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[1: 1,660 of 10,000] The Sense Of Every Thing Is Temporary

In Article on November 23, 2015 at 5:58 AM

It does feel new that I could grasp the concept that every thing in this world is temporary. I don’t need to hold on because I knew in my gut that it has an end, even I will cease to exist to most likely without warning. With this realisation, I get to live more to what is present, I still worry as my intellect come up with new possibilities of bad scenarios that might happen in the future and tapping conveniently on my fears but still nevertheless I know in my inner self that it doesn’t matter.

The pain I havoc on to myself and to others are nothing but a pigment of my imagination and self-sabotage unless I find the common ground of giving my best at hand. Without the slightest hint of indecency and dishonesty, if I am giving the love I got right now, those are what counts. I get bugged down for expecting something better from others and those where the times that more so that I let go because I could not always control matters on to my own hands.

I couldn’t see the future but I hold on to the belief that I am okay right now and I am able to speak to someone bigger than any thing, any human, and any impossibility. It doesn’t feel like a lunacy that I could feel that I will never be alone and unloved, and it’s a comfort to keep moving, keep growing gradually, and never giving up on beauty, hope, dream, peace, and love.

[1: 1,546 of 10,000] Born Too Late

In Article on August 2, 2015 at 11:42 AM

I was browsing Pinterest today and I saw this comic strip about a woman who was contemplating that she was born in the wrong era –

Comic Inspired

It is true that the perception of people change, the world’s circumstance change. If I am expanding more than just the body image judgment, I am grateful that right now I am not in a country with bomb dropping from the sky that would make me curl up inside my home, scared, and covering my ears.

Our judgment on others is usually the reflection of our own fears. How can we find pleasure to mock someone for something they are that we couldn’t possibly understand their inner struggle? Why do we need to be cruel on others as to ourselves? I am guilty of throwing my own judgment but now I am more concerned about what am I judging on my own self for such a merciless attack.

As a lesson learned from Eckhart Tolle on Awakening, I should not fight back to people who judge and attack me. Not really because I am also guilty but I shall remain present that what has happened in the past is past and what’s important is right now. I am grateful that right now, I forgive myself and I show more compassion to others that they are not aware of their actions and they couldn’t control to give in to their egos who feed on negativity. If I remain peaceful, my presence could radiate a good energy that may possibly awaken them if not maybe in due time.

Live right now. May we have the courage to make a world of encouragement for the better, for the best; and not be a coward to give in to the ego.

[1: 1,498 of 10,000] Don’t Surrender To The Scared Voice Inside

In Article on June 15, 2015 at 12:01 AM

Edge

The scared voice inside may suggests the following:

  • It’s better to die, so I don’t need to deal with all these problems.
  • I hope he dies so he wouldn’t harm anyone.
  • My life is so boring and I’m a loser.
  • I have no luck in the world.
  • It’s wrong but it’s fun, so it’s must be all right to keep doing it.

S T O P

Those are the negative thinking that should be reigned and properly addressed. They all hide the real problems.

I have the habit of a control freak and demanding explanations of every single thing. It bothers me a lot when someone is hurting and something has to be done. I often react in haste and harsh, which then depicts my ultimate purpose of peace and love. There are just certain role that it is not ours to perform like judging and punishing.

Life is full of wonders that we are too stubborn to see because we listen to the scared voice inside our head that loop repeated negative movies. Let us practise to fill our head with new beautiful things so we can start doing magnificent things and be more forgiving to ourselves and others.

Breathe. Don’t identify with the voice inside your head that it’s who you are.

Breathe. Focus your mind to righteous beauties or pick one, think of PEACE, picture your happiest memory that brings tranquility to your bothered heart, stay there.

Breathe. Right now is the most important, not the past, not the future, NOW.

Instead of the scared voices, have courage:

  • I don’t get to live forever so today I may try a new way to live with gusto.
  • I pray that he finds the love within him and share it with everyone.
  • I am breathing, I must have a purpose for still being here.
  • I am alive, I am not going to stop hustling.
  • Be nice, be kind, and be generous, because it makes a wonderful feeling.

[1: 1,490 of 10,000] Thank You For The Peace In Me

In Article on June 7, 2015 at 10:19 AM

Tranquil

Thank you for the peace in me. I am mesmerised and I embrace the silence and the steady grounded heartbeats. If I could only box this peace and offer it to someone else, I would.

