happen when pursued.
The world is kind to a loving heart.
I am happy to say good bye and merci to 2014 and for 2015…
In Journal on December 16, 2013 at 4:27 PM
I started to feel Christmas on December 16th, 2013 because I went to see Santa Claus and he got me a pretty yellow doll.
I love the holidays because of the cheers, surprises, and every thing turns out to be magical. I should be feeling this all throughout the days of my life because I know that I am loved by the reason of the season’s celebration.
In Journal on September 11, 2013 at 7:21 PM
I love the happy me. I missed it for a long time. I am not stopping now.
I am somehow too happy that people around do not believe it but I am really comfortable to be carefree and laugh out the silly mishaps.
It is not going to be the end of the world if I don’t finish everything at work. I am staying calm and relax. I will not care what my boss will say because I know the proper limit of being responsible.
I am going to love me and it’s time to go to bed.
In Journal on September 8, 2013 at 12:00 AM
I am choosing happiness at work starting tomorrow. No more drama!!!!!
Tonight, I will sleep early and gratefully. I was so tired that I know I will finally snooze soundly.
To make sure I am supporting my optimism I got myself a new business notebook. Love the pick I made from Virgin Megastore. If the front design is in cool grey, the back makes me smile with the presence of yellow hue, the name Waldo (reminds me of one of my favorite philosophers ‘Ralph Waldo Emerson’), got the word ‘Pancake’ – I ♥ love pancake too, and the one line antic about web browsing & coffee shop.
Hello Happiness Here I Am.