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[1: 1,896 of 10,000] This Moment

In Poem on September 21, 2017 at 11:55 AM

This moment is the most important
The moment that I catch myself breathing
Letting the air in
Letting my air out

What goes on in my head is not necessarily the truth
What I feel do not represent my conviction
What I have and don’t have do not represent me
Who I am is pure

 

 

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[1: 1,895 of 10,000] A Perfect World?

In Question on September 17, 2017 at 12:47 AM

When my mind is clouded I long for a perfect world where all I could feel is peace, happiness, and without pain.

When I heard Peter Rollins spoke about having a perfect world is actually not perfect, because it is going to be boring, and a part of me protested.

Now that I feel so contented, fearlessly caged in my cocoon, then I understood that growth can only happen in suffering, only in enduring pain that I will see an actual progress, otherwise I will ask, “Is this all there is?” The answer is it is not, it can’t be; but it will require my courage to face adversity, it will require my sweat, blood, and tears to leap up, and although it is not going to be easy it will definitely be worth it.

[1: 1,894 of 10,000] Lucky You

In Article on September 16, 2017 at 11:54 PM

Is there such thing that somebody is luckier than ourselves?

Most of us learned to like what we don’t have. What we do not posses seemed exciting, coveted! It is so alluring that we even lose a piece of our dignity, sanity.

We do need to examine what is it that we wanted, needed. Discern whether the choice to be contented or the drive  to thrive is the next action to take.

The Roman philosopher Seneca said, “Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.” It is true, it’s like having insurance, you don’t need it until you need. It takes hours of preparation of even not knowing how exactly will it be used until that moment present itself and it is for us to take it.

Are you really unlucky? Or have you not been preparing? Or didn’t you seize the moment?

 

[1: 1,893 of 10,000] What Do We Really Own?

In Poem on September 3, 2017 at 4:52 PM

What do we really own?
Is it anything material?
Is it anything intangible?

Is it the word that we speak?
Is it the deed that we do?
Is it the imagination that we think?

Even our own life is not our own
We return it
But to whom?

Realistically speaking we have basic needs
Beyond that we can choose to leave a legacy
In the end what we truly own is to live our truth

Our truth is when we do what we love
When we live in the present
When we know how to surrender

Surrendering after giving our best
After giving our all
It doesn’t matter what we own

 

[1: 1,892 of 10,000] Fear Emerging

In Article on August 26, 2017 at 11:28 PM

My sister said that we are watching a horror movie and she played “The Green Infierno”. I really don’t know what kind of horror will I expect then it started, the cannibalism that almost halt my heart from beating.

The Green Infierno

The leader of the tribe in this scene was going to nibble a fresh eyeball newly harvested from a screaming live man.

My mind was completely disturbed because my logical mind knew it could really happen. It made question my desire of eating meat. It build a fear not to travel in unknown places.

It was gruesome and I couldn’t even imagine myself eating another person. I experienced smelling a person burning, when we have cremated the remains of my mother,  it smells like a meat being barbecued but never at the point I will imagine that it will be tasty.

I hope that we will be kinder with one another. May we not bring suffering to another person either physically or even in other ways like verbal or emotional abuse. May we progress to socially live with others in a respectable way.

[1: 1,891 of 10,000] Taste of Life

In Article on August 11, 2017 at 1:12 AM

Do you really find the world a dreaded place? You failed a few times but don’t forget that you’ve won too. Why are you so afraid living in the present and in doing so you hold on too tight of the past and weary about the future?

You said you are smart. You believed you know love. You learned that mistakes and pains were part of the tools to gain wisdom and make better decisions. Actions are key to feel the grit of life.

Why would you give up life after tasting it? Some people begged for another day, another chance, immortality even; because they have found what is worth living for. Don’t tell me you have not discovered the meaning worth living for!

I will let you in to a secret, what is your preference? Surely you will like one genre of a television series, are you “Suits,” or “Breaking Bad,” or “House of Cards,” or “The Middle,” or “Game of Thrones” watcher? Then list some more of matters that interest you, and in those you will find what you truly care for. When you are brave and honest enough, you will enjoy the entirety of life.

[1: 1,890 of 10,000] Tinder Experience

In Review on August 5, 2017 at 4:22 AM

Match

I downloaded the Tinder app, signed up, deleted my account, signed up again, deleted my account again, and finally deleted the app in a span of less than two months.

I am scared to be flirty although I did try and made an effort. I am afraid to fall in love with a wrong man… I know the mere thought of finding a wrong man already set me up for disaster. I doubt that the man I want to settle down with signed up in Tinder. Could it be that as hesitant as I may be is the same feeling of the man I am meant to meet?

