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[1: 1,890 of 10,000] Tinder Experience

In Review on August 5, 2017 at 4:22 AM

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I downloaded the Tinder app, signed up, deleted my account, signed up again, deleted my account again, and finally deleted the app in a span of less than two months.

I am scared to be flirty although I did try and made an effort. I am afraid to fall in love with a wrong man… I know the mere thought of finding a wrong man already set me up for disaster. I doubt that the man I want to settle down with signed up in Tinder. Could it be that as hesitant as I may be is the same feeling of the man I am meant to meet?

Or are we crossing paths but I never looked, paused?

For something to happen, I need to take an action, but I couldn’t seem to stomach signing up in Tinder and swiping as fast as I can. In seconds judging an individual with their photos and brief write up then making all these assumptions.

I hated it when I mistakenly liked or even super liked somebody I don’t even meant to be just because my silly thumb has a mind of its own to the right direction. I swiped left too soon and missed the possibility of I might like that man. I wonder if I am going to find a really honest gentleman. I laugh when I found a match only after a few minutes one of us would decide we are not a match after all ouch quick rejection!

It feels like so much work to be part of it so I have to challenge myself and find another way to meet good men. I have to sign up for activities where I will actually interact with men.

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[1: 1,884 of 10,000] You Can’t Save Everybody

In Journal on June 6, 2017 at 10:14 PM

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Is it really preposterous to believe we can’t save everybody?

I believe everybody is unique hence every single one has different needs and yet don’t we really all want the same thing? Is there one ultimate destination that we wanted? Do we really want LOVE but we have various ways of rediscovering and reliving it? Is it important that we are one; or are we good as we are even with our flaws that could propel us to our greatness?

What is greatness? Is it finding the peace amidst the percepted chaos? Why do we get lost? Why do we succumb to evil or maltreatment? Why don’t we immediately feel conscientious as our compass to kindness?

Why do we doubt our essence that we are perfect, whole, and complete? Why did we forget that we are incredibly perfect, loved, and capable to love?

Does anybody really need saving? Maybe not saving, but we need reminders of who we truly are within so we can unlearn the things that clouded the real us. One a time, let us remind one another, and one at a time we do what’s loving (1 Corinthians 13:4-7).

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[1: 1,881 of 10,000] Breathe

In Journal on May 26, 2017 at 6:44 PM

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I read from a book that a deep meditation can bring someone to a trance, looking like he had fallen asleep then waking up feeling better. I want to experience that.

I want to feel complete surrender of the present, battle the demon in my mind, and then I open my eyes with enough courage to face reality with ease. Then I go again.

I couldn’t seat still because I am anxious about the future and the long list of things to do. The future that holds dreams like a prisoner and as I approach it get released little by little. I have to come to accept that the future holds no power, I must recognize that I live my reality now, a piece of the puzzle of my dreams.

Breathing is the sign of life. If it’s the sign of life, it matters what we breathe in, as it also matters what we breathe out. Breathe in the things that I am capable to control. Breathe out the things that are out of my control. Breathe in blessings and breathe out forgiveness. Breathe in love and breathe out love.

Breathe in… breathe out.

[1: 1,880 of 10,000] Learning Heartache

In Journal on May 25, 2017 at 1:36 PM

I don’t know if I have properly love somebody but I could certainly agree that I have obsessed with various men hoping that they love me back. Do they call that unrequited love? Or am I so cray cray that they ran as far and fast that they could?

In my search for true love, I go back to the Bible’s definition of it, I still believe it is the most legit to consult for the purest meaning of anything in life, didn’t they even put HOLY to emphasize the divinity of it? 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 is my go to definition.

What I learned though, at the very moment that I am in love (or obsessed) with someone, my mind constantly associate him in almost anything that I come across. It could be another movie star, a thing, and yet everything that reminds me of him totally vanished its power the moment I am over him.

I always thought I will never see Chris Pratt or Michael Fassbender the same way again because their lips remind me of somebody I thought I love; but now that I see these two movie stars, I couldn’t even remember his face clearly as I used to. I just laugh now whenever I remember the days that I was crying over him and getting jealous without even having the right position to do so. It’s messed up and I am relieved that I am over it.

To those who suffer with lost love, it’ll pass. You will heal and I say that without bitterness.

