In Journal on December 26, 2016 at 10:55 PM
New romance brings all the crazy thumping of sensations that makes you tingle all at the right special places.
I am courting life that I find my crazy new romance that drive me faster and stronger when I want to give up; and light up my zen aura when I’ve just given my all.
It would be great too to finally have the perfect romantic experience in 2017!
In Journal on June 23, 2016 at 11:54 PM
I belong to a family of romantics and whores.
My family seemed to have a wrong definition of love that we didn’t care the existence of children out of wedlock, having romantic entanglement to a married men, and keeping two homes with two separate sets of affairs with one common denominator.
It is played like a game that my young self got scared that I will follow suit. I eventually felt the pain of the multiple deceits, hearts got broken and trust was difficult to repair but possible.
I honour my ancestors for the good that they did and I learn from their mistake just the same.
In Poem on January 30, 2016 at 6:14 PM
I met a man with a name I adore
As a writer I’ve used and fancied it
He turns out to be all right
But will my rules get in the way of love?
Do you see me turned a lil pink when you stared?
You’re better than what you’ve shared
To know you deeper and see you again
Just for awhile I fantasize the possibility
Of you and me having fun
In a another dinner or in a date
Laughing and maybe kiss at the end of the night
In List on November 5, 2015 at 11:59 PM
A seed is being planted within me that I am starting to explore that I could try having a boo (someone to love and loves me just the same). I contemplate how would I call him, I am avoiding the babe, honey, and sweetheart; so I am settling with boo. Isn’t it funny, I thought of the endearment call before I even know his name. 😛
What is my criteria again? Or having known things, what is my criteria now?
- A successful entrepreneur or artist but not just a company employee who depends his income from a monthly salary. I am in the same boat, pay cheque to pay cheque, but I am going to change that to match him. I want somebody who is successful because it means he’s decisive, has aspirations, and determined to get it.
- Loyal. I know in my heart that I am going to be a faithful partner so I hope to attract someone committed to a monogamous relationship. He must be single, hopefully never married, and definitely not married who is eligible to marry 4 wives.
- Smart or man of many talents and skills. It must be given if he’s a successful entrepreneur or a genius artist! 😉 It is fascinating to see someone explode with brilliance and makes me drawn to adore it. This also means he’ll be creative in coming up of surprises for our anniversary, ha ha. 😀
- He recognises God as the center of our lives and the source of our love. This way, if we get married, we’ll be raising our children in the same track. With this, I hope he’s respectful, kind, generous, and can emphatise.
- Must be neat, takes a bath and changes his clothes everyday. I am not looking for queer although they looked amazingly handsome and proper. It’s nice to have someone who can dress up or down, smiles truly, and smells wonderful. It would not be too much to ask that he’s organise with his stuffs too.
There you go. My boo list. 🙂
In Article on October 15, 2015 at 7:36 AM
My mother was right that I should stay away from a man who I don’t want to fall in love with. I’ve been doing that all my life, I kept running away and disassociating myself from people who I know in my heart that I don’t want to be ending up with.
I was obsessing for a wrong man awhile back, I am fascinated about his strong suits and weaknesses. I am not even the woman who thinks I can change him, I know I wouldn’t and I don’t care that I should because he’s not the man who I want to marry; and yet I couldn’t stop fantasising about him. Then the bond got broken in an instant, and I no longer see him nor talk to him, it’s been 4 months since his last SMS to me with “Damn you!” At that instant, I said to myself that the end has been reached. If you’re curious, I’ve deleted the message, it no longer have a space in my life. I don’t need negativity lurking around.
It was a painful end but it has to be that way to simply cut the relationship that is not fruitful for everyone involved. I am at peace, and everything that I thought was connected to him a few months back are simply fading away naturally. It is freeing to let go of things that is too heavy to carry around.
Right now, I am starting all over with my relationship and I am making sure I don’t fall in my own trap again. Don’t cross the line that I will later amend. Focus on the good stuffs like creating beautiful things out of my talents. Make a change in the world by starting with a good intention. Then as Elizabeth Gilbert famously share with everyone, onward.
I am intentionally learning to fall in love with myself. I care for it like no one else will, well except God who can’t be matched by any man. I shall care for myself until I could recognise the man who sees my inner and outer beauty; but until then I am enjoying myself. No pressure there.
In Journal on July 18, 2015 at 4:32 PM
I love romance but I never have the guts to commit or I thought eveyone who ever courted me were never good enough. I set a standard, I am not sure if they were ridiculous, are they?
It’s funny that everyone I come across who shows interest or in case I fancy somebody, it opens my immediate travel the future in a blast… I’m not sure if I’m alone with this, ladies??
