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[1: 1,849 of 10,000] Bring In Pain

In Journal on January 5, 2017 at 11:50 PM

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Life is teaching me right now about appreciating PAIN.

I struggle for disappointment.

I needed pain to propel my growth.

It is not easy but it is true.

[1: 1,807 of 10,000] Controlling The Past Thoughts

In Journal on November 18, 2016 at 11:27 PM

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It is terrible that I am letting my past comes rushing through my daily thoughts and even paralysing me. I am a fraud that I no longer live with integrity but my anxiety and laziness win. I am afraid and I need to pull out hope and be strong to live a beautiful and successful life.

I am drunk of claiming glory and it weakens me when I don’t know how to achieve it. My heart is in it but my compass doesn’t follow.

I thank God for the words that I am able to compose together, because through it, I see the glimpse of holiness and love. Thank you that I am not totally left alone in the dark without seeing the brightest stars. It is not over…

[1: 1,713 of 10,000] Pain Goes Away

In Article on June 5, 2016 at 9:30 AM

Are you hurting right now? The pain will go away but before it does, find the gem it brings. It may be trivial like teaching you to forgive, okay that’s a little big, or make you love yourself more, ooppss that’s pretty big as well; the thing is pain brings big lesson that is worth all the sleepless nights, the excruciating agony that seemed no end, and then when you’ve reached rock bottom you’ll realise that there is no other way but to rise up.

Check where your focus is. I don’t know if it is my talent that I am capable of forgetting the painful details, it’s like having an amnesia, it’s not really about trying to hide away and not facing reality, but I have help ignoring the ugly and focus on what’s good out of it. There is always good, you don’t need to trust me, but for the sake of your healthy life, believe it.

If you start surrounding yourself with great things, the bad starts fading away. There was this man that I adore not because he’s perfect but there is so much about him that I associate myself. I knew that he was meant to be part of my life until the expiry of our relationship needs to end. The best way to completely end the connection is to burn the bridges, I didn’t regret how it played because it was the best way. I thought we need each other, I thought I need to help him, and now I still remember him but the ardent desire to be part in each other’s life is not there anymore. I could only pray that he’s truly happy wherever he is right now. I am very happy. I always bounce back and chirpy glad that I am alive.

I could always feel when someone is in pain and I question why do I need to feel it. I feel like I have to do something about it but when I am too close, I get burnt way too easily… so in ways I can, slowly finding another medium to help, to share like to write about it. When I am in pain, I take a rest as simple as getting a good sleep, be kind to myself and to selected people that I can reach, and then I do the work to love what I do whatever it is like working to survive or cleaning the house or doing the dishes, finally I am grateful for the blessings like I breathe maybe not very easily but getting there.

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[1: 1,673 of 10,000] Our Pain Reveals A Lot About Our Path

In Journal on January 4, 2016 at 8:07 AM

Pain

Being in pain is a state that I don’t want to be, I deliberately try to avoid it, resolve issues to not feel it, or the worse that I can do is to try hiding and running away from it like it never happened. And yet, when I examine my pain, I learn a lot about myself, the people surrounding me, and the path that I am about to take.

My pain reveals a calling that I got to embark if I allow it to be. My life’s circumstance, feelings, and beliefs are different from everybody else; which makes my experience unique and revealing of a new path for all others to hopefully learn from. Whenever I dare, I don’t just do it for myself, but pain is scary, making me froze, and sometimes losing the will to live.

It is demanded that I have to stay strong, find solace in God’s arm, and move forward with glimpse of hope, the surge for enthusiasm, and the will to tell my story because my pain reveals a lot about my path of encouraging somebody else other than myself, to bring light where darkness seems to be there is, and the circle of experience gets completed.

 

[1: 1,630 of 10,000] Life’s Pain Is Normal

In Journal on October 24, 2015 at 11:34 PM

Experience

It gives me comfort that life’s pain is normal. It is through hardship that I challenge myself to do better. It is those crucial agony that I get to be stronger to face my next challenge. It is the victory that I am not giving up and overcoming this that delights me to keep living life with a smile.

I am typing at my kitchen marble table right now and I could see the lights of the city, it’s beautiful. My neighborhood is quiet, the construction site finally decided not to work so no hammering, no noisy trucks that makes that repeated sound when backing, and I could totally hear my own breathing. At this moment where I could enjoy the simplicity of just being and not thinking about the worries of life that I feel immensely grateful. I feel so lucky, cared, and loved.

[1: 1,581 of 10,000] Soldiers

In Article on September 6, 2015 at 9:56 AM

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In the belief of fighting injustice and protecting a freedom, soldiers are brave to risk their lives. I pray for the enlightenment of people especially those who couldn’t see that tyranny is an act of the ego.

