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[1: 1,880 of 10,000] Learning Heartache

In Journal on May 25, 2017 at 1:36 PM

I don’t know if I have properly love somebody but I could certainly agree that I have obsessed with various men hoping that they love me back. Do they call that unrequited love? Or am I so cray cray that they ran as far and fast that they could?

In my search for true love, I go back to the Bible’s definition of it, I still believe it is the most legit to consult for the purest meaning of anything in life, didn’t they even put HOLY to emphasize the divinity of it? 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 is my go to definition.

What I learned though, at the very moment that I am in love (or obsessed) with someone, my mind constantly associate him in almost anything that I come across. It could be another movie star, a thing, and yet everything that reminds me of him totally vanished its power the moment I am over him.

I always thought I will never see Chris Pratt or Michael Fassbender the same way again because their lips remind me of somebody I thought I love; but now that I see these two movie stars, I couldn’t even remember his face clearly as I used to. I just laugh now whenever I remember the days that I was crying over him and getting jealous without even having the right position to do so. It’s messed up and I am relieved that I am over it.

To those who suffer with lost love, it’ll pass. You will heal and I say that without bitterness.

[1: 1,879 of 10,000] Learning Failure

In Journal on May 20, 2017 at 11:00 PM

I am avoiding making mistakes; then I forego the notion of daring the unknown. I am afraid that outside my comfort zone is equivalent to I am a failure. Yet the itch of not growing shouts so loud from my core.

I am avoiding disagreement with anyone; then I settle to being silent and not seeing the change of getting the present situation to improve for the better. I am afraid that I will not be heard and that my ideas are but a failure.

Will I stay afraid? I don’t want to not use my freedom to be great. I will entertain failure as my teacher. I will embrace mistakes so I may blossom.

Tonight I will sleep and when I see the sun rises tomorrow when I become awake, it is my sign that I have another chance to live life with courage.

[1: 1,878 of 10,000] Changes This June

In Journal on April 29, 2017 at 3:28 AM

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June is going to be a very special time for me. I am turning 37 and I am moving to a new apartment.

I am dying to move to my own 4-bedroom house but the 25% cash upfront as down payment for a Million Dirham Dubai villa plus other fees are something I am not prepared. Am I really going to invest in real estate in Dubai?

I have been wary that I am so old but still an employee, still scare with where I am stirring my life, and that some younger people were more accomplished than myself. I am slowly coping that I must not compare myself to others because I have my own special journey.

I do worry if is this the right journey at all? Then I go back to…

  1. Am I being present?
  2. Am I enjoying my journey?
  3. Am I feeling fulfilled?
  4. Am I being helpful to others?
  5. Am I making someone feel special?
  6. Am I being challenged?
  7. Am I having dreams?
  8. Am I feeling afraid and courageous at the same time?
  9. Am I excited?
  10. Am I hopeful?

Yes.

🙂

Photo source: Clip Art Kid

[1: 1,877 of 10,000] What Was Your Reason God?

In Article on April 29, 2017 at 1:08 AM

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Two men that I respect for their spiritual belief belonging from two completely different countries but both love God answered these line of questions with identical answer. If God is so loving and would only want the best for mankind, His very own creation, then why are there so many sufferings? Why do bad things happen to good people? Their answer is…

“I don’t know.”

It is true that God works in pretty mysterious ways. I often wonder why do Father rape their own daughters? Why do criminals due to their mental illness exist to havoc emotional and physical pain to the people around them and don’t even realize that they do? Why do God let the simple meeting the basic needs of food and clean water being so difficult? Where is God?

I also don’t know…

  • But I got reminded that human race carried a curse when Adam and Eve have eaten the forbidden fruit in the garden of Eden.
  • I also have faith that God never stopped loving men and send miracles despite the outer suffering that men’s naked eyes could see but not for the intellect to possibly comprehend and grasp.
  • God sent His only begotten son Jesus to be the way, the truth, and the life for men. He died for men’s sins for a beautiful and promising eternal life.

It does puzzle me that if heaven is all beautiful, why are men need to be on Earth to endure so many challenges that breaks the hearts and loan the souls?