- His family name is “something,” will it sounds good with Yor Ryeter Something?
- If I really like him, fast forward I take on his name, and try to connect it with my signature. Scribble scribble!!
- Is he the man that I envision myself to marry?
- If we’re old, is he the man I imagine by my side?
- How will our wedding looks like?
- Will my sisters like him?
There is this one man who asked to be my friend in a certain social media. He is very upfront to say he finds me attractive. In a few chat exchange, I kind of find so much about him, and it is extremely weird. He’s good looking and looked like a good man but I didn’t tell him that, I don’t want to encourage him, especially if later on he would turn up as a psychopath or he discovered that I am one! 😛 Well, he’s living in a different country, it feels nice to have someone to chat with, but we’ll see where this leads.
It crossed my mind, items 1, 3, 4 (he’s 14 years my senior, will I take that road?), and 6. It also crossed my mind to be careful that I really don’t know him and it is ridiculous to be thinking of marrying him even he suggested he’s on the look for a wife. He’s scaring me.
In Journal on June 25, 2015 at 10:14 PM
I got fascinated with this very arrogant but smart man and he happened to sort of like me. The beginning was exciting and it ended badly. Eight years later, I chatted with him and I couldn’t feel any spark. It was as if I never once got crazy for his attention.
It is really a good news because now I am sure that whatever is bothering me right now will not mean anything at all after eight years. It is comforting that the wrong people will never have a space in my life if I stop dwelling on it.
I am extremely excited for what’s going on right now. It’s the next big thing and I give God all the credit and the glory for His truest grace and unconditional love. I am co-creating! Way too cool!! 🙂
Every once in a while I think about the relationship that needs to end badly, why does it need to end badly, but it does have a great explanation. I sincerely pray that everyone who is involved will be filled with love and peace and though we will never spoke of it with one another, that we do forgive one another.
In Article on June 19, 2015 at 2:03 PM
The look in your eyes with longing make every inch of my excitement come alive.
Mutter your endearment in my ear and tickle my imagination endlessly.
Hold me forever even if it feels like I can’t breathe for when we’re one I live in another plane of exhiliration.
Kiss me and let our soft lips speak a language with a different sound.
Your murmurs bring magic to the lady in me.
Run those fingers across my body that light up my skin in vibrance.
You fill me with life and romance.
I will not beg.
But stay and you’ll understand heaven on earth.
In Letter on June 18, 2015 at 11:40 PM
My Dearest T,
You felt that I am in love with you and I find no reason to admit it because I was not supposed to be drawn to you. I could not understand why did I fall for you, intoxicated with your lust, or is it the virgin in me that needed to belong and craved your possessiveness.
Why did you cheat on your wife? Why do you think it was all right to hurt another heart that adores you? Why do you think I would not give your wife the courtesy to tell the truth about your betrayal after you said you have changed? Yes I was jealous, hurt, but more than my own feeling I want women to be respected and loved without disloyalty.
You accused me of breaking your marriage, oh if you could only read my heart that I was moving far away so I may pray that your relationship flourishes. You were upset that I open wounds, but how can you heal a wound you kept running away from instead of curing it. I am sorry I pried to open a secret you’ve been hiding.
You have cursed me, demanded that I should be ashamed, questioned my values, mocked what honor do I bring to my dead parents, sworn you don’t want to see or hear from me, and never will you forgive me. I leave you the space that was yours, and I will wish that one day when the anger diminishes, you’ll remember I have always valued to be truthful and there is no way I could lie to a woman who asked me to be her friend and give her honesty that you’ve deprived.
May the choices you’ve made was worth all the pain and pleasure. I never regret a single thing I did, not even the part that I have loved you, but maybe there were people we do meant to meet to bid good bye for good. I will never apologise nor will I ever attempt to speak and see you again, but when you’re ready to listen, I will tell you I am sorry I never trusted your judgment and believed that you’re capable of being honest and no need to say good bye because it never had started.
In Article on May 22, 2015 at 12:29 PM
I got you the best gift!
I love you.
And because I love you I will give you just what I think is perfect for you but probably will never be perfect enough as you.
You know the place where fantasy and dream collide, I’m giving just that.
Right before you end a smile, you start another one, with the explosion of surprises I’ve stored for you.
I’ll melt your heart just to make it expand even bigger than it already is.
We’ll laugh like kids all night, grateful for our life and the true love that we share.
The only tears I’ll let your eyes drop are out of joy.
In time when things are hard, I’ll be here, I’m not going anywhere, we’ll sort it together, and enjoy the challenge.
I love you.
As sweet as your favourite chocolate or even more.
As deep as the ocean or even more.
As far as the moon or even more.
I love you without hesitations, without limitations, without conditions.
BAE I love you.