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[1: 1,965 of 10,000] The Defining Moment When I Knew I Desired To Write

In Journal on May 30, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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People who grew up loving what they do knew their deepest desire that they were meant to do it. I met a doctor who said, “I’ve always known that I wanted to become a doctor.” Great singers have the voice that blows our mind. Me… the defining moment when I knew I desired to write is because of my neighbour whom I considered an elder sister said, “You can make anything come true if you write it.”

My young mind understood that well I’ve always wanted a genie and that sounds pretty close in having one and the difference I didn’t even have a limitation of only three wishes. There was a time that my novel was a roadmap to my actual life, but that doesn’t always happen. What grew is my love affair with writing, not about making a wish come true, but it transitioned that it gives me the joy to write, and now I am at the point that I write to inspire people of what I write and for others to be infected of my joy because I am writing.

My beginning feels selfish and childish because it is what I was able to grasp and my point of experience in that life. Now, I am still selfish because I do write since it gives me pleasure but I think about others that may my writing gives another light to a path of seeing the beauty of life.

Photo by Ilya Pavlov on Unsplash

 

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[1: 1,964 of 10,000] Do You Remember A Moment of Grace In Your Life?

In Journal on May 25, 2019 at 1:40 AM

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My heart is full of love right now. I feel so blessed and loved. I have something to be grateful for every day because I am enjoying life.

Don’t get me wrong, I still worry about work, disappointed that I can’t meet my deadline, but the deeper I am in shit the harder I prayed and asked for help especially wisdom from the Holy Spirit. My burden becomes lighter, and I get disciplined to finish one task after another.

My calendar in both professional and personal are so full, but every day, I sat down for meditation as a reminder that I can capture a moment of calm, and then I start moving. I learned to act without waiting for anyone’s permission or for the circumstance to be perfect.

Going back to my main question, do you remember a moment of grace in your life? It doesn’t have to be a big deal but notice the small miracles. Find those moments when you can feel your heart and soul soothed.

I noticed that whenever I listen to Nessun Dorma sang, there’s something magical that can bring me to tears, and those were my moments of grace. What raises through my mind is how grateful I am listening to this beautiful opera singers using their talent to serenade me (and the rest of the world); then I use mine to be an open vessel to allow the spirit to move me to touch you.

Photo by eberhard grossgasteiger on Unsplash

[1: 1,961 of 10,000] The Best State I’ve Ever Been

In Journal on March 2, 2019 at 6:01 PM

Wow, it’s been a while since my last post. I have been working on my well being. I’m very happy to where I am right now, challenged, and moving to create something that I can leave behind in this world. I feel like I’m living the new movie of Rebel Wilson where her world was perfect, only I didn’t get mobbed and hit my head on a steel post, but I am slowly awakening and I appreciate life.

I find solace in the present, I end and start the day with gratefulness, and I see the miracles, feel the love, and enjoy the moment of growth. Don’t get me wrong, that ‘growth’ part is painful because I have to face my demons, I have to be objective, and I have to put in the work that has pain involved.

I am happy because I feel appreciated. I am delighted because I am seen. I am.

[1: 1,959 of 10,000] Loving Even The Imperfection

In Journal on December 5, 2018 at 8:20 PM

I have a new appreciation for not living aiming for perfection and efficiency inspired by the podcast of Rob Bell, The RobCast, Episode 220. I always have the desire to achieve the best works, which means it has the ingredients of being perfect from conceptualization, development, and completion. I do pressure myself of always pursuing perfection.

Yet what I heard/grasp from the sermon (digitally delivered) is imperfection is as beautiful as the perfect one because it was meant to happened that way. It makes more sense when I add it with what I’ve always believed, “everything happens for a reason and nothing is ever wasted,” and this includes all the problems that are often hard and ugly including the memories that I have the habit of escaping and intentionally forgetting to avoid reliving the pain.

Everything is interconnected and one incident leads to another. Nothing is ever a mistake but a wall leads to a detour, another adventure, or to prove to oneself how much something is wanted that I’ll exert all strength that I have to break the wall. It helps that I often lean to optimism when talking about disheartening situations, but now with the new found appreciation, I found a kind of peace and surrender of what is.