Or are we crossing paths but I never looked, paused?

For something to happen, I need to take an action, but I couldn’t seem to stomach signing up in Tinder and swiping as fast as I can. In seconds judging an individual with their photos and brief write up then making all these assumptions.

I hated it when I mistakenly liked or even super liked somebody I don’t even meant to be just because my silly thumb has a mind of its own to the right direction. I swiped left too soon and missed the possibility of I might like that man. I wonder if I am going to find a really honest gentleman. I laugh when I found a match only after a few minutes one of us would decide we are not a match after all ouch quick rejection!

It feels like so much work to be part of it so I have to challenge myself and find another way to meet good men. I have to sign up for activities where I will actually interact with men.

[1: 1,889 of 10,000] Have Fun!

In List on July 15, 2017 at 9:33 AM

Have fun whatever my age is.

Go do something new and laugh.

Make mistakes, learn, and laugh.

Whatever is making me nervous can be addressed.

Don’t jump to conclusion and create worries that are inexistent.

Do something, act, and I’ve beaten procrastination.

Don’t dream what could have been, do it.

Did the sun shine? Did I breathe? Did I open my eyes? Did my heart beat? Today?

I got all the chances to live and have fun!

[1: 1,888 of 10,000] What My 37 Year Old Self Is Still Learning

In List on July 4, 2017 at 12:01 PM
  1. I do the work and the worry will dissipate.
  2. Do not stop until I finish the task to avoid procrastination. To have the discipline to focus on one task at a time because although multi-tasking can be done, I couldn’t depend on it resulting to a quality work.
  3. Mastery takes time; it takes repetition and doing it better than the last time, showing up, be creative to mix a new ingredient, and keep the burning passion alive.
  4. Who are you trying to please? Work that God is cheering on me, the God who loves me unconditionally and directs me to my best with my willingness. Listen to constructive criticism and forgive the wrong critiques.
  5. Make mistakes, laugh at them, be accountable, and learn not to repeat them. Don’t be too hard on myself because if tomorrow I wake up, it is for a reason.
  6. It’s not because it has always been done means it’s the right way. Life continues to evolve to a new height. I don’t need to expect myself to be married and have kids now; but I do need to work on building a business empire with my sisters.
  7. I know what makes me happy, gives me excitement, and joy. They are clues to MY path. I should do them more often even if it scares me, even if there’s a revolt going on inside of me, and make a mastery out of it. I must do this for me and the world will appreciate it that I did it with love.
  8. What breaks my heart points me to what I want this world to heal from. Put seeds in those areas and let it grow.
  9. Live a life with integrity. Honor my words and commitment. Show up to new things even if I am scared. Be the change I want to see. Leave this world better than I found it.
  10. Meaningful relationship will enrich my life and I have to make an effort to build them.
  11. Teach people how I want to be treated like setting the boundary and say yes if it’s a yes.
  12. Don’t judge people in cluster, judge based on personal contact. Don’t put the label before I have given myself a chance to know the person.
  13. I need to slow down, sleep well, eat right, exercise, and keep learning new things through books, podcast, videos, and going out there to live a life. I pray to talk to God to send my thoughts but it is through my quietness and meditation that He sends His.
  14. Simplify and stop buying stuffs that either get thrown or not used. Learn to be a minimalist.
  15. Of all my confusion and clutter, I withdraw them and surrender to the moment that I find peace and I am contented that I have one thing to be grateful for.

[1: 1,887 of 10,000] Silence

In Journal on July 4, 2017 at 10:47 AM

My sister, my only flat mate, just left to have a vacation in Europe. I am left alone in our one bedroom apartment in Dubai. I couldn’t stand the silence for a long time knowing that I am alone and resulted to opening the television, playing something from Netflix through my laptop, or playing a podcast out loud from my phone. But when my sister is around, I love the wee hours where there is complete quietness and I can hear my raging thoughts, making plans for the future, and listing my graces that I’m grateful for.

There is a puzzle in my head that I couldn’t solve, my heart is restless and there’s struggle in my dreams when I sleep. I feel that I am close to solving it though, the pieces are all over the place but maybe I am missing a key, and I want desperately to finish in order to see the picture. I am haunted for not finishing and yet I also see the beauty of having it unfinished; but is settling with the unfinished showed that I got a mindset of a blind investor who did not calculate the risks?

I am worried, probably because of the Venti Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks or my body demands that I hit the gym. There are split moment that I caught myself to cease the worrying because it is not useful, but instead have the courage to do the work and show up to the things that I am passionate about, work to be great at it, or pursue to make it happen.