[1: 1,896 of 10,000] This Moment

This moment is the most important
The moment that I catch myself breathing
Letting the air in
Letting my air out

What goes on in my head is not necessarily the truth
What I feel do not represent my conviction
What I have and don’t have do not represent me
Who I am is pure

 

 

[1: 1,828 of 10,000] Don’t Be Scared

Don’t be scared of the future
Don’t worry about the unknown
Look instead to what’s in front of you

Do great job
Add it to your daily grind
The reward will come

Love yourself
Breathe
Relax

[1: 1,701 of 10,000] Rest

I was losing my sanity. I was tired, angry, filling my head with constant negativity, and at the brink of quitting my job without any assurance of what would feed me tomorrow. I was begging to die (this is a whole other vantage point).

Always trying to live at the extreme and at the edge of the cliff. I always know I am provided but not without suffering, test of endurance, and it exhausting especially when I couldn’t find my centre. My body is so smart that when I had enough, it will break, it will yell an illness, so for a day, I surrendered.

I take a sick leave from work for a day because headache was excruciatingly trying to crack my head open.

It was not a pleasant experience. It was a struggle to put my effort on sleep almost the whole day. I watched a comedy special to laugh until I cry. I cooked a simple food to feed my body. I never worried about work.

The next day, I was cheerful, I was thinking positively, and there was no amount of bad news that let me down.

So if you’re feeling overwhelmed, rest if you must and you really should. 🙂

[1: 1,604 of 10,000] Go Back To The Calm

I have minor panic attacks or can be simply qualify as a human worrier. It is human to worry and slip every once in a while to think of incidents that never happened and yet scare me when it actually do. My solution is to go back to the calm.

I may have said it a milion times here, in Quora, or even to my friends but going to a relaxed mental state helps.

Breathing and watching it when you do it is a start. Be conscious while you breathe in and out and then let go of everything that is worrying me. Relax by shaking my shoulders and continue to breathe in and out slowly, not hurrying. Smiling helps too knowing that right now I could find peace and forget everything that is bothering me. If a nagging voice arises, smile even more, and then tell it to stay quiet.

How do you calm down?

[1: 1,533 of 10,000] My Heart Smiles Everyday

I am so happy and frankly I am not surprised but I am SO GRATEFUL!

Even sad songs don’t make me cringe and go to my pity trip.

I don’t forget that God is blessing me right now with lots of love and peace.

I will continue to appreciate the beautiful, stay RELAX, and keep creating.

The good things right now might not be constant because something better would come.

Right now, while they are all here, I am appreciative.

Be grateful everyday and enjoy the day! One at a time.

If I don’t have to enjoy it tomorrow, tomorrow will worry itself. Bleh.

Wouldn’t it be awesome that everyday you get to do something amazing, nothing major but filled with love and authenticity so it’s amazing!

[1: 1,177 of 10,000] Lazy Day

Finally a rest day to be lazy. I don’t like to think of work and responsibility. I just like to spend time with my little sissy and we’ve done sleeping, watching, and eating!

If only it’s possible to be in this state forever but I would probably get bored.

I should find ways to make money works for me and enough shopping!!! I am actually quite pleased with my recent purchases that stopped me for craving new things. I am happy with a new diamond ring, a MacBook Air, a Mulberry Pink Bag, new clothes and shoes, and new Tory Burch wallet. Those were necessities and I am quite done.

I just have to get myself the Microsoft Office for Mac by end of the month, a new iPhone before leaving UAE. Buy sissy a new Prada Wallet, customized MacBook Pro, a diamond ring for my Panda sissy, and shopping for materials things should be over.

Next plan is publish the long awaited book, go to Australia, buy a lot and build a house, and finally start our family business. That is quite a plan for a lazy day. 🙂

[1: 924 of 10,000] It’s A Good Day To Sail

[1: 903 of 10,000] I Don’t Want Friday To End Too Soon!!!

I don’t want Friday to end too soon because it’s my kick-off for weekend.

I enjoyed this Friday because I spent time with my sissies while pushing work aside.

Slept at around 2ish and got up at 10ish.

Fixed my little garden, do some filing for home and addressed the piling laundry. I certainly miss summer to have our clothes dry sooner but I just have to wait until it is its time so for now I just got to manage the 7-year old high pile.

We dine a delicious Shrimp Sinigang for brunch, we watched movies, and we go for Sauna within our building apartment. We tried the the Dead Sea (Jordan) salt scrub and it was nice, it wasn’t very dry and got enough amount of oil. Accidentally I’ve tasted it too and it was pretty deliciously salty.

I feel way better now, not that much tired is good and a blessing. 🙂