If only people see the content of my heart that I long for everyone’s truest happiness then they would be free. I bend my knees to God to let Him enters into us and makes wonders. I humbly ask that He brings out the loving being within us, the loving that has never left but has patiently awaits.

Be in the moment, think of only the good things, and leave the judgment to God.

[1: 1,485 of 10,000] Birthday Present

In Article on June 2, 2015 at 12:10 PM

I like doing things for the first time because it means I am exploring a new way. Since it felt like I have nothing significant to offer in this world except living peacefully on my own with full of gratefulness for all the blessings and on top of that I am celebrating my 35th birthday, I thought of a way to give a piece of me to give thanks for this healthy life.

Dubai accepts blood “donation” and I don’t see Dubai accepting blood for payment. I thought that’s really a beautiful gesture for people in Dubai to donate blood for someone’s need and yes it’s one of those that it is actually healthy for me to give too, that’s like exponential goodness.

It’s my birthday, I’ve eaten cake for breakfast (timed it at 8:00 AM end of food so I can donate blood by 12:00 PM without disrupting the rule), I’m nervous about the process of getting close to a needle (this is the first ever donation in my entire life), and so by the time I reached the blood pressure test, the machine was alarming of my overly fast heartbeat and high blood pressure. I was laughing of the incident and told myself I didn’t come all the way here just to screw this up so I calm the hyper in me, inhale and exhale repeatedly, stopped talking, and it worked. I was too happy!

The pricking was more painful that the actual blood extraction. It went smoothly, I drank cold mango juices. I noticed that my blood wasn’t bright red, it’s more like burgundy, and the expert asked if I was smoking and told him no (does second hand smoker applies?) and then he asked if I normally drink lots of water and actually no but for the sake of the blood donation I tried to drink more than usual, eat healthier food, and slept properly. The hardest part was actually squeezing a stress ball during the actual process, it’s tiring but it has to be done so I suck it up and comply. The centre needs to test my blood before it will be given to somebody else. I hope it’s a good 450 ml happy blood so it may help to make one to three people happier. I have another agenda for going through it, I wanted to confirm my blood type and to make sure that I am more into helping than my ulterior motive, I have to donate more from this point onwards.

Seeing all the other people who were there to donate, given their time to be there, were admirable. I have high respect for them for showing up and just giving. Once upon a time, UAE has helped my mother so much, and the only way I also know how to repay the kindness bestowed upon our family is to give back.

I was able to drive after donating. I went for lunch right after. Dubai’s weather is getting too hot nowadays that at some point after lunch on the way to my apartment, I felt like losing oxygen and so I cooled off as soon as I reached home with a nice air-conditioned room; and drink cold lemon iced tea. Because of the donation, I couldn’t drink anything with alcohol that night, so I stayed sober and enjoyed lots of dinner instead at a fancy restaurant.

Blood Donation

If you’re in Dubai and would like to donate, click here for more information. It’s advisable to just go to the centre and make sure to allot one hour for the whole process from signing up forms up to completing the donation. They are open from Sunday to Thursday, 8:00 AM to 5:00 PM.

[1: 1,449 of 10,000] How I Am Battling My Destructive Repetitive Thoughts?

In Article on April 27, 2015 at 10:33 AM

heike weber A healthy mind should not have a repetitive destructive thoughts. Having a negative thought affect my concentration that I become unproductive and even end up feeling down. We all have our own battle and for me my weakness is I am restless and I crave for new adventure, an exploding feeling, new beautiful taste of life – all the time. I have down time like right now and it’s a little frustrating that it’s too slow but I know it’s meaningful, necessary, and a beginning of an amazing launch. I kept craving for the kick of inspiration and creation that I get baffled into inaction if I didn’t get a particular high (just to be clear, I don’t do prohibited drugs, never tried, and probably never will 😛 the “probably” is dangerous huh). Every once in a while, I have the mad desire to wait for a man’s call and to beg me to give him my devotion and the worst is to go looking for his personal photos just for the sake of checking what’s going on in his personal and professional life. I also inclined to go back to memories both sweet and bitter and they elicit all forms of emotions mostly negative ones that I shouldn’t be entertaining. Yesterday, I am starting to be at peace that it’s over, I am recovering, and keeping strong. I have accepted that there will no more communication and I am moving forward. I have forgiven myself and him for the painful memories that we have caused to one another. To keep me in perspective, here are the helpful actions that I am engaged:

