[1: 1,796 of 10,000] I Am Writing With My Soul

I’ve asked myself, if there’s one thing that makes you feel very alive what would it be? If I am being really honest, the answer is writing. It has been proven in the past that when I stop writing, something in me dies.

To keep my spirit all lit up, I have to write. Whatever the world  throws at me, I will explode for a while, but I could always go back to my serene and peaceful writing self.

It is true, if I don’t write, I will not expect my muse to stay and inspire me. If I build my discipline and get on with it, I recognize a divine portal opens up that translates my work into words, then string of thoughts that will eventually become a coherent message.

I have written so many and when I throw them there is no regrets or holding on because I know I can write new ones again.

Are my works just for me? Sometimes it is but I do long sincerely that my writing touches another human being and in that way I am a mere messenger who serves a purpose as a gift for someone and yet in fact, I was simply being alive.

[1: 1,780 of 10,000] I’m Too Blocked To Love

I am not worried that I couldn’t feel anything right now; I mean I felt like I have a heart of stone that I no longer find a reason to wake up every single morning that I truly believe or raving to live for. It’s impossible that I lost the ability to love because I’m sure I am made of it; but I have built such a strong wall blocking the intensity of my love to be shared and received. I have made the perfect shell to protect me from any emotions or dramas.

I am doing some things right but I am probably not in the right place else I wouldn’t feel very empty. My best friend was stressed about something at work that made me share where I am in right now, which is being still yet with occasional freaking out when I think about the million things to do at work. She suggested that I should get a pet; I told her I couldn’t handle that responsibility.

Am I just too critical waiting for the movie climax? It’s not going to happen but the more I get myself to finish things, I get a glimpse of that sense of accomplishments that I am leading towards where I want to go. I am very observant right now on what makes me cry or laugh; and then in those moments of stubborn gladness, I feel truly alive. But, of all these, I am always grateful to God. Maybe, I am in the moment of hibernating; which is a part of my growth and it is beautiful even if I am never been this oddly confused.

[1: 1,772 of 10,000] It Is Beautiful To See

It is beautiful to see when talents, passions, love, and inspiration are at work.

Just watch artists sing their song on stage, having fun, entertaining the crowd, and dancing. It is carefree but we all know works were put into it. It is simply beautiful.

[1: 1,577 of 10,000] Yay BOOKS!

My sister and I passed through a newly built mall and she said she’s happy whenever she sees a new mall. She loves retail shopping and so I understood her excitement.

An acquaintance of mine sent me books all the way from Singapore. I am so amazed that printed books are hopping around the world and they are spreading wildfire inspiration to me. The excitement of my sister on malls are the rush I feel when I see, read, and own books.

I am surprised to see the titles that I received. I never really knew this acquaintance but seeing all the type of books that I received, I am starting to see a whole new person.

I’m so happy I got new books to devour. So amazing! I’m grateful.

[1: 1,562 of 10,000] My Greatest Dreams

Right now my greatest dreams are –

1. Be spiritually awakened and enlighted. It would be nice to be living always in the present. To never be bothered by other’s judgment and to never judge anyone anymore. To be impeccable with my words, to not take anything personally, to be skeptic in finding the truth, and to always do my best.
2. Contribute in making sure that all children feel loved especially those with separated or divorced parents. To tell the children that they are a miracle, a blessing, and loved. I may need to go back to school for this and I would be motivated to learn if that would make me capable to serve with the right knowledge and skills.
3. Award winning and best selling author because then I know that my books reach more readers and I am able to impart my heart and story with good intentions. My intentions for writing is to be honest, to be vulnerable, and to stir change for the better.
4. Being self-sufficient. I labor with love and integrity. Seeing my work as a calling that I don’t depend and borrow from anyone. I will be responsible with my finances and spend what I can afford and what is really necessary. I will be free from getting attached to material things and the psyche of status symbol.
5. To support my relatives by teaching them to live an abundant life not from asking for money but in creating wealth so they will be self-sufficient. To have the wisdom to teach with patience and support them with love. To emphatise but not to tolerate simply giving without the value of true earning.
6. Plant lots of paper trees because I still love writing on paper and it’s responsible to replace them.
7. Being deliberate to only exude positive energy to the world. It’s good for me and for others and there’s really no other way to live harmoniously with one another. To truly love everyone and myself as I am loved by God unconditionally.
8. To stay healthy in mind, body, soul, and spirit. To make gradual improvements everyday for the better because as I grow older each day, my composition changes, and I want the positive change to happen and not dwell on what are deteriorating.
9. Be innovative and creative in building multiple businesses in collaboration with my sisters. We’ll build empires that employees will be grateful and passionate to be part of.
10. To promote equality worldwide and show the light for compassion and collaboration. To erase the line of separation and declaration of territories. To build a nation that’s one and tapping into our individual gifts in making it a beautiful world.

Seems like I got a purpose to live right there and it’s my WHY on having a smile on my face in seeing the sun rises whenever I wake up in the morning. It’s a good life and we are all anointed to be passionate on things that we can change.

[1: 1,551 of 10,000] American Idol XIV For The Last Time

The American Idol is rolling for the last time? I heard last time but I wonder why do the judges tell the contestants who didn’t make it for Hollywood to come back next year? Anyway I’m watching and as usual enjoying the audition episode.

I am grateful to see passionate singers sharing their talent and witnessing that one of their dreams to come true. I remembered being so invested to certain contestants and not seeing them as the grand finals winners sadden me. After learning the power of now and unattachment, I simply marvel to these amazing individuals speak to my soul.

