[1: 2,069 of 10,000] Confession In The Rain

If there’s one scene with the perfect lines that I love the most in the First Season of Bridgerton, it’s the profession of Daphne’s love in the last episode. Even accompanied by the melody of Max Richter’s The Four Seasons – Spring.

“Just because something is not perfect does not make it any less worthy of love. Your father made you believe otherwise. He made you believe that you needed to be without fault in order to be loved, but he was wrong. Should you need any proof of the matter, then… Then look just here. I am tired of pretending. And I cannot continue acting as if I… As if I do not love you. Because I do. I love all of you. Even the parts that you believe are too dark and too shameful. Every scar. Every flaw. Every imperfection. I love you. You may think you are too damaged and too broken to ever allow yourself to be happy, but you can choose differently, Simon. You can choose to love me as much as I love you. That should not be up to anyone else. That cannot be up to anyone else. It can only be up to you.” – Daphne Bridgerton

We can learn something significant in those words in this lifetime.

We have to stop pretending to not feel hurt when we are, to not feel appreciative when we are, and feel something so powerful that our hearts burst into explosions of love, laughters and tears.

When we love, it can only be the all. We cannot love the sky without the occasional rain, lightning, thunderstorm, rainbow and sunlight. We cannot love only a part and pretend the rest doesn’t exist. We have to love the shadow and the light and hopefully the love is brought out to shine that we strive to always be better as we flow with life.

In every moment of our life, we always have the willpower to choose the same or differently. We cannot make the excuse that we don’t have the option to choose better to what will give us happiness, joy, growth and peace.

[1: 2,063 of 10,000] Pissed At Steve Carell Playing Mitch Kessler

Last weekend I watched the first season of The Morning Show and Steve Carell played the character Mitch Kessler and I’m so pissed at him. My mind couldn’t separate the actor from the character, he played it so well my blood is boiling that I hated him. It’s a serious sign that I have my own sexual trauma and it’s coming out of the surface. He wasn’t aware that he caused torment to different women in the workplace.

I can totally relate to the women who preferred to freeze and silent themselves because we were never trained how to react when men has advancement that is outright offensive and wrong. I can remember being harassed and I didn’t know how to react. I’ve experienced strangers inappropriately brushing their hand inappropriately and I’m shocked, run away and cried, in one incident it even happened inside a church during a vacation in Jordan. Previous colleagues suggesting to go into relationship with them despite the common knowledge that they’re married. I know that there are still a lot of decent men out there but it doesn’t change the fact too that there are who are blatantly indecent.

Girls and ladies, as Dr. Shefali wrote on the book A Radical Awakening, “The tragedy isn’t just that these men did what they did to a defenseless young girl, as males do to millions of females around the globe. The real tragedy is that our mothers, aunts, and female teachers don’t tell us how to prepare for it. No one told me that I was prey. By being aware of this, you won’t be caught off guard. You will be vigilant, ever present. You will protect yourself as wisely as you can, knowing that even when you do so you will fall to unwanted advances. As soon as this happens, you are to call on your sisters or one of us. You are to reach out for help. You are to speak up and speak out against any abuse. There is no shame in being a victim of a predator. It is not your fault if this happens.”

No one deserves to be violated of their privacy and sacred space. We have to react to stop it, protect ourselves and speak out on the spot! As scary as it can be, let’s try our very best to not freeze and say we’re not condoning it.

[1: 1,868 of 10,000] The Good Wife (2009-2016)

I was obsessed of The Good Wife the moment I started it in Netflix, a total binge watching moment. If I am picky then I didn’t like Cary’s pretend drinking and eating acting. I cried like I’ve never cried before when Will Gardner died.

I told my sister who just become a first time mother to watch it because I like the practical, fun, and yet stern parenting skills of Alicia. It was also Eli Gold’s branding of Saint Alicia that made me believe for sometime that she is an honest woman who wants to get the bottom of things, to honor law and fight injustice, and yet the writers pulled back and made her very human who also try her best of the situation, she is not perfect.

The seventh and final season was not really gripping but I liked all the six seasons. I also liked it that Diane slapped her at the end, it made it a dramatic ending, and as my youngest sister said, that should wake her up.

It is life, I will never know what the future holds. I will never be able to please everyone. It is important to do what I believe, and for heaven’s sake I hope what I believe will lead me to a decent path no matter how challenging it may be.