[1: 1,958 of 10,000] Patience Vs. Instant Gratification

In Journal on November 30, 2018 at 10:51 AM

I remember when I was a teenager, I thought life is so hard that I am willing to die and make a deal with the devil to make sure I feel better. I try to recollect what were my disappointments before and what pops up is I don’t feel pretty enough and I am not smart enough to be on top of our class.

Now that I’ve experienced the peace when I am truly connected to God, I wondered why would I ever believe the devil will be able to provide what I seemed to feel that I am missing in my life… and it daunts on me that my humanity is looking for instant gratification.

I am beginning to appreciate the advantage of PATIENCE because it is one of the perfect qualities of God. Do not worry about the past and the future but I am to do my best right now. It takes seasons for a flower to bloom and flourish. What I am now is because I’ve endured different experiences and if I was bold enough to learn then I am stronger today.

Being bad and rebelious is not about leaning to the wrong side, if I silent my human weaknesses and lean on the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, my burdens are light and my day is meaningful. I have to practice that muscle and never again will I give in to complacency and rush of getting material accolade instantly. I will enjoy the process, the journey, and celebrate the fruition that culminates an end… and then be brave to begin again.

[1: 1,957 of 10,000] Oh The Confident To Live Long

In Journal on November 23, 2018 at 12:15 PM

My dad died at 49 and my mom died at 58 because of unhealthy living. At 38 I do think about my mortality, I do wonder where will my remains be buried especially that I am not yet rooted in any country. How will I die without causing any distress or inconvenience to my sisters who will be the point person for my body?

Leaving the thought of morbidity aside, I have the desire to live my life without thinking about the future too much. I don’t always have the fascination to make plans that I’ll follow through and there’s that downside that I end up clueless about where will I go then? I am more concerned that I am enjoying my life now. I have the courage to try extreme sports like skydiving because what is life without excitement.

Oh, the confident whenever I go to bed at night thinking I’d wake up with a sunlight the next day. Oh, the confidence that I have many more chances to take a route different from yesterday.

[1: 1,956 of 10,000] It Wasn’t Just Me

In Journal on November 20, 2018 at 7:26 PM

For months I was stalling very important works only for all those tasks to catch up on me when the event was about to happen. I was so nervous! I let my emotion as my benchmark whether to show up to my responsibility, it wasn’t like me at all. My made up dissatisfaction and feeling uninspired crept me up so much that it froze me to do what I need to do in my job. So days before the event, I was working like crazy, 24 hours wasn’t enough, and so my last resort was to call my Hail Mary.

I prayed to God that the event will run smoothly. Whatever great things will be in His glory, and whatever screw up are my lessons to learn. After all the worries for how many months, the event was finally over and it was a success in the eyes of those who are not part of the organizing committee. I have received praises and I couldn’t take full credit for them because I know in my heart that it wasn’t just me, I have magical help to vanish my worries.

Are you worried about something right now? Pray. God listens to us and whatever fear we have He’ll help us through it if we let Him. When we walk with love instead of fear, we triumph.

[1: 1,955 of 10,000] What Mask Do You Wear?

In Question on October 14, 2018 at 12:30 AM

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What mask do you wear to feel accepted, comforted, and secured? I’ll tell you a secret, you don’t need to hide from a mask, you’re one of a kind, a superstar, you just have to let yourself shine. The ranks, the social classifications, the judgments coming from prejudice are not important, recognize that.

What will you sacrifice to protect your mask? I’ll tell you a secret, you have to find out what’s most important that you can do and then choose the sacrifice that matters.

Is it worth protecting? I’ll tell you a secret, what’s worth protecting is having every opportunity to love yourself and when you do you will have no choice but to love others.

Have you reached your deepest desire? I’ll tell you a secret, keep all the noises down, and listen to what’s important and don’t be afraid to find the answer and go live it.

Have you recognized love, connection to God, and living doing what you’re meant to do? I’ll tell you a secret, it’s always been in you, you’ve only forgotten it, and allowed to abide a clouded fear.

