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[1: 1,976 of 10,000] The Greatest Positive Distraction In Life

In Article on February 7, 2020 at 6:33 AM

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If I am weary waiting for a man to send me a message, agitating for a someone or something to happen… I have to push myself to do a “positive” distraction to not lose my mind.

Before I go for the good distraction, I should confess my current rabbit hole mood and that’s watching Tarot Card reading for my horoscope in YouTube, geez too excited to find out about the future! Or starting a whole new series to watch in Netflix, it’s a whole new commitment so I better check how many episodes and how long each episode is.

Now the good stuff, there’s one key ingredient of what’s in the greatest distraction and it should be doing something that I love or similar to what am truly passionate about. Anything that brings me joy without guilt but peace are key. For instance, writing a blog, reading a helpful book for my learning or growth or entertainment, or going out to connect with other people. These distractions make me forget time and draws me into a flow.

What’s your positive distraction?

Photo by Fabrizio Verrecchia on Unsplash

[1: 1,974 of 10,000] I Signed Up For Tinder, Again

In Article on February 1, 2020 at 7:08 PM

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Last December 15, 2019, for the third time, I signed up for Tinder. Again, not because I was out of a relationship, but because I was scared to be in one. If I am not playing my card right, I’ll be the female version of the 40-year-old virgin this year.

First time I signed up in Dubai years ago, I didn’t like the choices of men, so after a day, I deleted the account. The second time I signed up in Dubai, I saw someone I knew, so without a second thought, I immediately deleted my account. Now, the third time and sign up while I was in Copenhagen for vacation, I am finally giving love a chance and determined to let love simmer into my life. Also, Copenhagen is filled with good looking people who have great taste in creating artful things, I thought if I will look for a mate, it’s a place that’s a viable place with a great array of choices. Despite seeing two people I knew in the dating app when back home in Dubai, it wasn’t enough to scare me this time and so I hold on.

After 1 month, I stumble upon a guy that is potentially I want to love. Big word, right? He makes me laugh, he knows how to use the proper punctuation marks (oh I can’t emphasize enough how satisfying that is), and he answers all questions when we chat. It’s a pickle that there are that 5,598 kilometers distance between us but it’s just one plane ticket away if we really think it’s worth giving this possible connection a chance. The best part of all is he calms me down, I am a worrier and overthink a lot of things and him being attentive, insightful, and never fails to respond to my message… I mean I can honestly admit that I’m starting to like him. Will he be the reason why I would finally be deleting my Tinder account for good? I hope! xx

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[1: 1,965 of 10,000] The Defining Moment When I Knew I Desired To Write

In Journal on May 30, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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People who grew up loving what they do knew their deepest desire that they were meant to do it. I met a doctor who said, “I’ve always known that I wanted to become a doctor.” Great singers have the voice that blows our mind. Me… the defining moment when I knew I desired to write is because of my neighbour whom I considered an elder sister said, “You can make anything come true if you write it.”

My young mind understood that well I’ve always wanted a genie and that sounds pretty close in having one and the difference I didn’t even have a limitation of only three wishes. There was a time that my novel was a roadmap to my actual life, but that doesn’t always happen. What grew is my love affair with writing, not about making a wish come true, but it transitioned that it gives me the joy to write, and now I am at the point that I write to inspire people of what I write and for others to be infected of my joy because I am writing.

My beginning feels selfish and childish because it is what I was able to grasp and my point of experience in that life. Now, I am still selfish because I do write since it gives me pleasure but I think about others that may my writing gives another light to a path of seeing the beauty of life.

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[1: 1,963 of 10,000] Why Do I Love God?

In Journal, Poem on May 24, 2019 at 7:46 PM

I feel you
I know you
I believe
You love me
Even if I don’t love you

But now, I know
I love you
I try to remember you
Every day
Every moment

You bring me peace
Amidst my chaos
My pain
Desires
Mistakes

You bring me peace
Even when I’m confused
Struggling
Childish
Mad

I see your gifts
All the miracles
The nudge
Guidance
Calling

Here I am
I’m with you for your plan
Taking action
Paying attention
Living

[1: 1,906 of 10,000] My Fascination About Life

In Journal on July 13, 2018 at 11:51 PM

Do you ever wonder what you truly need as a human being? Yes, there are those factors that we wanted to be seen, heard, respected, empowered, powerful, wealthy, comfortable, smart, but there are three things that truly fascinate me.

First is LOVE. I read from a book that love is too complex to define, but we have to try to grasp it especially if, of all the factors in life, it seems to be the most important… but wait is it really that we wanted to be loved or to love or both? And the biggest revelation that we are in fact made out of love so we are in constant flow of a positive energy, it just stops when we forget who we truly are.

Second is UNIQUENESS. There are moments that we wanted to be set apart from others for being our own voice, sharing our authenticity, and that’s truly impactful when it happens. It just stops when we try to follow the crowd, play small, and losing to make a stand.

Third is EGO. Ego that takes its form from all experience, making assumptions out of its presumed logical prowess, and yet causing so much pain when not put in check. We need it as our intellectual capability and to trigger courage or humbleness when used properly.