I still love “Somewhere Over The Rainbow” and it was sung by a certain Cody but I will never forget the magic when Katharine McPhee sung it in 2006. You can’t deny that some people could command a presence and there are undeniable moments that the judges could immediately in agreement. The judges are super nice and authentic to their stand. I am happy when three singers join a contestant for a jam; absolutely unscripted and a treat. It’s my first time to witness these three judges for Idol – Keith Urban, Jennifer Lopez, and Harry Connick Jr.; I used to love Simon not for the drama and ego but when he’s unapologetic to say his honest opinion.

Here’s to another season of American Idol!

[1: 1,462 of 10,000] The Gift & Love For Writing

I am an emotional writer and there is no doubt that I love to write and surely I still have a lot to learn to become a great writer.

I never really understood how it is really my gift and passion to write until my sister and I were talking. I told her it is about time that we should collaborate and write our first eBook together. I got two sissies and this is the one who was like my twin sister and we have several successful projects together since college including being part of the literary club as writers and later part of the editorial board.

She was supposed to write some and then after a few days, she sent me a draft and said she couldn’t collaborate with the particular book that I was hoping that we finish together. She admitted that it was painful for her to compose. She doesn’t really like it and even added it is the same dreadful feeling when she signed up as a literary writer in college. I thought she was always able to write but that’s the difference between her and me, I am willing to commit and excited to write even if it takes effort. It was really an awakening.

I don’t think writing is my only path in this lifetime but I am grateful that I’ve figured one of them and practically enjoying it.

I wish you find your passion too and be able to live and share it. 🙂

[1: 1,461 of 10,000] I Am Feeling Special

Do you ever feel like you are meant to do something in this world? Don’t you feel that you are called for greatness beyond your imagination? Is it lunacy that it is what I have been feeling, more strongly right now than ever? I couldn’t paint it in my head but I feel it in my deepest being.

I am thankful that the question finally came and I am asking what am I supposed to do in this life. I am more thankful that I kind of know where should I be headed. There is hunger in my life and I will not accept to live a mediocre life. I will not pursue living without connecting with the people around me. I know the road would be treacherous but every pause is meant to teach me to be courageous so when the quest reaches its climax I would be ready and equipped to conquer it.

I know it is a “mystery” of why I am really alive especially if God loves me so much that He supports every decisions that I make in my life. What I will vow is that I will live with love and passion, nothing less.

[1: 1,451 of 10,000] Highlighting A Book

This is not my crime scene.
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I love to highlight books because it gives you the sense of comfort that you may always go back to that particular line that burst an AHA moment, this is similar to double clicking on Instagram or liking on Facebook, so I may go back and refer on them, love love love this line – swoosh highlight.

My fondest memory is buying a mini pamphlet with varieties of quotations (another favourite of mine), it was printed on a recycled paper, saddle stitched, and green cover. I love so many quotes that I started to almost highlight the entire book and my mother caught me doing just that and asked “Why do you have to do that?” It probably doesn’t make sense for her. I forgot my witty argument at that time but I probably could have said, “I was highlighting the ones that I love and apparently all of them except a few!” 😀

I don’t highlight nowadays, with the absence of permanent residence (yeah, I don’t own my own house yet) I usually have the tendency to either sell or donate my books, except the ones that I am really attached. Giving it to somebody else especially if selling it, I find it inconvenient for the new owner, so I stay away highlighting the books. Another technique that I do instead, I copy the quote and instantly share it on social media, that way, I could always refer.

If I really love the book, I have a little hesitation to destroy its pristine condition, and oddly, most of the lines that I love I could find it, I’m no genius, I pretend to be. 😛 Or in case I couldn’t locate, it’s another excuse to reread the whole book and it not only give me a different dose of inspiration but I tend to grasp new ones especially that I am growing everyday. Some experience before may not resound anything at all but suddenly they have more depth and a new found wisdom for me, it was there all along!!

[1: 1,431 of 10,000] 4 Things That You Can Do Everyday If You Haven’t Unveil Your Passion

What can you do everyday if you have not unveil your passion? I hope you find these suggestions helpful because people have certain way of jam, so give this a try for a week, and if it doesn’t spark anything, I can still assure you that it would give a positive vibe into your life, think of it as an adventure!

On real actions – that needs your energy, time, and focus:

First: Create anything. Making something out of nothing with the use of your intellect and all other senses. For instance, write a blog post, cook a meal, make an origami, plant a seed, find an elusive item, sort out a problem, or anything that you can think of and accessible to you. Create with proper care and presence while you do it, and smiling in action could make it fun, not cray cray.

Second: Learn something new through reading a book or even a magazine, listening from an elderly, watching youtube videos, or in any way that you think you’ll pick up something new to stimulate your brain. You may even want to learn first and then create or doing it simultaneously. Human is too creative to be boxed.

To continue, remember these 2 goals in doing the above 2 exercises:

Third: Whatever you start from the “creation” and “learning,” make sure to finish. Not finishing isn’t only going to disappoint you but it won’t give you the satisfaction that you are moving. It’s a good way to release the dopamine chemical too that gives you a happy high.

Fourth: Be grateful that you are acting to find your calling, you may be clueless now but you are moving and the more we say grace, the more we get that magical idea even out of nowhere that sprung into our wild imagination. Just don’t give up, give it a go!

You are alive not because you just need to exist. You are on a mission to fulfil your purpose. Why is it so important?

If you live your passion, you get fulfilment. It’s not going to be easy but it feels worth every blood, sweat, and tears. And guess what, there is no one out there or those who have ever lived and yet to live to do it better than you. It’s your very unique mission; how cool is that! It is that kind of story that the world hang in a balance and you know exactly how to save the day.

Another big clue for what it should be, it is BIGGER than you. We have a big God, expect grand, and definitely multiplied happiness. Your calling serves so many people, not necessarily a raving fan, but you’re the human with so much love to give that you serve, even if you don’t get paid, but God as He’s always been bless you more than you can ever imagine.