[1: 1,870 of 10,000] There Is No Such Thing As Wasted Love

In Journal on March 11, 2017 at 10:36 AM

I shouldn’t fool myself, there is no such thing as WASTED LOVE. If it is true love, it grows root and it multiplies.

It isn’t love when I expect something in return. It is love when I give without hesitation but comes from a pure heart. What is a pure heart? I believe that I am made of love, and everything that I do that is genuine must be a continuity of love. I do not to have harmful intentions towards myself or others.

I do acknowledge that I needed help to keep the love flowing by connecting with the source, and that source is God.

[1: 1,866 of 10,000] Child

In Article on January 21, 2017 at 12:02 PM

Yesterday I heard a family passed by my apartment, a father, a mother, and a child. The child was asking the parents about where are they going. The child’s voice is filled with excitement and a sense of wonder for a little person but with a whole soul. Are children that hopeful and filled with love because they just came from our source?

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To maintain that purity in spirit, the adult has the responsibility to nurture them with love but trust them enough that they could eventually stand up on their own to be what they were supposed to be to serve the world better than they found it.

Children are strong in hope but they are fragile too that adult could break that, to condition them in a hostile upbringing, leading them to a bad path. Adults indeed have the responsibility to care for the young ones to lead with good example, so they can grow up as  a responsible human being.

[1: 1,865 of 10,000] Oh Love

In Journal on January 18, 2017 at 10:03 AM

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My latest lesson is about love.

I started from listening to Mandy Len Catron’s TED talk about “A better way to talk about love.” People are used to the notion that falling in love is getting mad and crazy; so she shared a better metaphor, which is “Love is a collaborative work of art.” This then allows men to decide what love would looks like.

The movie Inferno (2016) shared interesting lines about love: “Love awakens the soul to act,” spoken by Bertrand Zobrist. This line puzzled me as I seem to have a sleeping soul, pausing and not in action. Do I know what really love is?

So I always go back to 1 Corinthians 13:4-7, that makes a great sense as my guide:
Love
is patient
is kind
does not envy
does not boast
is not proud
does not dishonor others
is not self-seeking
is not easily angered
keeps no record of wrong
does not delight in evil
rejoices with the truth
always protects
always trusts
always hopes
always perseveres

How about you, what is your definition of love?

[1: 1,851 of 10,000] I And We

In Article on January 7, 2017 at 2:51 AM

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I am still not convinced what mission do I have to have the privilege to exist in this world. Or maybe that is my problem that I try to give meaning for things to happen. If I completely surrender and let go of my ego that I am particularly special then maybe I could simply say that I exist.

I exist. I am here. I breathe.

What I do in my existence is a matter of my choice. I am given the freewill to do as I please and in every act I would reap the consequence or simply I must expect that there is a reaction to be elicited in my every move or even inaction. And further on I could also just surrender the result and not be melodramatic about it.

It is important to believe that I am important but not to think that I more important than anyone as everybody is equally valuable. The uniqueness of every  individual is fascinatingly beautiful. I just expertly build up my wall and tricked myself into thinking that I am in a different league but it can’t be as the source is just one.

We are connected. We are one.

Now that I know that I exist and I have to exist with other; which law should I abide to have order? Who would I trust to lead and manage? It is why there are sacred values to uphold like being honest, giving my best, and being kind. As intricate as the body composition is, the more layer that is applicable to be respectful with one another. When I rip everything off, what’s left?

LOVE.

[1: 1,842 of 10,000] New Romance

In Journal on December 26, 2016 at 10:55 PM

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New romance brings all the crazy thumping of sensations that makes you tingle all at the right special places.

I am courting life that I find my crazy new romance that drive me faster and stronger when I want to give up; and light up my zen aura when I’ve just given my all.

It would be great too to finally have the perfect romantic experience in 2017!

[1: 1,840 of 10,000] I Don’t See But I Believe

In Article on December 26, 2016 at 9:36 PM

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I don’t see God but I do believe He exists.

I am conditioning myself (making it stick) to believe that He exists in each and every one of us whether we are known as nice or nasty. I do this because I don’t want to keep judging others and let my ego assume that I am better than some other people. I also want it as a reminder so I can be kinder, easier to forgive myself and others, and let go of the things that I couldn’t explain and comprehend.

Am a little mess with my thoughts and feelings so my solution is surprising people who are dear to me, winning a true smile with the efforts that I have done especially for them, and maybe a miracle will happen that I get a clear head and direction on my next shenanigan, I mean adventure! Life is good.

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