May I remember that I am love and it will blow my mind if my actions are toward the greater good of myself and others. May I always enjoy my uniqueness and share my story through my lens, and be a responsible human being that is part of a big world yet a world that is so much a part of me. May I keep my ego in check in meditation and prayer in order to act with a gentle peace, resolution, and forgiveness.

[1: 1,890 of 10,000] Tinder Experience

In Review on August 5, 2017 at 4:22 AM

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I downloaded the Tinder app, signed up, deleted my account, signed up again, deleted my account again, and finally deleted the app in a span of less than two months.

I am scared to be flirty although I did try and made an effort. I am afraid to fall in love with a wrong man… I know the mere thought of finding a wrong man already set me up for disaster. I doubt that the man I want to settle down with signed up in Tinder. Could it be that as hesitant as I may be is the same feeling of the man I am meant to meet?

Or are we crossing paths but I never looked, paused?

For something to happen, I need to take an action, but I couldn’t seem to stomach signing up in Tinder and swiping as fast as I can. In seconds judging an individual with their photos and brief write up then making all these assumptions.

I hated it when I mistakenly liked or even super liked somebody I don’t even meant to be just because my silly thumb has a mind of its own to the right direction. I swiped left too soon and missed the possibility of I might like that man. I wonder if I am going to find a really honest gentleman. I laugh when I found a match only after a few minutes one of us would decide we are not a match after all ouch quick rejection!

It feels like so much work to be part of it so I have to challenge myself and find another way to meet good men. I have to sign up for activities where I will actually interact with men.

[1: 1,884 of 10,000] You Can’t Save Everybody

In Journal on June 6, 2017 at 10:14 PM

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Is it really preposterous to believe we can’t save everybody?

I believe everybody is unique hence every single one has different needs and yet don’t we really all want the same thing? Is there one ultimate destination that we wanted? Do we really want LOVE but we have various ways of rediscovering and reliving it? Is it important that we are one; or are we good as we are even with our flaws that could propel us to our greatness?

What is greatness? Is it finding the peace amidst the percepted chaos? Why do we get lost? Why do we succumb to evil or maltreatment? Why don’t we immediately feel conscientious as our compass to kindness?

Why do we doubt our essence that we are perfect, whole, and complete? Why did we forget that we are incredibly perfect, loved, and capable to love?

Does anybody really need saving? Maybe not saving, but we need reminders of who we truly are within so we can unlearn the things that clouded the real us. One a time, let us remind one another, and one at a time we do what’s loving (1 Corinthians 13:4-7).

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[1: 1,881 of 10,000] Breathe

In Journal on May 26, 2017 at 6:44 PM

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I read from a book that a deep meditation can bring someone to a trance, looking like he had fallen asleep then waking up feeling better. I want to experience that.

I want to feel complete surrender of the present, battle the demon in my mind, and then I open my eyes with enough courage to face reality with ease. Then I go again.

I couldn’t seat still because I am anxious about the future and the long list of things to do. The future that holds dreams like a prisoner and as I approach it get released little by little. I have to come to accept that the future holds no power, I must recognize that I live my reality now, a piece of the puzzle of my dreams.

Breathing is the sign of life. If it’s the sign of life, it matters what we breathe in, as it also matters what we breathe out. Breathe in the things that I am capable to control. Breathe out the things that are out of my control. Breathe in blessings and breathe out forgiveness. Breathe in love and breathe out love.

Breathe in… breathe out.

[1: 1,880 of 10,000] Learning Heartache

In Journal on May 25, 2017 at 1:36 PM

I don’t know if I have properly love somebody but I could certainly agree that I have obsessed with various men hoping that they love me back. Do they call that unrequited love? Or am I so cray cray that they ran as far and fast that they could?

In my search for true love, I go back to the Bible’s definition of it, I still believe it is the most legit to consult for the purest meaning of anything in life, didn’t they even put HOLY to emphasize the divinity of it? 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 is my go to definition.

What I learned though, at the very moment that I am in love (or obsessed) with someone, my mind constantly associate him in almost anything that I come across. It could be another movie star, a thing, and yet everything that reminds me of him totally vanished its power the moment I am over him.

I always thought I will never see Chris Pratt or Michael Fassbender the same way again because their lips remind me of somebody I thought I love; but now that I see these two movie stars, I couldn’t even remember his face clearly as I used to. I just laugh now whenever I remember the days that I was crying over him and getting jealous without even having the right position to do so. It’s messed up and I am relieved that I am over it.

To those who suffer with lost love, it’ll pass. You will heal and I say that without bitterness.

[1: 1,870 of 10,000] There Is No Such Thing As Wasted Love

In Journal on March 11, 2017 at 10:36 AM

I shouldn’t fool myself, there is no such thing as WASTED LOVE. If it is true love, it grows root and it multiplies.

It isn’t love when I expect something in return. It is love when I give without hesitation but comes from a pure heart. What is a pure heart? I believe that I am made of love, and everything that I do that is genuine must be a continuity of love. I do not to have harmful intentions towards myself or others.

I do acknowledge that I needed help to keep the love flowing by connecting with the source, and that source is God.