 

[1: 1,814 of 10,000] Gilmore Girls Is Back On Netflix

I’m in Dubai so I have to wait just a little bit for US to strike November 25th so I can finally see the all new 4 episodes (Winter, Spring, Summer, and Fall) of Gilmore Girls on Netflix.

Incoming spoiler alert, beware!

Forevermore I truly love the mother-daughter relationship of Lorelie and Rory. Whenever the past is being brought up, I remember the teen episode of Lorelie when she’s being her at a very tender age though.

As a woman, I couldn’t help to connect my life with theirs. My mom is gone so I am sort of the Lorelie to my almost 30 year old little sister, yes she’s playing Rory at this part. We are a crazy duo who travels whenever we can, fight relentlessly, binge on television and food, and cheer each other up. The only difference is we mock each other like we really mean it.

The series fell flat in some parts, like they’re all doing things all over again and there were odd scenes, was it just me reminiscing with them and quite surprised to see how they all looked like now?

I’ve seen Gilmore before, I’ve rewatched the entire 7 seasons (I’m committed) on Netflix, and I’m again taken aback that Rory is sleeping with an engaged man. Why does she do that to herself? Or the writers just think they want to represent the most possible truths that romantic people fall in love too easily? Again, she’s lost with her career and going some detour; only to end the show that she’s pregnant. Probably Logan or the recent one-night stand? I couldn’t expect my personal hope of happy ending from a television, after all, I am 4 years older than Rory.

Of all the 4 episodes, Fall made me sobbed starting when Lorelie gave the best memory she could think of about her dad. When Suki reappears and as usual prepared endless array of cakes for Luke & Lorelie’s wedding. I’m cracking up again just by remembering it. And finally, the set for the wedding was beautiful, including the song being played.

I’m happy for Lorelie that she is happy knowing her path… she finally settled down and a true business savvy. She had finally accomplished what she wanted and living the life she needed.

[1: 1,802 of 10,000] Designated Survivor

I’ve watched 5 straight episodes of the latest TV series “Designated Survivor,” another political thriller. If Francis Underwood is one nasty U. S. president not by accident; Tom Kirkman is one very gentle and a righteous one. Now, is it just me and my evil side that I am more fascinated with Frank’s exciting ruthless plotting; than the very soft leader Tom? Or when it comes down to real life, I would rather be lead by a man who is thorough, makes mistakes, but at the time when it matters will make the decision. I feel bad that a good man is boring.

I have to admit that in every end of each episode there is something that hooks me to see the next. Netflix only had 5 episodes otherwise I could have continued seeing everything and call in sick for work the next day. There are moments when Tom’s too much kindness is just chokingly too much; but as I examine my heart isn’t that how it should be, well I like people being good but at the same time strong and decisive at the right moments.

It is not easy to lead people who has so much opinion and don’t want to be lead. You can’t please everybody so they have to go down to a road that they compromise to decide on what’s best for all and a path that leads to progress and coming from good intentions and love.

[1: 1,728 of 10,000] Hey Sherlock, We Meet Again

Elementary (2012-) is my latest television obsession! I distinctively end my first sentence with an exclamation instead of a period because it is how much I adore Elementary in so many respects. I love the execution of Robert Downey Jr. movies and I equally love Elementary. Too much love words in one paragraph, obviously a fan here.

1. Every story line is alive with wit. Every episode was carefully crafted and the string of episodes are consistent. The team writing poured pure genius. It is amazing that with a number of writers they can still keep one voice for each characters.

2. It refreshing that Lucy playing the best friend Watson doesn’t need to wear provocative clothes and clearly they are not going to sleep together (so far until Season 2, Episode 20, they’ve done it in Ugly Betty’s US version for Betty and Daniel, there’s a second hope). Finally, a story that focuses on the crime solving, humanity, and a partnership without sexual tensions with one another .

3. The four main characters play their part so well that it doesn’t get tiring to see them in almost all of the episodes. There’s Holmes, Watson, Greyson, and Bell; great combo!

4. And then there’s the guest star that plays Irene Adler or Jamie Moriarty by Natalie Dormer. It’s a brilliant addition that make the very unique Sherlock a little bit more relatable on the part that he has fallen in love to someone of his equal. There’s a female version for a Holmes.

