[1: 1,901 of 10,000] Why?

There are moments that I asked WHY?

Why am I alive?
Why was I born the way I was?
Why was my parents died so soon?
Why didn’t I have what I desire?
Is it because I don’t deserve it or I need to work for it?

Why did I want drama?
Why am I wanting to find out what the future holds?
When will my life be over?
What pain do I need to endure to feel worthwhile?

Why am I asking these questions?
Is it time to be more aware to prepare with my next journey?

Or right this very moment, this is living.

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[1: 1,900 of 10,000] Plans

My world right now is enjoying work, back with my exercise regimen of outdoor walking/jogging/running/working out everyday, and list of plans…

1. I am attending a 20th wedding anniversary party this month and I got to buy a perfect present for the couple. 20 years is a long time. The husband which in the beginning of meeting him kept hitting on me (really annoying) so he’s not really someone I adore but thankfully he stopped or else I would immediately say NO for this invite. Out of returning the niceness that he shared a good contact like my amazing current dentist, I will attend a one of. Am I too polite?
2. I have a ticket for a Trevor Noah live comedy show in December. I like his humor and he seems to be a very decent man that I am willing to support him.
3. I am looking forward to spend Christmas in Switzerland, I hope my sister and I could still catch charming Christmas markets and truly feel the spirit of the yuletide season.
4. I need to plan a bachelorette party for a good friend who’s tying the knot next year. I also need to plan my outfit for that whole Philippine trip. I have not seen my home country for 5 years but for honoring a promise that when she gets married I will definitely attend, then I am saying hello to Philippines again. I got to prepare my presents as well to family and friends, it will be like Christmas in the middle of the year. I am so looking forward to eat authentic Filipino foods too.
5. I must schedule to finish writing my second eBook to publish in Amazon until next year. I know I am juggling various book ideas but I got to pick one and commit to write every Friday. I need result!
6. So excited that sissy and I thought of the perfect project that we can already start that is an excellent prelude to our business enterprise.
7. Find a way to ask for a raise at work for more mojo to fund our future business empire. #BusinessOwner #GirlBoss #Chairman

I am very happy that life makes sense. It feels rewarding and fulfilling. I am grateful for experiencing peace.

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[1: 1,899 of 10,000] Listen But Don’t Always Believe

Is your mind kept giving talks? Listen but don’t always believe.

I like to believe though that our mind is really not capable to grasp our willpower that we can do more… like 40% more than what our mind originally believed.

I hear my personal trainers in the gym said that you can do more, challenge yourself more, the limitation is all in the mind, but the body can surely exert more effort. Maybe except the time when my mind was so determined I could do the stepping on a box, but my knee got a mind of its own that I fell down. I laugh myself big time, it was really hilarious, but I know that I just have to strengthen my muscles and be patient. Take good night sleeps and eat right.

Success takes time and it is something worth learning at this time where everything is demanded to be instant.

[1: 1,898 of 10,000] Who You Know Matters

Photo taken during my visit in Stockholm last September (2017) where artist Mattias Norström bent a flag pole in front of Kulturhuset (The House of Culture).

Rules made by men can be bent because human are vulnerable, subjective and flexible. Who you know matters that can help you with just about anything.

I have a prickly habit that following the rules is a must otherwise I fear there would be chaos; and yet winners take courage to bend the rules to make a statement, to grow, or to achieve a dream.

Knowing someone is like winning a Willy Wonka ticket to get in the chocolate factory; but don’t be fooled, it is our talent that keeps us in the desired circle, takes growth to stay relevant, takes perseverance to be wealthy, and finally takes surrender to live in peace.

[1: 1,897 of 10,000] Are you making plans?

Is it optimism or it’s just a mere confidence that when we do set the alarm for tomorrow, it means we are going to rise and live. Being alive where we breathe, there’s warmth in our body, and we have the choice to make hopefully good decisions for the day.

There was one time that I tried to sort out a plan for me in 10 years and I dreaded the result, I thought it was too predictable. I don’t remember what I wrote but if I have to guess they were probably small dreams that didn’t scare me, it did not trigger an excitement, and I don’t wonder why I just abandoned it.

Recently, I was feeling anxious with the absence of security and control in my life that I was experiencing difficulty to sleep; so I started devising my plan from September 2017 until end of 2018. I have big and small projects and I put the effort in writing it, printing it, and even putting it in a beautiful frame to remind me every single day. The plan made me calm down, found peace, and a clear sense of direction. For the first time, I love having a plan, I have a compass and I can focus on them. I just need to be disciplined to put real action points in calendar to make sure that they get done and I’m totally excited to make each one of them to come true. The key here is I am not being too hard on myself but I also held myself accountable; but most of all I am having fun.

What’s your latest plan?

[1: 1,896 of 10,000] This Moment

This moment is the most important
The moment that I catch myself breathing
Letting the air in
Letting my air out

What goes on in my head is not necessarily the truth
What I feel do not represent my conviction
What I have and don’t have do not represent me
Who I am is pure

 

 

[1: 1,895 of 10,000] A Perfect World?

When my mind is clouded I long for a perfect world where all I could feel is peace, happiness, and without pain.

When I heard Peter Rollins spoke about having a perfect world is actually not perfect, because it is going to be boring, and a part of me protested.

Now that I feel so contented, fearlessly caged in my cocoon, then I understood that growth can only happen in suffering, only in enduring pain that I will see an actual progress, otherwise I will ask, “Is this all there is?” The answer is it is not, it can’t be; but it will require my courage to face adversity, it will require my sweat, blood, and tears to leap up, and although it is not going to be easy it will definitely be worth it.

[1: 1,894 of 10,000] Lucky You

Is there such thing that somebody is luckier than ourselves?

Most of us learned to like what we don’t have. What we do not posses seemed exciting, coveted! It is so alluring that we even lose a piece of our dignity, sanity.

We do need to examine what is it that we wanted, needed. Discern whether the choice to be contented or the drive  to thrive is the next action to take.

The Roman philosopher Seneca said, “Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.” It is true, it’s like having insurance, you don’t need it until you need. It takes hours of preparation of even not knowing how exactly will it be used until that moment present itself and it is for us to take it.

Are you really unlucky? Or have you not been preparing? Or didn’t you seize the moment?

 

[1: 1,893 of 10,000] What Do We Really Own?

What do we really own?
Is it anything material?
Is it anything intangible?

Is it the word that we speak?
Is it the deed that we do?
Is it the imagination that we think?

Even our own life is not our own
We return it
But to whom?

Realistically speaking we have basic needs
Beyond that we can choose to leave a legacy
In the end what we truly own is to live our truth

Our truth is when we do what we love
When we live in the present
When we know how to surrender

Surrendering after giving our best
After giving our all
It doesn’t matter what we own

 

[1: 1,892 of 10,000] Fear Emerging

My sister said that we are watching a horror movie and she played “The Green Infierno”. I really don’t know what kind of horror will I expect then it started, the cannibalism that almost halt my heart from beating.

The leader of the tribe in this scene was going to nibble a fresh eyeball newly harvested from a screaming live man.

My mind was completely disturbed because my logical mind knew it could really happen. It made question my desire of eating meat. It build a fear not to travel in unknown places.

It was gruesome and I couldn’t even imagine myself eating another person. I experienced smelling a person burning, when we have cremated the remains of my mother,  it smells like a meat being barbecued but never at the point I will imagine that it will be tasty.

I hope that we will be kinder with one another. May we not bring suffering to another person either physically or even in other ways like verbal or emotional abuse. May we progress to socially live with others in a respectable way.