  • “Heaven is in our midst,” those words lead me to not rush and crave for the afterlife but to enjoy peace in the present. Peace is not the absence of distraction but peace within me directly connecting with the almighty.
  • Finally, I believe that through battling my challenges, I become stronger. When I suffer, I develop empathy and would be able to be kinder to the others who suffer the same. And when I am truly tuned in, I could make a difference to make this world better than I found it. That’s just me; but what if the thinking spreads to every single one on Earth, it’ll be revolutionary.

The pain is part of the hero’s journey despite pain doesn’t stop with just one. Just like a rough diamond is not brilliant until it goes through some ridiculous amount of meticulous cutting and grinding.

Photo source: The New Yorker

 

[1: 1,875 of 10,000] My 12 GYM Rules

In List on April 21, 2017 at 5:19 PM

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  1. I will never be ashamed to be flabby and sweaty. I am in the gym exactly to shed fats so being embarrassed that I don’t look good is out of the equation.
  2. I listen to my personal trainer. I am a very conscientious person and a rule follower (as much as I can) and so I really take it to heart when he says, “Challenge yourself.” If the weight or intensity of the routine is too easy, I really admit it and request to make it more challenging.
  3. I listen to my body too. I am not physically strong at all times and I couldn’t do all the routines; so if my body is tearing down, like having a mind of its own, like I once fell, then I stop and rest.
  4. Bring a water bottle. I always need to drink between routines as it makes me breathe and relax.
  5. Sleep properly. My body is well rested if I get 7 hours, so I do that.
  6. I show up to my 3-times a week gym schedule on time unless there’s a work travel.
  7. I eat healthier choices. I try to eat more frequently in proper proportion. I have not drink Diet Coke since I started going to gym; there are split moments that I wanted to indulge to drink a bit but stopped myself. Those extra weights make my push up harder!
  8. I love my sore body parts a day after a gym workout knowing they’ve been shaken up.
  9. Invest in proper gym clothes to be comfortable.
  10. Never give up too easily and complete the routine as hard as it may be. Master my weak mind that wanted to give up. I hope one day, I can do the… “Start counting when I want to stop.”
  11. Enjoy every moment and I was even enjoying it more whenever my body produced endorphins.
  12. I do this as a part of my lifestyle now because I wanted to be healthy. Exercise gives me energy to do more productive things. Gretchen Rubin was right to include exercise to have the right kind of energy in her Happiness Project.

[1: 1,874 of 10,000] Change Is Difficult But Worth It

In Journal on April 21, 2017 at 4:56 PM

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Change is difficult but it is important to step outside my comfort zone to see progress. A life without progress was the feeling of death due to depression.

I am so grateful that I can afford it so I signed up for gym membership and a personal trainer and it is changing my life positively.

I never like exercise but my right working mind knows that my body needs it. It is futile for me to go to the gym without signing up for a guide otherwise I would just end up messy without doing the exercise correctly, I needed professional help. I also need somebody to boost my confidence that I am doing something right (regardless that he is paid to do so).

I have always thought that my body will always have a fat limit, always comfortable saying, ‘This is the fattest that I have ever been’; only to notice that every year I get heavier as I age. I kept eating unhealthy food, I LOVE RICE, and I wasn’t moving. I couldn’t fool myself that I have my limit because my weight kept increasing, my belly looked like a nine-month pregnant or carrying a beer belly like my dad did (yet I don’t even like beer), I now have food allergies, and worst depressed with life although I conceal it.

I have been going to the gym as much as possible three times a week. I usually go home sore in various body parts but I feel really happy. Every time I sweat profusely at the gym, it feels like shedding off my bad voodoos away. I am automatically also conscious about what I eat now and really paying attention to my trainer who knows best except counting the calories of all food intake, I still don’t want to learn that.

My tummy is now smaller than it used to be. My happiness level is genuine and moving uphill. My energy is not 100% strong but I have that inner glow to appreciate the beautiful, to be very hopeful that life is freakishly amazing, and the will power to make things happen. Was all these a result of the gym, maybe not, but it is one heck of a great starting point for a positive life. Go and exercise, not necessarily for weight loss, but think to live a ‘healthy life’.