  1. I love to read but I should stick to reading new materials or else I am just tracing the same loop of going back to something that has already been done. Be kind to myself and read new materials that would be a sure source of new ideas and inspiration.
  2. Mundane task that needs to be done like doing the laundry, making the call, sending the official email, were all small stuffs that don’t need to get pushed to another day if it’s possible to be done now. The mini milestone of accomplishing an errand is so rewarding and it frees a good space in the head, NO actually it’s a good excuse to not think of negative thoughts.
  3. What is my worry? I need to get a job. Apply for jobs. It is that simple. It is scary trusting a new company again but forget about “scary” and just present myself, take it or leave it, but if you take it, you’re in for a serious employee kicking ass as a soon-to-be main player in your company’s progress. I am a bonafide passionate that consider more than myself, just don’t lie to me.
  4. Create! I am disciplining myself that I have to blog everyday, not to come up with a reserved blog for tomorrow but blog what is burning inside me right now, today. I also need to commit in finishing the first eBook that I have started, it sounds awkward right now, I don’t know why, is it my angst or am I just critical? I just have to write like I write every blog post that gives me that contentment with one approving nod. I also cook different dishes and punish my sissy to eat half of it. 😀
  5. Connect and go out. I love the moments of laughters with other people. I love going to the beach in the weekend. I like going to petrol station and have my car washed once a week. I simply like the outdoor where I get to breathe fresh air. Air conditioned apartment is all good but my lungs request for freshness and confining myself for a whole week makes me mad! Not angry, CRAZY!

[1: 1,442 of 10,000] Trust Instead Of Worry

In Journal on April 20, 2015 at 4:50 PM

flying woman

I’m psyching myself to TRUST the good and everything will be all right instead of worrying. But TRUST isn’t the last thing I have to keep in mind, I have to do something now to not worry. If I’m planning to sleep the whole day again without making anything beneficial that would change my status; then I could go ahead and worry my whole life.

I finally understood why I started to become stagnant, I was too busy focusing on where I got hurt instead of focusing that if I keep doing the good thing, no matter what my own fear is insisting, I will arrive to my destination sooner, well better than the current sleazy couch potato. I am not lazy but simply not motivated enough. Although not entirely hard on myself, I have been having strange sleeping patterns, so whenever I get the chance that sleep calls on me, I give in, I do know that there were so many nights that I need to catch up!

I got up this morning, rested from a good night sleep, and I am telling myself, if I wanted to be miserable, I could kill myself now. Funny thing is I know I don’t know when will I die, I certainly find the lunacy or even the cowardice to kill myself… I just know that every time I go to bed at night, I will wake up the following day and I do hope that I get to live and I choose to kick-ass.

I no longer want to go to bed thinking I have regrets, that I have not fully lived my life and I came short. I will not let my sorry-ass rule my mind and control my soul to oblivion. It’s a new Monday morning, it’s a marvellous day to shake things up! Not to dwell on the pass, but living now!

Words are easier to type but if you could hear my heart that is about to burst into sobs again, you’ll find it sad. I know that I no longer have time for sad, I do however should entertain challenge. I let myself cry but after awhile I get sick of my crying self and I must eventually surrender to a glass of water, calming myself, forgive myself and say it’s time to get those hands dirty.

[1: 1,433 of 10,000] Love Letter For My Future Husband

In Letter on April 9, 2015 at 8:54 AM

Letter

My Charming Prince,

To live is to be grateful of NOW and right now I say “I love you” with all my heart exploding with so much love.

I picked a song for my feelings about you, fresh feeling, where everything is easy and I couldn’t imagine how can this be so magical. You hold my hands and we are both at peace, and just those loving stares we don’t need to speak. I love how you smell, like the fresh morning dew and I love kissing you!

You cast all my fears, I am grateful of now, because I am with you. So, you were the gentleman I have saved my forever, my coveted loyalty for the truest lifetime commitment. You are worth it.

You will never break my heart, because every time I breathe your love, my heart multiplies. My love tank is overflowing I got so much to save me for those days that we might need to adjust, to find the right voice, to touch one another in certain ways, but the respect will always be there.

Thank you that we can be naked and still love all our own wounds. Thank you that we are taking a leap of faith that there is no other way to live but with everything about us joint. We would even love our life with our children, who will have our love instilled in them, making them such beautiful human beings. Sex became even more rewarding for producing beautiful offsprings.

You know that I love words. You know that I love reassurance. You know that I love actions. You know that I love you and I will live every single day reassuring you too because I am in you and you are in me.

xoxo