Are you ready to take off your mask? I’ll tell you a secret, choose love over fear. Your inner compass knows what’s right, whatever is stopping you do what is right is rooted from fear, now dissolve that fear and choose love.

Are you ready to overcome feeling embarrassed? I’ll tell you a secret, whatever it is that you think is awful got only worst when you create scenes that never happened. You will only feel embarrassed if you’ve given up but why will you give up when you are given every bit of chance every time you wake up in the morning to live without fear.

Image source: Venetian Masks IV by maluviam d3h0lie

[1: 1,954 of 10,000] What Do You Desire?

In Poem on October 6, 2018 at 9:45 PM

 

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I have tasted poverty
I have felt glory
Yet there are in between
I felt indifference
Neither happy nor sad

I got to feel again
Find the fire in my soul
Let it blasts into an explosion
Make me feel human
Make me feel divine

Open my heart
Find out where it beats
What do I desire
For my desire
Lead to why my soul exists

Photo source: Banksy’s Instagram Post – The Banksy artwork got shredded right before everyone’s eyes after it was auctioned for 1 Million Pound.

[1: 1,953 of 10,000] Living A Decade In Dubai

In Journal on September 23, 2018 at 6:23 PM

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2001 was my first attempt of living in Dubai that only lasted for 6 months. I left when my body was literally bursting skin allergy due to stress caused by my sales job, constantly outdoor, and a part of it is introducing condoms to hypermarkets and hotel shops. Then in 2008, I came back, and I never thought I would ever step in this country again after my not so endearing first-time experience, but 10 years later I’m still here and not in a hurry to leave because I like my job being in the healthcare industry.

Here are the 10 things that a decade of living in Dubai has made me experience:

  1. In my early days, there is a different impression towards women, like men entice women to get into their car that sort of uneasy feeling. I do hope that’s not the case now, I don’t experience it anymore, maybe because I now lived in a better neighborhood or it completely stopped.
  2. I am grateful that I am in a pretty awesome apartment and a quiet neighborhood where there is a proper and charming boardwalk that I can use for jogging.
  3. The feeling of security that I will never be robbed in broad daylight or even if you accidentally left your house open overnight. My sister forgot her mobile phone from mall shops several times, and we always get it back.
  4. I have experienced working in a company that didn’t pay salary on time. I’ve heard from employees today that they don’t get paid on time even if they try to resolve it through the labor office. It’s not fair that companies do this especially that expat are here to work to support their loved ones back home. I also don’t like it that some companies pay a meager salary, taking advantage to people who were trying their best to stay in the country before their visa expires. After 4 companies, my 5th was when I knew what I am looking for and I knew exactly what I was demanding. Great companies exist.
  5. I love it that Dubai always offers something shiny and new to residents and tourists.  It may be a city that has malls open until midnight or even at 2am during Ramadan, but it still sleeps. There are moments that I am still wide awake at 3am and I watch the quiet street and the thought that most people are in their dreams at those moments, that’s absolutely giving me comfort, to be a witness of the subtle energy. It’s one of the reasons I like living in the city, it is alive by day and sleeps at night.
  6. If you have the money, you can enter anywhere. There are probably very exclusive places but most of the time, when you have the cash, then you’ll be able to experience luxury. I like the fact that it doesn’t discriminate. This is also the reason why I am always tempted to spent instead of learning to save.
  7. Having a residence visa in UAE allowed me to easily secure other visas to visit other countries. I felt that it’s easier to travel abroad and it’s such a wonderful feeling that I can be anywhere I fancy.
  8. The weather usually is hot or hotter (42-degree Celsius) but during winter time (14-degree Celcius) it is possible to enjoy alfresco dining and makes you want sun again. Despite the country being too hot, all establishments are equipped with airconditioning unit including the little grocery nestled within communities.
  9. You don’t see beggars or homeless scattered anywhere. I’ve been to Australia and France, and it shocked me to see people living in the streets, they also scare me a little that I try to avoid them and avoided eye contact.
  10. The Emiratis that I’ve encountered are very humble and welcoming to foreigners. It makes me feel at home. Last June, I went back to the Philippines for 12 days (after 6 years of not visiting), and I felt more at home to come back to Dubai. So right now, Dubai is my home.