I have loved House but it almost didn’t end so well. I hope Elementary could keep the storyline incredible and end it when it needs to. Breaking Bad is one of the best television series who started and ended well without dragging the story for the sake of more cash in but ruining the story. Unless Miller couldn’t play Holmes, there is actually rich materials that they can create to make the series gripping one episode after another.

[1: 1,703 of 10,000] Fascination To Kingship

I just finished watching  the Season 1 of Versailles on Netflix and I really can’t deny my fascination to royalties, the power bestowed on them, and their belief that they have been anointed by God to rule.

Let me slice the idea further…

1. Being royal comes with responsibility. You are expected to have proper etiquette, deliver an heir, win battles, and be a ruler.
2. Having POWER gives the privilege, it expects and demands to be respected (sincerely or not, in your face you are most likely is). It is to be served and yet pointing they exist to serve the people, they represent the whole country. I like it whenever Louis XIV is being described or even calls himself “France”. The air of freedom to almost do anything whimsical, hysterical, or over-the-top because the king said so.
3. Anointed by God. How do we explain the immoral acts, is it justifiable because they need to bear children or it is because it is the only entertainment available then? I do believe that they are anointed by God but so is every single person. We do have our role to partake in this play called life.

Next question is, do I want to be royal? To be possibly murdered, be disagreed upon, and yet having the chance to change something, hopefully to inspire and leave the world better than I found it. It could be fascinating but I am just as capable to do so if I play my part now.

[1: 1,694 of 10,000] I Am Mourning #Derek

I heard the news that Dr. Derek Shepherd (played by Patrick Dempsey in the TV series Grey’s Anatomy) died in the series because personally he needed to be with his family and he’s leaving the show.

I just watched the episode that he died yesterday. I know I am a season behind but who cares, I still shed tears everytime I watch Grey’s Anatomy, no wait, I laugh, cringe, and then cry, all in different orders throughtout the show. It’s life full of drama and my emotions identifying to different scenes.

The editing was not something I particularly adore, but the character they’ve portrayed about Derek, a husband who sees his wife as a ‘breath of fresh air’ is quite ideal, almost unreal for real life. And Meredith Grey (the wife played by Ellen Pompeo and the real hero of the show) demonstrated a strong woman who tried to see the brighter side, not summoning to blaming the crappy doctors, grieved, and yet hoped until the very end that his husband wakes up.

Any story that kills a character is heart breaking. Is it because I remember all my losts? Do I remember the death of my mom that if she was attended by better doctors that I could afford she could have survived the cancer? Can we really delay death? Do we need to stop death?

It’s a fact that we all going to die, and while we live, we have to make the most of it. It’s not about living the perfect life, but enjoying the journey, learn from our defeats and build wonderful relationships.

[1: 1,607 of 10,000] First Episode

You can tell a lot about a television show by the first episode. I can judge if I will continue watching it. I got the chance to see “How To Get Away With Murder” today and I am ecstatic! I liked it and I am excited for the next episode, I’m hooked. My favourite expression to say after every amazing tv series is, “now that’s a cliff hanger.” I know I’m behind from all the other fans but I don’t care, I care that I am given the chance to finally see it once a week which is just perfect so I have something to look forward to in the weekend.

I’m a bonafide Shondaland fanatic! 🙂

I remember when I first saw the following television shows and I know that they have a special place in my life:

1. Suits
2. House of Cards
3. House
4. Breaking Bad
5. Grey’s Anatomy
6. Gilmore Girls
7. Scandal
8. Walking Dead
9. Prison Break
10. Gossip Girl

What was your favourite television show that left you a perfect first impression?

[1: 760 of 10,000] The TV Is Alive Again

I was a bit sad to see Suits Season 2 and the re-run of Celebrity Apprentice end. But last night and today, my heart skipped a mile of gladness because I am hoping that the X Factor USA Season 2 and the latest Season of Glee would give me something to look forward to from my idiot creative box week after week.

I was surprise to hear Britney Spears speaks. I don’t mind that she is brutally honest, it was refreshingly good. I mean she has a lovely talking voice. She sounds like she’s singing when she simply is speaking. I love her as a judge on X Factor and I look forward to her comments. I liked the idea that they got the dark chocolate with the wedding veil IN with 3 yeses.