Photo Source: Business Insider

[1: 1,873 of 10,000] My Wake Up Call Is A DEVIL Tarot Card

In Journal on April 1, 2017 at 4:22 PM

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I was down… drowning.

Emotionally that I have thought repeatedly of being dead is better but I know I will never attempt suicide and I didn’t have to because I live each day without peace and it is as good as dead. I am drained even at work for being unable to excel, tensed to achieve perfection at all times, and got undermined.

Physically because I am gaining weight slowly but surely, last year my food allergy got revealed from poultry, egg, and seafoods – imagine all seafoods, including maki’s nori. I miss my fried chicken and my Japanese food.

I am lonely.

I long for someone to hug me and I don’t get it anywhere. I know that I have to completely love me before I go looking for someone to do that or it’s an absolute disaster. I know God loves me but I couldn’t connect with Him because I am not making any positive change.

I like to peek the future. I like to look forward to a good news. I went to see a tarot card reader and she was blatant that everything looks well except for a ‘dark’ one blocking everything. She reminded me to be grateful but in my head I am but it just doesn’t feel light. I do sense a block. My world was shaken up when the ‘devil’ card appeared. Am I Dexter now with my own type of ‘dark passenger’?

As soon as I left the tarot card reader, I decided that I am not going to be defeated by a devil or my own silliness of thinking that I am better than everyone else or I am too bad than everyone else. I am going to make my life beautiful.

Right now, I smile, a good one.

[1: 1,872 of 10,000] 10 Things About Passengers

In List on March 11, 2017 at 11:57 AM

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Released in 2016 and expect spoiler in the below list!

  1. The ship is very chic especially the Gold class cabin. I like the stairs. I love the swimming pool, it got a great outer space view. I like that you get to roam around the space conveniently.
  2. What’s up with the class, creating a new world and still the hierarchy is there?
  3. Aurora’s clothes are soft, looks expensive, and flatters her even more.
  4. Great plot twists especially the Jim dilemma of waking Aurora. Amazing that the story was sustained by 4 characters and the ship. I also like the title, one word, and it encapsulated the whole story.
  5. It was a delight seeing the beautiful Chris and Jennifer on screen.
  6. Writer adores writing about a writer character. I wouldn’t wonder why.
  7. I wonder if living for 90 years have made Jim and Aurora consumed good amount of food that would leave other passengers to lose ration?
  8. The robot Arthur was loaded with great wisdom.
  9. My favorite line is from Aurora, she said, “If you live an ordinary life all you will have is ordinary stories.” I also like Jim’s enthusiasm for creating a new world, saying, “I see 5,000 people changing their lives for 5,000 different reasons.”
  10. It is a choice to kill oneself but it is not easy. It crossed my mind that I would like to end my life, I have no purpose or nothing to live for, but like Jim I will always hesitate. Is it because it is innate in human that it is natural to breathe until it is practically impossible. Are we all Jim who will take away a future of somebody or are we Jim who live the most out of life with the comfort of having a meaningful relationship with another human being?

[1: 1,871 of 10,000] Pasta In Italy

In Article on March 11, 2017 at 11:06 AM

The pasta in Italy is the most delicious pasta I have ever tasted in my entire life. Even the packed pasta for mass distribution tasted great.

Whenever I think of Italy now, I would always remember the delicious Pasta al Pomodoro that I have consistently ordered during my visit in Rome because it didn’t disappoint.

I never expected that I will travel the world when I was young. I lived in a simple town in the Northern Philippines and it never occur to me that I must travel. Now that I have experienced visiting different countries, I would recommend that it is great to travel for vacation. It is expensive sometimes depending on preferred set-up like 5-star hotel over lower ones, it needs preparation, but the positive impact outweighs every challenging bits.

Going to a new country awakens all the senses but mostly it triggers excitement and the sense of wonder. If I’ve never visited Italy, I could have not known the best way to be served with the authentic Italian pasta.

Go and plan your next adventure and discover something that will inspire you!