Yor Ryeter

Posts Tagged ‘Strong’

[1: 2,056 of 10,000] We Need Safe Knit

In Journal on March 14, 2021 at 8:53 PM

I always pretend that I am strong, it’s very rare that I will tell anyone that I’m hurting because I have not met a person who I believe is strong enough to carry the burden that I keep so close in my heart. To trick everyone especially myself, I always say that I am capable to handle it alone because how could I survived this long after all those traumas.

I may have survived my traumas but it came with consequences. For a long time, I have closed my heart and never let anyone to hear my truth, making me carry pains that could have been divided, healed, and transmuted. It took me a lifetime to recognize but it’s never too late to admit that I have to fully forgive my stubbornness, my fears, and my pride. I am strong but I needed help. There’s no one stronger than me to face my battle because they were meant to be mine to conquer but I don’t need to face them alone.

Life on Earth is limited and it’s crazy how I have fallen to close off my world and only stick to what’s familiar. How I run away to not repeat the same mistake of getting hurt yet still bruising my chance to trust because each person and each circumstance comes with unique gift and different outcome depending on my attitude coming in.

What it all boils down? We need to start forging new and lasting friendships. We need connection with others because living alone is pretty lonely. May I finally find new friends that I can show up without editing myself because I am seen and heard anytime. That’s why I like blogging because I pretend that you’re my friend and I never edit myself.

Photo credit: Katarzyna Grabowska on Unsplash

[1: 1,574 of 10,000] How Am I Staying Strong From Temptations?

In Journal on August 30, 2015 at 12:38 PM

Apple

I look back months ago and the perseverance within me to stay far far away from temptations are way stronger. I am now at the point of working that even my subconscious will be resilient to behave the way I do when fully awake.

What have I been working on to conquer?

  1. To not listen to my childish ego who wanted to stir unnecessary drama.
  2. To let go of the past that have painful memories involving other people and not without fault from my end too.
  3. To be forgiving when someone makes a mistake whether intented or not.
  4. To not snap with bad attitude when my button of fear or arrogance was pushed.
  5. To be lazy and just dreaming that my problems will go away without me doing anything.
  6. To not engage into indecent thoughts and actions.
  7. To be forgiving and kind to myself and everyone when I couldn’t comprehend what’s happening.
  8. To stop uttering bad words or unkind judgment towards others and myself.
  9. To keep myself healthy, sane, and truly joyful instead of not seeing the value and beauty of my very existence.
  10. To continue in strengthening my relationship with God.

I struggle about the above and I am improving, changing and growing for the better daily. I got to say listening and reading God’s words helped. Going to him through prayers, thoughts, blogging, journaling, and in every possible way I can to sincerely reached him with my devotion helped.

When I was counting just by myself, I couldn’t change my heart and soul. There is always a very heavy and constant difficulty to surpass it. I was a yoyo who is strong in one minute and then give in just so easily the next. It was futile, I was helpless, and even at the point of being pathetic because I was just fooling myself.

To round up how do I overcome my temptations –

  1. I thank God for his everlasting love and I seek for the Holy Spirit’s constant guidance. I am able to do the below steps because I know that I have divine help.
  2. Knowing that God loves me with my mistakes and my human imperfections, I could no longer see why couldn’t I love my brothers and sisters who in my human lame judgment are not worthy of my time, energy, and respect. I still choose the people who I want to hang out with but not falling into the trap to incessantly reason out in my head why others are not part of that cut.
  3. I look away from scenes or pictures that I know would provoke me to start thinking an obsession until I even act on it again.
  4. Control myself to get up in 5 seconds if I feel like I am being lazy. Once I take the instant leap on my feet, I am going to move and I will not be restrained in my own head that it’s all right not to do anything and just be contented pitying myself.
  5. I observe the intense sensation when I just snapped. I will try to be very conscious and remember to pull out the loving part of me to react further. I am not being harsh on myself too feeling all sulked up and guilty, I say I am sorry and move forward with kindness for my mistake.
  6. I am learning that I always have a choice to change my mind and do what is right. There is always a way to make things right.
  7. I have to use my time to great activities to prosper me. It is advisable that I have to create things. It is even perfect that I use my time to share my talent that make someone’s life better.
  8. Whenever my mind starts to drift to bad thoughts, I blurt “ssshhh” outloud or in my mind to stop it immediately. Breathe. Think happy and good thoughts, and then smile for my beautiful life.

It is not easy but it is possible to change and be a better human being than I am yesterday. I am grateful that I have found peace and the love within me as I chiselled out the blocks that I have been building throughout the years. I love God, I love myself, and I love everybody because I see in them what God sees in me, perfectly beautiful who has a choice to enjoy life with a great right path.

[1: 1,418 of 10,000] Smile Within

In Poem on March 19, 2015 at 11:20 PM

Keep those fears away

And let love live

Yes cry and mourn

Though smile within

Walk with a beat

Unveil the good

Feel the present

Smile within

Happy-cute-baby-pictures

[1: 1,402 of 10,000] How To Forget?

In Journal on February 28, 2015 at 11:20 PM

I have fallen in love to a wrong man but finally I don’t have to speak to him by obligation and yet I missed him despite the fact that I am just torturing myself. It is not easy to forget someone I have chosen to love but I have to be strong and be passionate about someone else – ME.

I am finding my real dreams and I am pursuing them obsessively for March, that’s starting tomorrow. I shall be quite chill, happy, and will sweat to be living my dream. I shall be doing things with diligence, gentleness, and professionalism. I shall speak my mind, I shall not hesitate… because I will never live with regrets.

I shall find to stay still and listen to my heart beat and I will not stop consulting teachers who are wise to guide my path. I shall honour the value of what is right and accept that people are different and make imperfect decisions every once in a while.

It’s okay to say good bye so I can say hello to a life with the tears for all the right reasons. So how do I forget him? Not to run but to accept. Not to be afraid but to be open that not all people are meant to hunt and hurt me. To look for other people who would inspire me. To be in a state of what makes me joyful like reading good books, listening to my favourite musics, and blogging.

keep-calm-when-you-re-feeling-blue1

[1: 1,261 of 10,000] A Strong Man

In Article on January 4, 2014 at 10:09 PM

Strong-Man-Competition1

😉

I could fall in love with a strong man.

Literally, someone who can carry me effortlessly in a long winding stairs romantically.

A man who can stand with his words and got the courage to fight for what is certainly right.

He has muscles that doesn’t boast but used when absolutely needed.

A man whose strength defies all egos for being a gentleman.

Yep! Probably one of the qualities I am looking for a real man.