It is true that we shall have a short life on earth, but I wonder why some of us choose to live it in fear, in agony, and without giving love a chance to speak and live. Why have we built our wall so high to not see that we all are brothers and sisters and we can collaborate and help one another?

Succeed but not on the expense of someone’s sufferings.

Thrive but not on the thought that you are not deserving of rest.

Live, truly live in the present because it is all we have.

We have to uncover our eyes about the false reality that we are separate from one another. We are one. Are we waiting for a world catastrophe to recognise that we are to build up one another instead of pinning each other down?

Mercy. Forgiveness.

We can end a war, confusion, and sufferings if we could gather the courage to apologise and ask for help and if we could accept and give mercy. Causing pain on someone doesn’t only give somebody bruises but we could cut our own self for participating.

May we seek pain that helps us breakthrough, a suffering that would shift our perception into goodness, and may we not wait for later but NOW to breathe with love.

May we all find our power to love.

[1: 1,491 of 10,000] The Madness of Unconsciousness

In Aphorism, Article on June 8, 2015 at 12:51 PM

The world spins in madness unless a man chooses to live in consciousness. -Yor Ryeter

Madness

I have done something I do not regret. I don’t know where the courage came from to have done it but I relied that it was the right thing to do though painful. It has two faces, telling the truth yet breaking a trust. I was convinced that I was helping to relieved an agony of the unknown to be able to cure a wound that has been deliberately neglected because of fear.

The man who committed a mistake and who I broke his trust hated me. The woman I freed from her incessant longing for truth betrayed me. Now I wonder what does this teach me when the man who hated me threat to harm me for my decision.

I learn that accusations especially when false should not affect me. It was the first time that I have understood that what a person judged others could actually be a true reflection of his own. I am being condemned and yet instead of fighting back and devising a way to get back, I surrender on my knees that he realises what’s worth fighting for.

I meddled because no honest man deserves to be treated with disrespect when there might possibly be a way to cease the piling lies. And yet a man who is jealous and in pain could still betray a friend; but is it a waste if the value of honesty was upholded?

I am sorry if I have started havoc but I am not apologetic for being truthful to the right person who needs answer. I told friends and family of my challenge and they advised that I stay away from these people, and I understand their concern, but I know in my heart that I wish them peace, courage, kindness, and may the true love within them outweigh the challenges that they face so not to succumb to being fearful, deceitful, and mad as an immediate action.

[1: 1,370 of 10,000] Why We Dwell On Our Misery?

In Journal on November 28, 2014 at 8:10 AM

Blame the EGO and ourselves.

obsessionI am emotionally in pain, heartbroken and I continue to struggle to make things harder. I am blocking my own future happiness by reliving the things that pound my heart but I know I am recovering. My mind believed that when I continue to feel the pain, I feel alive, dramatic, and yet it stops me to move to the happiest place.

My EGO covers my beautiful imagination and locked me to moments that made me destructive, unforgiving, angry, and pathetic. I could fight this back my recognising it and be present, smile, and ask am I okay right now? I am not stuck in a stone with crushed hand bones am I for 127 hours? I am okay right now, this moment, typing a blog, smiling, listening to music, and then I remembered his sweet voice, remembers his gorge face, lying gentle smile, and all the flirting; and back to square one.

January 30, 2015 – My freedom day. The day I shall never have to talk to him ever again. The day that I should forget all the passwords so I wouldn’t need to see him anymore. But before then, I got to focus on what would make me happy without thinking of him all the time.

 

[1: 1,363 of 10,000] I Got Nothing To Say

In Poem on October 31, 2014 at 5:46 AM

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I usually have so much to say.

They may be rushed but insightful. Honest. Ruthless.

Am I still mourning with my realisations?

Or my heart’s silence is learning and living how to be calm.

To contemplate?

Or just sad.

I can grieve. For a while. No, properly.

Feel something painful and then let go.

Then my journey starts again.

This time more sure of the things I will ignore.

More focused on the things I shall look forward to.

Determined to what is important for my being.

My health. My spirit.

[1: 1,302 of 10,000] Behaving Correctly

In Journal on February 14, 2014 at 1:37 AM

I surpassed Valentine without greeting him unlike last year wherein I didn’t let the day passed without blowing love towards him. He just married yesterday (surprisingly with sadness, teary eyes after the ceremony, and is that hesitation) so I think I still remember my promise, I have behaved correctly. I did not confide with my tequila afterwards, I have behaved correctly. Best Friends I just have to work on my respect towards him. I couldn’t be annoyed when the love is gone can’t I. He is an erratic negative person who forgot to calm down when pressure strikes so now that I no longer fancy him I am challenged to care for him… to extend my patience and be emphatic. How can I be compassionate when I fear to fall in love all over again? I do have a fighting facade but when I dig in my heart, I just have a heart that melts for every drop of kindness, sweetness, and loving persuasion to get pulled into his gravity.