In Journal on July 26, 2014 at 11:57 PM
It’s been a long time since I had an appointment with a dentist to have my tooth filled. I was quite nervous interlocking my two hands. I was scared to feel any pain and anxious that my doctor won’t tell me, you don’t need your tooth filled but a root canal instead. My eyes were open, looking what the dentist got in her hands and being prepared on what sensation would I probably expect. The medicine somehow tasted the same and it is comforting it should be over soon.
Thankfully, it was just a quick procedure and I was up smiling again. My eyes were open 97% of the time and it made me reflect if is this how I also deal with my life? Do I face it head on or I lose my courage that I just froze? I hang on for the past that I couldn’t move forward? I shouldn’t hesitate to fix what is wrong. More than my tooth, my heart needs attention and to find out what would fill my longing to have the sense of purpose to still live.
In Journal on July 26, 2014 at 10:36 PM
Finally, the last installation for the home is done today!
The very quaint delicate white drapery hanging light was fixed in my happy liking.
I feel proud that I was able to provide my little sissy with a cute home that we could both enjoy hopefully for the next 2 years and I do look forward that the next home we build is the one we own and not rented. I feel very adult, responsible, and accomplished that I do believe that I can do anything.
It was very brave that we also painted our bedroom walls with dark grey (yes not black as the painter colour blindly saw it). I was thrilled to see that paint could actually be ordered and mixed through a computer. It makes me love technology even more.
Now that the home is settled, next is a car, and a new amazing career that perks me up in every waking day of my life.
In Journal on July 26, 2014 at 10:14 PM
One of the reasons my sissy and I are willing to move to a new apartment is to find a completely bare kitchen so I can buy her an oven. She promised that she will make our apartment smelling so sweet with lovely cakes and delicious muffins.
The first attempt is an Ina Garten’s version of Baked Macaroni. It looked promising from the oven, it turned out just fine but looking fab with the red Staub pot, but I got to admit that I need another round of attempt. Life is nice and filled with new things to learn (like if you say pre heat the oven, how long does that take?) and experiment (use another type of cheddar instead of the suggested extra sharp cheddar, which we didn’t find).